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Down with stomach flu.

Either pancakes/meatballs at I.kea,

okonoyami at S.hokudo,

or Merlionster from Ben&Jerry's killed me.

ZZZZ.

But anyhow, Feng yun was a terrible, terrible movie.

And Trojan gathering was awesome, as always.

And and, I'm glad S is back(:

Seventh Dec.

Two papers down(:

Three more to go.

Am almost half way there, but the most dreadful paper is over.

Didn't have the best of a start to the exams marathon but I'm glad I've finally started.

And a long way to go before the end.

Have finally fallen sick and spent half of ystday in bed to nurse the headache and flu. Boohooo.

Still feeling woozy and out of place today despite taking a nap.

Thought EK's call was my alarm and accidentally rejected it.

I only have 4 days to study 2 modules (an elective and 1 4AU core paper) so I should not be rewarding myself with too long a break like my peers are.

:(

So long.

For You A Thousand Times Over.

This is Me and My Room mate.

Over the weekend (including Friday),

# I had one last meal with a friend leaving in search of his own W.ondergirl, ate til I was so full, carried a friend's (guy! wooh) backpack on his behalf.

# I left for touch with my jersey, boots, socks, etc but stood under the orange umbrella to cheer the team on. Before half time I walked over to the stands to retrieve my things in temptation to play. But Coach waved her finger and gave a BIG No-no.

I was also late for A.rthur's 21st where I became a big party pooper and felt eternally bad. I learned about making bad decisions but how sometimes we are given second chances.

I also met a friend-on-crutches who had to sneak out of the house and "steal" car keys and drive with an almost disfunctional left leg for a cup of tea while we pondered over decisions we've made/we're going to make, philosophies of life and our future.

I also laid in bed to enjoy the rain and wind though it was almost 4 in the morning and I was still sick.

# I came back to school early on the account of "work to do" (which is not entirely false) because sometimes you choose to follow your heart over a stubborn mind. And you find out it's not too bad a choice either. Accompanied lonelymiserablesickpathetic S for dinner and caught F1 in the TV room over dinner.

# I also abruptly, impulsively, suddenly decided that I want to go GIPCHINA and am going to apply. Oh, the power of persuasion. However, the definite decision will only be made when the acceptance email is received, and of course when I manage to convince myself of all the commitments I can leave behind and safely say, return to six months later.

# I have also spent a huge amount of time with Kite Runner when I should be finishing my readings for the meeting on Tues. But this is definitely better than Thousand Splendid Suns!

FLEWWWW and SOAR throat and KOFF.

Yes I'm going to sleep early! (:

Pigggnik was fun, can't wait for the next one.

Hope we'd have all 7 of us the next time, wheeeee.

sick and schools boring :((

Whatever happened?

Last night, like a constant haunting, I couldn't fall asleep.

My mind drifted from thought to thought like a monkey swinging branches.

It felt surreal though; I think I've been reading too much HarryPotter.

Then just when I fell into a semi unconscious state, I suddenly woke up, face soaked in tears.

I had an insanely massive headache; it felt like needles piercing through the left side of my skull and someone was stitching. It wouldn't go away. I didn't dare get out of bed for fear of fainting (which has happened before). It was unbearable and I eventually got up and woke Mommy, who then fed me panadol and rubbed some medicated oil.

She said I was burning again.

Then I continued sobbing as Mommy put me back into bed and said, "Don't go for training tomorrow."

It was miserable and I hope it doesn't happen again tonight. =(

Take Me On A Trip I'd Like To Go Someday.

I am 21.

It definitely doesn't feel like it. Didn't need the party poppers and streamers to acknowledge that, nor the redefinition of rules I am now entitled to break.

As always, simplicity is supremacy. I would not deny things felt different with S' absence. Having a bunch of guys sing "Happy Birthday" was honestly a tad bit awkward and weird too.....

Then camp. And trainings. And xlb buffet.

BAO met on Monday to celebrate A-meee-learrrr's twentyfirst with the much anticipated XLB buffet.

Poor service aside, the xlb were very much substandard. We also ordered the worst choice of MALA soupbase which killed all of us. I felt my throat burn and head spin. At that moment, I knew I was gonna fall sick. :( We wanted to go for durians but I received an SOS call from S which disrupted plans.

I guess that was a blessing in disguise otherwise I'd have been more sick than I already am.

Caught Pol.ite games despite the splitting headache and leaking nose..

But I forced myself to recover so I can play on Wed(:

Wednesday was fffuuunnn. =) As posted earlier, now Coach owes us Vermonster(:

Then just as I thought I've fully recovered from flu, I got hit by fever.

But it only happened when I was already out- Met the W.antoks teammies for lunch at Swensens(: Then dessert at BenJerry's(:

It was a nice time of get together after so long, and nice to see everyone again. (Considering we used to see each other twice a week during season)

Left for Pol.ite again, which we were half an hour late, almost missing an entire match. :\

Got home, took my temperature, had lotsa medicine forced down.

And I finally woke up at 2pm after the interruptions with a growling tumtum cos I haven't eaten in almost 24hours.

So things have turned and as expected, things have changed.

I'm not inflexible; after all I've been through. But I will not say I've the best reactions to changes. Of course, all takes time to adapt, to adjust.

Now I'm just dreading this first far away weekend.

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And today, went to support Su/Siti/Senior-Toks at the Women's Contact game between B.ucks and B.lacks. Though we ended up talking among ourselves half the time, the tries that game through were still some pretty awesome ones. And sonnybaby broke her nose. It was like deja-vu all over again when it happened to S almost exactly a year ago. Except this time, there were alot more tears, and I was allowed close to her and could hold her hand.

Poor Su, you'll be fine k. Mama loves you and the surgery is not as scary as it sounds. (:

Another Beginning.

Like incorrect pieces of a jigsaw, I can't quite string my thoughts together lately.

But for now, rest rest rest.

37.9degreecelsius.

What Hurts The Most.

My friend(s) say I look like a strawberry (cos of my hair :( ),

and maybe now I really am one sad/red/miserable/spotted/sour strawberry. 

:(

Life is miserable.

The flu bug seems to like me alot, no amount of Cold relief/ Flu Max is helping.

This sucks.

My world is spinning, literally.

So fast it has spun out of control. Yet I'm digging my own grave. Fuck.

And last night, Dxxx just had to tell me my arms are big. :(

Arggh.

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT PLAY JAM LEGEND! (Heeheehee)

It's Not Always Rainbows and Butterflies.

Recess Week;Met my Mrsdarcy alot to slackshopeattalk and just be around each other.

Had an extremely wet Saturday where we played in the rain and took breaks when the rain stopped. Headed down to Th.omson to look for D dearest (If you see this, are you ok!!!!???)

and had an unintended stayover at H.ave8. =\

Church on Sunday where I had my motherfingkillercramps so I spent the entire Sunday in bed and missed the gathering at Syl's place =(

CP meeting on Monday, almost everything is done now except a few minor changes and little things to confirm with extenal companies. Really really looking forward to camp, though it is going to be super tiring on us. =) Dear Mrsdarcy was 45mins too late, and the next thing we knew, we were running across overhead bridges, running after buses so as to not be late for S' game. (which they lost and it was pretty wasted)

Woke up earlyearly on Tues for Manufacturing meeting. And everybody was L-A-T-E! >=(

But here's what happened:

(The previous night)

P: "G can you wake me up at 8 tomorrow please! It's so late already and I'm scared I'd oversleep."

(The next morning)

P: "Good morning! I'm awake!"

G: "Wah seems you woke earlier than me."

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G: "I just showered. I think I will leave my house at about 830 :)" --> I remember the smiley.

P: "Aren't you gonna be SOOOOOOO late? My dad's sending me there"

G: "Wah shit."

It was really quite funny. =)

Had Kui.shimbo buffet for lunch with S and caught He's just not that into you as recommended by Yanns but we didn't like it! :(

Rushed off for training cos it ended later than expected. Good thing the Bff was around the area too (: And training was, wet wet wet once again. Hate the sun, but also hate the rain around evening times.

McD. for supper cos I skipped dinner. Hrmmmm.

It was a really ordinary day for a special one, it felt just like any other normal day which shouldn't have been the case. =( Was a tad bit disappointed, and sad. But... oh well. It just says alot.

Wednesday; Bao meetup was cancelled due to last min pangsehs and mia cases. Vivoed for lunch and got Boost juice(: Yay, yay. Headed back to school only to find out training is cancelled =( so we KFCed for lunch and caught Slumdog.

Studied more with Penguin dearest on Thursday and left for home at night.

(Supposed to) study more with Mrsdarcy on Friday but we got distracted in Town and started retail therapying. =) And and and, I had my Starbucks fix(:

Met the boysss (Ahgong and fellow #8!) who bullied us over dinner; They brought us for Jap food at some kickass restaurant whose menu is entirely in Japanese and they refused to help us. Headed to B.arstop (nice place(: ) after that though! For drinks and to catch up. And we revisited The Blue Hole, which btw, looks different?

Saturday was disappointing. The sun was scorching hot, and I felt more lethargic than I normally did. Probably cos I didn't sleep well =( And we lost the only game I wanted to win so badly. Oh wellllll. Had 100+ at the coffeeshop with Syl and felt a little like Uncles who have beers and peanuts. Missed lunch cos I just didn't have the appetite.

Was asked over for a birthday celebration which was pretty cute(: 

Slept with a fulltummy and woke up feeling really sick on Sunday :( Cabbed to Tan.jong together with the rest of the team and allowed ourselves to get burnt. Felt this year's S&S wasn't as fun as last year's tooo. =( It poured as expected (just as we were leaving so we still got soaked anyway) and had awesome tomyam noodles for dinner and slept from 7 til 1030pm. OMG :|

So now, back to school.

Hate it as usual, but at least it keeps you going.

Glad Tidings.

Caught the MONSTER flu bug, it's soooo bad it leaks uncontrollably. :(

And now I've abrasions at the sides of my nose from the blowing and wiping.

Can barely sleep well the past two nights cos it's so uncomfortable :(

Was literally dying with my tissue box in the graveyard style Nightmare-before-Christmas tissue holder next to me and a small dustbin next to it.

My bed is a germ-zone.

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Results came out earlier today (while I was trying to sleep in bed), and praise the Lord for his abundant blessings! :D

It was definitely better than expected!

Now, all I need to focus on is getting well before IV.P!!!

Empty Conversations.

Repetition makes an impression,

but monotony is mundane.

Yet, we as human, are accustomed to our routines.

Or a certain set of procedure to get through the days.

A break from monotony may be like a short holiday after the school term,

yet it may not always be ideal.

My life is the biggest irony; one day I'm complaining about the monotony,

and today I sit here, uncomfortable about breaking away from my weekly routine.

But this is life, isn't it? That we are human, and can never be sufficiently satisfied.

Something you want, will no longer be of that similar importance once it's yours.

And to a certain degree, we all take each other for granted.

There is no such thing as, "let me be your pillar of strength",

because if you were to be, then where do you draw yours from.

Feeling so sick I skipped Youth training today.

Shall sleep this negative feeling away. (Not before I visit the T.opshop warehouse sale! :D Nothing beats retail therapy, yo!)

PS: I am not materialistic and I don't need you to spend to make it up to me. 

4 days to 2009.

Hello to High and Dry.

You know how there's this odd woozy feeling everytime you're sick?

Where day feels like night, and night feels like ... night (too)?

Yeah, I'm having that odd feeling now.

The throat's been awfully uncomfortable since I woke up yesterday, and it still is.

Argh, of all time. Ivpee in 6 days. >=(

Anyhow, made a trip down to Queensway ystday and picked up Team Shirts since I was there.

Had dingtaifung's porkchop fried rice packed with a secret XLB (and love!) for lunch, thankyou(: It was very sweet of you.

Then, because of the throat, we had Porridge buffet at Quality H.otel after training. And no movie timings again.

PS: Paying for NZ is a big headache. :(

PPS: Four days left in TWO before going back to THIRTEEN. Bittersweet, but it may just be for the better.

"Do You Wanna Be A Quitter? Or Someone Who Stays"

One week ago,

Tuesday; we had pizza and macdonalds and htht after training til two in the morning,

with our shorts and underwear soaked from icedips. Then we lugged the huge green bin back all the way from CanA.

Wednesday; Yanyi crashed IS training (it was fun though!), then we starved while waiting for the Bff and Spacemedic0016 (haha) and had lunch at 3. Then my stomach/digestive system threw a tantrum (diarrhoea) and the rest of the body screamed for rest. Decided to give training a miss (despite the coin flipping's decision to not skip) and slept. Woke up with a fever and found myself in deep shit. But then again, I didn't quite care.

Thursday; 

the cousins/aunts were back from cruiseee. Shopped a little in town before the friendly (omg the blue top from topshopt and black top from fcuk :( ) Played a pretty awesome + fun game with the boys down at Rpeeee.

Cabbed down with wet shorts/underwear/shirt/skins (totally freezing!) to Laopasat and had only chicken wings and squid for dinner. =( Then headed back to Ritz for the rest of the night and baby-fashion-show-watched til we felt sleepy and Shanniee stayed over! :D

Friday; woke up to Macs, headed down to Full.erton, then more shopping, more babysitting, more Macs and lotsa Starbucks. S came later with a surprise (skins!!) and he took over the babysitting (or baby carrying in this sense). And we bumped into lotsa people: "secret daughters?".

Haha. Had some Mega Seafood Feast for dinner but it wasn't as yummy as it looked. PSP-ed like mad the whole night with lotsa A.pe Academy challenging. Then we said our final goodbyes(:

Saturday; slept in, caught S's game (awesome game!), tossed in bed til late :\

Sunday; wet, wet, wet, cold. Prayed for rain, and training to be cancelled. Got the first, didn't get the second. Boohoo =(

Then I watched Love Actually til I couldn't stop crying (haha)

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This week,

Monday; caught the Bestie for breakf before she left for Europeeee, that lucky girl. I love you, Seeef! :D Then met Pong, and we ate til we popped (though we shared a meal and didn't intend to binge at all). Then, the very screwed up friendly.

Then D, as usual, ohsonicely cabbed down to check up on me(: And we did what we used to always do, but haven't done in a really long time. ;) Thanks for everything, as always, Love.

I love you, Ding! :D

Tuesday; CP meeting at Starbucks. We're almost done, and I hope we don't need to meet on Thurs anymore :D Caught the very last quarter of Basketball IH, then trained with a new area taped up.

"That's new. What happened?"

"Uh, I don't know, It just hurts."

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Coach and I had a very good talk after training, together with J and A.

"It is just how much you want it."

She gave me the green light to make my own decision and assured me not to think/worry too much.

But I am still indecisive.

We ordered Macs (again :( ) to Fifteen and ate at the lounge, with aircon (hence freezing with our shorts &underwear wet again..), television, and a mini htht.

When you can't find strength from within, you draw it from others.

"It's only three more weeks, Phil."

Last night, I was so spoilt I insisted on going home even at 11:30pm.
I called my mom, then called a cab in, and left for home....



There's NO place like home.
I'm glad I went home even though I woke up to no lunch. =(

All Over Nothing

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

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This is super tragic. I went to bed with a headache and a nauseous tumtum so I skipped church and by the time I woke up, I already missed breakfast. =( And I love weekend morning breakfasts.

Alsooo, I searched all the supermarkets in my neighbourhood plus those in H. ave 8 and NY mart and I still can't find my gummies. Why why why. Do not doubt their existence cos I've eaten them more than once! We used to have a weekly affair but then Gr.eg buys Snakes only now. =(

Third calamity, the macs downstairs has removed all their powerpoints. What a slut. =(

Everybody Is Yearbooking Themselves.

Really like the Auntie who sweeps my corridor every morning (:
She's so sweet, she aligns our shoes neatly just outside our door, and smiles everytime we walk past.
Anyway the corridor is always very clean that I (quite a clean freak especially regarding cleanliness of the floor) can walk around barefooted outside and not mind (:

Finally, it's the last week of school before Midterm break!
Can't wait for the break, with lotsa itenary all lined uppp,
but not forgetting I should spend 50% of my time studying. =(
Sigh, the life of a student; when was studying ever left out?
As G says, "Don't forget that ultimately your purpose of coming to school is to study, and not ... (touch)"


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Weekends were spent 80% on touch. The other 10 on S, and family.
Nt.l was... , I don't know, different? As much as we hate to admit it, sometimes friends do not make the best working partners. It was a good game nonetheless, considering we have never trained together as a team, we are totally unsure of our moves, and we come from different playing styles and backgrounds. With more training, I'm sure we'd be intimidating Sharkies.

Another Weekend of Wet saturday afternoon at Wt.l (hahaha aliteration). Bad field conditions, but it's no excuse. Right? Coach says expect this type of field conditions come Sunday for Su.nig but but but , it's really tiring to run when the field has this ultimate suction power....... =(
We won but it was a crap win. (At least I think so... =( 4/10 for me. )

Thank God for skins, I wasn't too muddy. But still, mud-smelling. =(


Less than 20 hours later, I found myself back at the same place......
Turfcity = third home. Youth training was awesome without the PT. It was never been this slack, we didn't even learn moves! Hate being all muddy and smelly without a proper place to shower though. Arghhhh. But even with just all the Attack/Defence shit, I've grazed knees and elbows, which really hurt.... =((
Seef made durian mooncakes so I went over to tryyy after training =D

So anyway, think I've probably recovered from the gastric flu (:
Ate durian mooncakes and ice cream over the weekend already :D
(S & I swiped out an entire pint of ONE Cheesecake Brownie ice cream from B&J's. Scary)

And We proclaim ourselves Sportiest couple of the Month/Year parading the neighbourhood in skins. =)

"Sigh.... Philly lim....."

Really random picture of a random training but I really like itttt. (:

Though pretty badly blurred, we were imitating guitar rockstars if you can see. Heh. Yeahhhh!

Think Angie and Sijie got the pose best! (:

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Yesterday, we headed to B.oonTongK.ee for dinner (!!!!) . But all I had was half a bowl of plain porridge and 2 pieces of Egg Tofu. And half a cup of warm barley. =( So tragic.

Woke up this morning and Mom said the fever has subsided, good news.

But lunch was 5 meatballs and a little tunghoon. Sad, sad. Gimme back my appetite.

When I get well, I'm gonna eat........

1. ICE CREAAAAAMMMM! - Haagen Dazs, Cold rock, Island Creamery, Ben & Jerry's. Either, whatever! Just give me ice cream.
2. Durian Mooncakesssssss. Just saw more in the freezer today! (G.oodw.oodPark Hotel yo!)
3. TOM YAM SOUPPPPPP.
4. Drink Bubble Tea/ Honeydew Soya Bean Milk from CanB
5. Whatever I'm craving for when I've recovered.

=))

Diagnosis: Stomach Flu, Fever.



Spent the whole night tossing, cold sweating, puking, running to the toilet, waking people up.

It was my longest and most miserable night ever, and time never ever seemed to crawl this slowly. Even time spent at the dentist felt faster than this. =(

Spent the entire of today in bed. =( Going home tonight, coming back tomorrow for training (doubt I can train though), but please please please let me recover by Friday so I can playy...

Guardian Angel.

OMG WAYNE CHOUCHOU, if you see this: I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!

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So besides hating Wayne, I also know how to hate being a woman.
Every month, I spend WASTE 24 hours curling up in pain and breaking out in cold sweat. Just yesterday, we cabbed home after Pre-camp briefing cos I almost died.
We made the Cabbie Uncle switch off the air-con and I think he was a little scared cos he tried to drive faster but traffic was quite bad.

2 years ago, I remember fainting (yeah that bad) and just yesterday, I was this close to it.
Could barely stand straight and was falling all over the place. =(
Really really thank God I wasn't alone, or I'd have died or something.


With that said, I skipped training =(
And here I am, resting at home (for training, haha! Want to play later!! But hope I'm fit enough :( )
And I skipped camp.......... Feel kinda bad, but good thing they found a replacement at the very absolute last minute. Or I'd have to go, or Gerald will kill me.


One more thing, having friends who are zhong se qing you is damn bad.
They will one day, eventually, forget about you. =((



PS: Gdine, I call you k. HAHAHAH