weekly addiction.

Dear Luling & Kwa zi,

Oyster Mee Sua, Shangri La Donuts, and the two of you have been my weekly addiction. Cum therapy! (We are Tuesday Thursday people!)

The three of us skipped school today! & We met to study @ Bishan library! Yay(: I think Bishan library can become a weekly addiction toooo.

Yoohoo. I love Physics but I hate Math. >=(

For some funny reason, I can't wait for school tmr!


(Ps: If you see this, Corinne, thanks soo much! (: )

mae.

we made plans to be unbreakable,
love was all we knew.
no insurance for the unthinkable,
blindly get us through.
we've been searching for a lifetime,
short as it may seem.
riding on the fumes that spark us,
while igniting dreams.
mistakes we knew we were making.
mistakes we knew we were making.
don't think about chances we're taking,
mistakes we knew...

driving in the rain to the hospital,
quiet aches intense,
what at once just seemed the impossible,
now makes perfect sense.
we held hands to face the uncomfortable cold,
and lonely room.
magazines and empty distractions
barely got us through.
mistakes we knew we were making.
mistakes we knew we were making.
don't think about chances we're taking,
mistakes we knew...

and when we try to think of the life inside,
we found ourselves looking at the world through new eyes.
what can now be said?
oh, little one on the other side.
dance until the band stops playing,
sing with all your might.
mistakes we knew we were making.
mistakes we knew we were making.
don't think about chances we're taking,
don't think about rules we were breaking.
mistakes we knew...
the list goes on and on.
the list goes on and on..........

-MAE

"Just like building walls are alot harder than breaking them"

I met Feiiers yesterday! Where we went to our usual (: But this time, there were no cute kids to observe, but couples! Okay, not like we deliberately wanted to observe them, but they were just all around us! Especially the one next to us. Omg, it was so drama mamama, we didn't know if we should cry with them or laugh. But one thing I must say man, I really admire that girl's patience. Her tolerance level and patience is like wayy up la. Good good. Oh, and one more thing, the new age self abuse is not cutting anymore man! It's pinching yourself! (Looks at Feiiers.)

Anyhooo, I was telling myself to call Ding when I got home, but she called just as I was leaving! Cool man. Went down to meet her, WENDY GAY BOY, ZOE DOTS(: and zoe lookalike!

Anyway, while we were there, and I was talking to Ding. One out of 3 of them, or maybe all three of them, suddenly commented "Eh, she (I don't know which 'she') say the two of you look like a couple."

OMGZ. But anyway, here's my ffffaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy-vvvvrrrrrrrrriiiiiittttttteeeeeeee bimbo, with her new hot pink bimbo phone. (It's Zoe's)

MY FAVOURITEST. =D

I'm strained in my tension of opposites.

**

Wake up it's time
We need to find a better place to hide
Make up your mind
I need to know I need to know tonight

Sweet and divine
Razor of mine
Sweet and divine
Razorblade shine

Patience my dear
We could spend a lifetime waiting here
Maybe this time
I hope I get the chance to say goodbye

Day after day
Cutting away
Day after day
But anyway

superstar!

If you think you look like a cool superstar, check it out HERE.
But you'll have to sign up, and since I was lazy, and poks volunteerily did it for me.

read my fingers says:i upload a grp photo and ur face is 71% of jay chou
read my fingers says:no wonder so dao

wahlaoeh, tmd.

STEADY AS SHE GOES.

Becca's attempt to be a mugger. (:
Tong came by to school for Colours! So we met up for a while!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEN!

Mr Pilot-to-be, I hope you enjoyed yourself(:

Today, I lazed at home, stuffed myself with food (And I have Carls Jr for dinner), and watched lotsa movies. (HBO and Dvds la)

Elizabethtown on Dvd! (Thanks Crabby!) It was really nice (: (:
There was this part, which I'd really remember. Claire was telling Drew about how she knew people and their names.

Drew: Today I was fired by a Phil.
Claire: Phil? Phils are dangerous. They are less predictable than Bens.

Hah, so am I dangerous too?

Last week's Before Sunrise, and Before Sunset is still in my head. They are two good (but a little too much talking) movies. Like Weishan said, "you must love lit, to appreciate the movie".

Part of a beautiful song: (Plain white T's!)

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

To my everdearest lifelong commitment, you are 31 months old! Haha. I love you fg-precious-d, you know that. (: Sorry I always don't keep track la, but since you love me too, you'll forgive me right? (:

-

Ecc 4:-12 says: Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work;
10 If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

(I got this from Eme's blog, and thought I'd share.)

Let somebody love you, before it's too late.

Okay, since today is Thursday,
it's 42 days to A levels right?
Right, I think so.
I will start when it's 40. Okayokay.

Today, Ling & I went down to Bishan library after school while waiting for tuition.
Where she became my Tall, Dark, Handsome, Loving, Organised, Smart boyfriend who is everything I've always wanted. HAHA.
And we got a cubicle too! YAY! =D Then I was looking down and I saw 2 PL girls, then I told ling, and guess what? It was Verns & Mings! (: Pleasant surprise. I saw Belle there later too.

So since we didn't bring anything to do, we spent the 2 hours talking, and the last one hour eating/shopping. AHHH, and after dinner/buying zi her currypuff, she called to tell us tuition's cancelled. ))): (Ps: Shih Lin Oyster Meesua is the best!)

& OMG, Shawn left for UK a week ago, and I only found out today! OMGZZZZZZ.

Call me dumb, but I never knew phones in UK were for no extra charge so long as you suscribe to their plans. In addition, you get to change your phone once a year for no extra charge too. WAHLAO EH.


AAANNNNYYYYYYWAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYSSSSSSSSSSS,
have you ever wondered why the word, "Understand" is "Under-stand" and not something else?
I've always associated words with "under" and "over" with negative meanings, like "under estimate", "over priced", "over rated", "under lying", blahblahblah.

But in this case, "Understand" is a good word, isn't it?

Okay, that was extremely random.

IN CONCLUSION,
without the sour, the sweet wouldn't taste.
without failures, you wouldn't know the true feelings to successes.
without meeting the wrong ones, you won't appreciate the right ones.

Hugs darling, YAY!!!!! =D

T for Touchrugby.

So, I'm more or less done with the receiving of my results.
Grah, Miss Soh talked to me today and said "I marked your paper you know!"
Guess what I replied, "I failed right?"
She said "Yeah."

Okay, I knew it. Sitting there a few weeks ago, I stoned my first 15 minutes away, then was in a dilemma cos I didn't know which question to do. Then settled for one of the toughest questions with an astronomical amount of keywords to look out for.
But why did I still do it? No idea.

With half an hour left and I was doing my rebuttal, I told myself "OH AM GEE. I'm doing the freaking wrong qn, cos I totally interpreted it wrongly!"
But guess what. There ain't any time to do write anything right anymore.

**

I really like how I spent my "First Day" back in School.
First, we had TEAM SA TEA RECEPTION! Which was damn gooooood.
No, I don't mean the food, but being able to meet the WHOLE TEAM again.
Gosh, I've missed them. It was nice to gather around, catch up a little, laugh at one another, scream over silly things, AND PLAN FOR A STAYOVER (FINALLY!)

Oh, of course, I talked to ah gong for 2 minutes but he spent 1 and a half laughing at my COCK fringe. And a whole hour with SWEEEEEEEEEETS (whom I've so badly neglected) and I'm so glad we still love each other. (You do right, we don't have to say it?)

THENNNNNNNNNNNN, We watched the STAFF-STUDENT soccer match til 7+!
Okay, it was a 28th + 6th council together (kinda) and WE WON 5-1!!!!!!!
Though the ONE goal to the Staff wasn't very deserving cos the penalty was so undeserving and Daniel nearly saved it!

To BOSS, MASTER TEE, and my DEAR UNCOOL FORK WHOM I THINK IS SO COOL TODAY, PROUD OF YOU GUYS! =D

Sweets said, "It's been long since we last stayed in school til this time."
AGREE! I miss seeing the sun set, walking back to the caf when everything around you was pitch dark, walking out of school or laying on the track and gazing at stars, and of course, climbing gates. =
And my mom came to pick me up today. She volunteered. So sweeet! =D

**

On an extra bimbotic note (cos I think my entry sounds extremely mindless brainless today), I had an extremely busy but fulfilling Monday(:

But you know, at the end of the day, my displacement is ZERO. Cos I travelled from home to bishan to thomson back to bishan then to town and back to bishan. So in one day, I was in Bishan for THREEE times!

Thank you CRABBY (& the cold-hot krispy kreme donut), ZIPOKS who willingly left home just for a few hours with me, VERNS/MINGS/CHLOE for being so embarrassing, distracting and noisy at Bishan library, MAMADAOOOOOOO for accompanying me to cut my hair, and SU DEAREST for allowing me to be the first to ever "split" both of you, and spending a lovely few hours with me.

**

"i'll try to make sure you hang on"
OMGZ thanks Angel, that was so sweet =D


&&&&&&& PONG WE NEED TO GO TANNING SOON.
EVERYONE'S TELLING ME I'M SO FAIR.
(and please don't ask if I'm anorexic because I obviously am not! But thanks to all those who keep shoving me with food! HAHA!)


Ps: It's tudi shifu day! 3rd year!

9enuine?

One afternoon, I am complaning about the confusion of my ages, what is expected of me versus what I want for myself.

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" He says.

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
A tension of opposites, like pulls on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in them middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

"A wrestling match." He laughs.
"Yes, you could describe life that way."

So which side wins? I ask.

"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
"Love wins, Love always wins."

(Mitch Albom)

**

Ding, I truly, deeply love you. But don't worry, we are not in love! Haha.
Thanks for making me cry, though I really cannot believe how happy you were that you managed to do that to me.

I love Ding, And I love Chompchomp sessions with her.
But I cannot say the same for Serangoon Garden. Not that I do not love being there with her.
But that place haunts.


Btw, Devil wears Prada is really good. I really like it!
Do you realise, shows with Anne Hathaway always involve her in make overs? Haha.


Enough slacking! Time to start studying! (Tomorrow)

OH YARRRRRR, and to my dear candice kiddomiddodiddo, thank you. HAHA.

~

OKAY.
I wish I was less lazy
and had my passport thing settled LONG TIME AGO.
But first, I need to take a passport sized photo.
But no, I'm not gonna do it before I cut my hair.
OMG
If only I did everything before this weekend,
I WILL BE IN GENTING NOW.
fgjkofjbkflner man.

Random photo, really. 400M Hurdles ain't easy. But I so freaking love it. (:

Weirdress, I have been so nostalgic lately. The rain makes me more emo. Hoho. Today, I took out my sec school/pri school stuff and looked at them, from neoprints to classphotos to random photos to letters to notes to cards. AHHHHHHHh, I miss those rather peaceful days.

Okay, so random but-

I WANT TO WATCH SINGAPORE IDOL FINALS. ):

Rain, rain, go away.

Joke of the day:
"Why doesn't the letter C like the letter A?"


-->Because the letter A is A-nal.

(Not funny right?)

**

HOORAY
TGIF.
But this means the Chem people must start studying soon!

Anyway, I AM DAMN SAD.
That it had to rain TODAY, of all days.
When I had my day so beautifully planned out already.
TO GO JOG AND SHAKE EM FATS OFF.

But damn. The rain's such a spoiler. And it doesn't help that it rained practically half the day away.

Mom left for genting today! I didn't even get to say bye. ):

I spent half my afternoon whining about how bored I am. GRAH.

What a mindless, brainless entry.
It must have been the toothache(s). (Ps: IM GETTING RUBBERBANDS NEXT DENTAL!)

It's not always rainbows and butterflies, It's compromise that moves us along.

#1: Late night tuition on Monday.
#2&3: PRETTY Sunflowers sight seeing and dinner, candy empire splurging, dinner at NewyorkNewyork with my dearest hugs darling*
#4: random. Looks so artsyfartsy cooliomolio.

Prelims are a bitch.
I swear they ruin everything.
Cos they have.
And it's worse when the efficiency is <50%.>

(Okay, i thought i whined about how warm classrooms are, how distracting some chem teacher conducting lessons opposite was, but seems like it disappeared! okay, good too i guess. hur. )

49DAYS TO A LEVELS.




Dear Angel aka X,
Thank you. (: -->signature smiley. (: (:

The Selfish and The Selfless.

Retard Teoh says "I'm a retard!" but writes, "Retad".

Because, retards can't spell their own names. sitting our cosy cosy circle in a "corner" in bishan library.

This takes the toll up to 13.

Zong, if you see this, MTL! Go and study.

Nick, MCL laaaaaaaa!!

Yanns, let's TYT. :D

OH YEAH,

WAHLAOEH, My TEAMSA keychain fell off yesterday.

TMDTMD. I'm damn sad la, I traced my steps but couldn't find it! GRR.

Swiss Sunrise.

Swiss Sunrise @ Haagen Dazs after Tuition on Thursday.
Strawberry, Macademia Nut, Apple pie.
Strawberry jam fight.
I wish there was more.

Idol. (: I wish Paul didn't have to go.
I wish they didn't leave Paul & Jon at the bottom.
I still wish Paul didn't have to go,
though undeniably, he is the weakest link. ):

So Incorrectly Correct.

My heart has lost its wind now Broken like a dead sail My love has drifted out to sea My body has been claimed Soul has been shipped away Can't feel the sand between my toes We set the wrong course and headed due north That's where we went wrong We were young and learning steady hearts hate turning That's where we went wrong Take me break me every mile further there's a part of me that slips away One day you'll see Even if you got down on your knees you couldn't make me stay I'll stay strong I'm pushing on the pedal till I break dawn So I'm gone, go find another shoulder you can cry on And now our shades become shadows in your light In the morning wind we're through and tomorrow rescues you,I will say goodnight I will say goodnight who shot that arrow in our throat? who missed the crimson apple? it hung heavy on the tree above your head. this chaos this calamity this garden once was pefect give your immortality to me i'll set you up against the stars I'll sing it one last time for you then we really have to go you've been the only thing that's right in all I've done and I can barely look at you but every single time I do I know we'll make it anywhere away from here Well he's on the table and he's gone to code and I do not think anyone knows what they are doing here and your friends have left you've been dismissed I never thought it would come to this Turn away to say goodbye with each and every word that passes by like a distant memory Is true love once in a lifetime Did the captain of the Titanic cry Someday we'll know If love can move a mountain Someday we'll know Why the sky is blue Someday we'll know Why I wasn't meant for you Does anybody know the way to Atlantis Or what the wind says when she cries And we feel like rain when the words all sound the same,in the lifeless corners of this empty frame.Though we feel let down by the same old autumn breathing,winter's curse is just around the bend.With our hands all tied to the blades of their design,we are armed and ready to commit this crime. Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat. The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.The distance is quite simply much too far for me to rowIt seems farther than ever before Oh no. I need you so much closer I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough You could be happy and I won't know But you weren't happy the day I watched you go And all the things that I wished I had not said Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head Is it too late to remind you how we were But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur Love is the answer, At least for most of the questions in my heart Like why are we here? and where do we go?And how come it's so hard?It's not always easy and Sometimes life can be deceiving I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need, Aint no need Rain all day and I really really really don't mind Can't you see cant you see,You gotta wake up slow Just give a second thought What if we don't get caught Just say you love me now And forget this whole row Just save your energy For making up with me I've written you this letter, got it back return to sender. But I just can't remember you being quite like that. Misunderstand, we're holding hands, we're at the beach, we're throwing sand. As the lights just go up all around us, I can't believe it's over.I'm sitting under falling stars. Do you miss me where you are? I'm making plans to be with you. But have they come unglued? What am I do to without you? Love is pain I hear you say; Love is a cruel and bitter way of Paying you back for all the faith you ever had in your brain.How could it be that what you need the most Can leave you feeling just like a ghost? You never want to feel so sad and lost again.
The chord snapped tonight.
The weight, the tension,
was too much to take.
Too much to hold.

this CHAOS, this CALAMITY, this garden WAS ONCE perfect.

I happened to be packing my stuff, then I found my file of my DISC profile thingy, and there was this piece of paper, then I saw this.

HAHA SUUUU!!!!!! Aww. So sweet of you huh. I miss you. hahaha.

So anyway, today, there was nothing interesting to observe at Mac. Neither was there any cute kids to play with. I think the only interesting thing was this girl who came down, laid her stuff on the table, and started talking on her phone. From the minute she sat down til she left. Hmm, so much for laying her stuff on the table. Hurhur.

I wish I started studying earlier, really.

**

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
It hung heavy on the tree above your head

This chaos, this calamity, this garden once was perfect
Give your immortality to me; I'll set you up against the stars

Gloria,
We lied, we can't go on
This is the time and this is the place to be alive

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
And there is discord in the garden tonight

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

**

(':

power pleasure pain

Enough about how small this world is from me, already.
On Sunday, my favourite PW leader taught me that through the relationships of 6 friends, we are connected to the world.
That's how small the world is.

Tomorrow is some paedophilic, funny observation trio time with leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa!

(Okay, great and I'm falling sick)

The white to your left, the red to your right.

Check out what I found on Amelia's friendster.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW =D

Anyway, Hi. I hate being a woman. And I hate studying.
Bloodyhellllllllllllllllllllllll.

Funny how I'm nervous, still.

I'm staying online like there's no tomorrow
I'm idling online like it's the end of As.

Wah, siao.

I miss everything.

Omg so nostalgic. =')

Bitter sweeet.

OMGOSH, I MISS SO MUCH.

Headlights on Dark Roads;

FRIDAY;

=D

Louder, louder, and we'll run for our lives.

Hello, I hate studying.
I want to go shopping.
Pius, you're a bad influence. Haha.


SEETOHMEETOHMRSDARCY IMISSYOU.
(purple because you like it!)

light up, light up, as if you have a choice.

I woke up this morning, after falling asleep only past four last night cos there were too many things on my mind. (No, the dinner later was not part of it)

So I woke up and got up and got down to tearing down every picture from my wall, removing the lousy white tack and good blue tack from every single picture.
Then I decided my wall looked really bare.
Then I got down to sticking lousy white tack and good blue tack on certain pictures and stuck them on another part of my wall this time.

And the number of pictures, are not even half of what I had on previously. Simply because I'd rather cherish and treasure these simpler and more beautiful ones that hold more memories, that paint more words than the rest, and that are more important.

One more thing, I made sure there was no more than 2 repetitions of each person. If you appear more than that, lucky you. But then again, there was two. MY SILLIES.
Simply because there was a team photo, a Sillies photo, and the one of us + Pong at Julius'.

crabs4lyfe.

drops of Jupiter

Hanging on, is like being suspended on a rope. You add weight, it increases the tension, raises the risks of your only support snapping.

There are so many things we hold on to in Life- Hope, Studies, Family, Love, Friends, Dreams, etc. Each desire you hold on to, is like an added weight from all directions to that already very stretched rubber. And yet, the older the weight, the heavier it gets. The older the weight, the longer it has been attached to the rubber- the more stretched it has been. The earlier it'd snap.

I happened to hear something today. OMGZ, it's shocking, a little frustrating, but funny too. Then I happened to talk to Br&on too, about his friendster profile being changed (kinda obvious who did it I guess.) and about lotsa other things. Thank God I told him though.

I used to believe in Quality over Quantity. Now, somehow, I believe in Quantity instead. Like how childhood friends are still in touch now, quantity seems to be able to back everything up over quality.

Anyway, I really like my new stud. (#2) Luling got it for me. (:
Shopping is theraputic. Is that how you even spell that word.