Midnight Confessions

It's getting harder to piece my thoughts together when I can condense them into 140 characters which I have much easier access to.

On another note, I've got myself a new plaything, yay! :D

I love all technical gadgets black. Mmhmm.

Question of the day: They say people speak the truth when they're drunk. What about when they're sleep texting semi concious?

OMGGYOURESORETARDED

My beautiful mistake gPhone. says (11:52 PM):
*n hor
*i kinda like to throw the phone into the bag
*i see u do it..n it looks fun

the end is where I begin. says (11:52 PM):
*HAHAHAHAHA
*omg that is sooo retarded

My beautiful mistake gPhone. says (11:54 PM):
*wat?
*throwing into the bag?
*u do it all the time wat
*n i find it amusing when u always dig for the phone

*but my phone is always there!! it cant disappear..cos i have to put it there carefully each time..

the end is where I begin. says (11:58 PM):
*hahahhahah
*fine!
*its good to take care of your things
*dont anyhow throw!

My beautiful mistake gPhone. says (11:58 PM):
*but it looks fun
*fuck where's my phone
*nabei la. i cannot find my phone
*i cant say these

Honest Juice.

I hate Sunday Nights. :( Hate the pre-Monday Blues, hate the feeling of coming back to school for yet another 5 days of torture, hate the academic information, hate school.

OK JUST WHINING.

(This is a bottle I brought back all the way from NZ. HAH. The orange juice is daaaaamn good ok. And I really like the bottle though it's just a sticker over some ordinary plastic case! :D )

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Effectively did nothing over the weekend yet lack the sense of urgency currently.

I KNOW there's a million things I have to do, and should be doing but I can't get started, can't settle down.

My arms are still aching from Thursday's training (We had to do 50 long passes each, for both sides. = 100 long pass) and carrying Friday's shopping stuff from A.didas warehouse. (S and I spent 400$ altogether but he definitely bought more!! Haha)

I probably also ate more than what I'd normally eat in a week over the past 2 days:

Friday, Thai Food for lunch, (then I went home fell asleep watching webcast). Met Ahgong/Art/Yanns with S and had dinner at Little.part 1 (don't trust reviews, it isn't that good) which wasn't enough for the boys. Seventh H.eaven for dessert (must go!) then, to B.alestier for BKT. It's almost like we had Part 1 of the Food trail. Heh.

Saturday, Mac breakf, which we haven't had in a long time. (Not Mac, just weekend breakf)

D.empsey for touch after where it poured like mad. And I fucking sprained my thumb! But it's the left one this time, and it isn't as bad as the previous sprain on the right so ogays. But but, I really HATE PLAYING AGAINST BOYS.

Went back to SA.jc, wasted time watching the boys play touch, and we had Food trail Part 2.

Tpy's Fishball Noodles, Purvis' Beef Noodles, Maxwell for Orhlua/Porridge/Pigs organ soup where I ordered a really diluted cup of Strawberry/Mango juice, Eggtarts, U.dders for Ice cream. We wanted to go Thomson for BCM (!!) but we headed to Thom.son 800 instead for Soccer. (ManUtd lost. Seriously. It was really hard to watch. :( ) Had Wala's pizza after soccer/before rugby. Caught the first 10mins of R.BS 6nations finals and fell asleep. HAHA.

Sunday; after 4 hours of sleep and dozing off during service, I dabaoed BCM (!!!) from AMK's kickass store and went down to H.ave8. Of course it doesn't taste as awesome packed, but it finally satisfied S' craving which lasted for 2 days. So poor thing.

Then dinner at O.asis where I was forced to eat alot (I don't like the 'Skinny Talk' at the dinner table. Reeallly.) and was tempted with KOI (hahaha gee pang!!) but for the benefit of my health, I resisted. YAY. Good job phil. (:

Oh yes and I was phone-less the whole Saturday til after service on Sunday cos I absent-mindedly left my phone in the car.

I'm still tired from the lack of sleep and I've been having a resident headache.

Maybe it's like Griz's: "Tension Headache", the doctor said.

Happy Birthday Pong,

Happy Birthday Tingyi.

Find Your Own Space, Find Your Own Pace.

I've recently found a new form of destress; biting S. Do away with your stress balls, and paper crushing/ripped, biting someone really helps.

Training today:
Almost everyone came in colour codes; Red & White.
Hence we had a black sheep, aka Ek. (:
EK: "I thought maybe we celebrating some Touch Independence Day."
And 60% of us were in the EXACT SAME shirt. Coolio molio.
Plus we had baby dinosaurs for carbo reloading today :D


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Independence.
To me, it's not a choice to be made, but rather something that needs to be driven.
Just like flying. It's not something that can be done just because you decide to, but it has to be driven, in this case, taught.

Likewise, Independence is driven. Parents who want their child (once again, it is not a decision made by the child himself) to be independent drive them into becoming so. Doing their own laundry, washing their own dishes, even the simple travelling to school on their own.

No matter how determined you are, a driving force is still needed for the completion of that decision. And Independence is one example.
I'm not pointing fingers, just illustrating that this is a reflection of more than the individual herself.

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50:27, a long phonecall with the (ex)roomie

Oh Man, What Am I Doing?

I failed my 40 fucking percent test.
And out of 151 students,
I'm the 20th.
From the fucking bottom.


AND I DROPPED MY PHONE AGAIN DURING ELECT!!
FOR THE FREAKING THIRD TIMEEE! URGH!

+

I dyed my hair,

but I don't see a difference AT ALL.

:(

PS: I just changed my cranky 910i walkman phone to a cyber shot one. And I also JUST fucking dropped it at my doorstep. @)$*@#%^*!)$!

Of City Lights and Family Love.

Weiyann's attempt at being artistic. (Okay, I know my nose is flat, Gdine shh)

So yeah I'm back and finally used to the idea that I'm back.

I share this love/hate relationship with escapes because I need them,

yet I hate the after effects.

Took me two whole days to re orientate myself and find my place again, makes it sound as though I've been gone for months (Imagine if I were to leave for exchange, hmm...)

Spent a good four days (maybe less) in Malaysia; KL and Penang (for 24 hours, hah)

Caught a movie every night for the first two days since it was really cheap and, we didn't exactly have anything else to do when the shops closed.

Kungfu Panda and Hulk! Kungfu Panda was seriously hilarious, good show for laughs I guess (: Hulk, on the other hand, was a typical Marvel movie? But who doesn't like Superhero movies right. (:

We probably wasted more time travelling than anything else; arrived in KL close to 3, spent the entire Wednesday afternoon travelling up to Penang (we reached at 7) and the journey back to Spore took approximately 10hours.

We probably also wasted more money than ever; forfeiting one nights hotel stay, our coach ticket back from KL for our coach ticket up to Penang, paying for ripped off taxi rides which we still thought was cheap (compared to Singapore, hah hah), shopping for the sake of shopping when they weren't any cheaper than back here, paying 75rm each for 3 rollercoaster rides and 2 pointless rides, spending too much, way too much on food, but I daresay the only thing we do best is eating. (Yes, I know, fattening!) If any consolation, our hotel was pretty well located among the malls so we could walk to almost anywhere.

Oh, and we swam for like, half an hour too.

Food; we had Starbucks upon arrival, Dunkin' Donuts, pretty good Thai food for dinner, breakfast was hotel buffet. We tried TGI-Fridays because Singapore doesn't have it, ate Secret Recipe cos it was much cheaper. Visted Hainan Town cos if we don't, we'd regret it (haha). And immediately after dinner we went down to Pulau Tikus (Rat Island!) for supper, char kway teow, ice kachang, satay, gosh. Old Town for breakf cos they have unique toast and white coffee (which, I found out today, exists in Singapore!) , tried Paddington's House Of Pancakes cos ... my Aunts decided to (but it was pretty unique and the menu is seriously overwhelming), and forced Baskin Robbins down our gut cos we just HAD to. Dinner on the last day was pathetic cos we were rushing for the coach (which, in the end left at like 9pm!) and dabaoed Macdonalds. So I'm sick now because of the Spicy Beef Foldover I had. =(

Shopping was the least fruitful, there wasn't much to get. Maybe we didn't know the right places to go or something, but I barely saw stuff that caught my eye =(

The 24 hours spent in Penang (including sleep time, which took up about 7 hours?) was chaotic. We waited to rush and rushed to wait; but we had to since we were "squeezing so many days itenary into 24 hours" (quoteunquote Aunt).

Fell asleep while talking to Shan who was more energetic than we were (it was about 2plus am) and woke up the next morning to knocks on the door at 7am to wake him up for school.

830am; I heard the door open, and silence. Then I heard her shoes against the wooden tiles. "Good morning! Good morning!" as she crawled into bed and kissed us good morning.

Then the elder followed into the room greeting us good morning.

It happened only once, but I probably miss that moment the most.

We picked the girls up from school after brunch, had an insane moment with the two at the backseat of the car (btw, Sarah puked when we reached home). Rushed to Queensbay (I think it's their biggest shopping mall) then rushed to pick Sherilyn on the way back. No, we had to wait for her cos she refused to do her work! >=(

By the time we got back we barely had time to shower nor eat, we just had to pack and kiss goodbyes to the little ones and leave. =(

So yeah, as posted earlier, the fucking coach abandoned us (and two other individuals) at Woodlands Customs. We had to make 1890352 long distance phonecalls involving the Singapore Gu.nungRa.ya branch which wasn't linked to the Penang one and more more complications you could never think of. We cleared Customs in less than 10 minutes (thanks to the biometric system!) but waited for more than an hour though we clearly saw the bus leave.

IN THE END, we spent unnecessary time and money cabbing back. =(

In any case, we hope we can get our sweaters back somehow. (It will heal half my broke heart) Seems like the bus is returning to Singapore tomorrow morning and our sweaters are still on it.

Had dinner with Shai, Maya, Melz and Yanns that very night of return.

Was too sick and tired to be active actually. But we had a good time anyhow.

Shai wants to go waxing one day. Heh heh.

On the way back, Y and I were overly engrossed with our conversation that she missed her stop. Heh.

Oh And Melz, if you see this, I expect a House Warming anytime sooon!!


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And now, I hate falling asleep because, I always end up with freaking weird dreams I cannot fathom.

PS: My handphone is screwwwwwed. =( So I'm using a bimbo bright pink phone now, please don't mock meee =(

PPS: THE BEST FRIEND IS BACKKKKK!!

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I am such a mess,


yet I can't be bothered sometimes.



PS: My phone is screwed again. FOR GOOD.
After the 2 level suicide from the swivel LT table.
Ugh ok. Semi uncontactable.
My phone is throwing a tantrum.

"The more I supressed, the stronger it grew."

Cancer: You're finding yourself very attracted to two (or is it three?) people. Nothing wrong with that, but it's about time to decide who you want to be with..




Ha.
Ha.
Ha.
(note sarcasm)


Ps: Phil finally got a new phone!

All My Life, I pray for Someone like You.

Okay, I've to wait for photos from CRABBY CHEN, MRS DARCY, FEIIERS LOVELOVELOVE, and SKIN-JIEN-NY (link!), so I can't really talk about my birthday without sounding boring with the lack of visionary aids.

But once again, thanks for the wishes still coming in.
19, feels.. old. Haha.
If you forgot....
that's it. Our friendship ends here. Bye.
(Haha, I'm kidding)

Oh yes, yesterday the Police dude called me regarding my phone.
I THOUGHT HE FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!
BUT NO, he called to ask if my phone had some special function about notifying me whenever a new user put his sim card inside.
Whoa, phones nowadays are so smart. Why isn't mine? =((

Omg, I was trying to find a picture of my birthday cake [link!] for Kid..
But instead I learnt that my cake is #$(%&!(#*%& expensive. =\
Thanks so much, guys. :')

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I saw this quiz on a friend's friend blog and decided to do it:
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Your Score: Psychology

You scored 18 mental chops, 19 work ethic, 19 bullshitability, and 7 practicality!

Psychology is perfect for you! You don't mind pulling things out of your ass, but you don't want to think and you don't want to work too hard. You also apparently don't want a job, unless you're Clarice Starling...who got all the way to the FBI. Sure, so all those intro lectures and projects where you make your roommate look at a list of color names (printed in different colors than what the names suggest! omg!) might be dull, but after that you get to do cooler stuff, like, uh...I'll get back to you on that. Your powerful skills of insight into other people suggest maybe you should write more quizzes for this site when you're not doing that time intensive, uh, whatever it is you psych kids do.

Link: The What Should You Major In? Test

omg $)%@**^#(&)@*!**%&&^(@_!(%*%
thanks, don't remind me.

And so she says, "I'm gonna stay home and be emo."

So today, today, marks the end of my nearly two month fling.

I already miss him,

and I'll shamelessly admit I do have a growing reliance on him.

It wasn't a mutual goodbye,

I'd think I took quite good care of him,

just as he did of me.

Dear Max,
I'll miss everything about you:

your looks, your hotness, your sexyness.

(And even the sticker of patrick star on your ass)

Your moments of silence,

and the times you let me down.

And I'll tell you that this isn't easy. ='(

I am really very upset.

Goodbye Max.

And fuck the fucktard that has no fucking conscience.

I'm seriously frigging down on luck huh.

Postscript: The confirmation of Levan leaving is heartbreaking. Yes, he doesn't come out tops in my list of Favs, but it's gonna be weird without him. I wish I could say something nice to S. But I doubt he'd be in the mood for anything. And Ahgong, shut up when you see this. You promised to be nice.

Out Of Rhythm With Time

Okay, so much for rejoicing over the end of work,
I'm back in this week. But this time really the last week of work cos next week (23rd may!) is the fair already! I don't get to go to Thailand! =(

So anyway, back to Friday.
This is what happened during (my last) driving lesson:

A private student, on test, was doing vertical parking.
He wasn't positioned correctly, so you can tell he's gonna hit something,
and my (sadistic) instructor, starting chanting "knock the pole, knock the pole"
and instigated me into joining him! (of course I didn't)
The poor boy hit the pole though. (In fact, he hit it twice, and my instructor couldn't stop chanting)

And yeah I hit mine at Parallel thereafter.

&
After an hour + of buttaching journey,
reached Vivo and we walked the entire place deciding for a "different" place to eat.
BUT we settled at Asian Kitchen which is not any special at all.
Quote Zi, "We're always either eating Chinese or ..." (I can't remember what's after or...)
And we spent the rest of the night by the sea! Yay!
And we intend to go "overseas" slowly, but surely.
First, Sentosa (chalet!)
Then Pulau Ubin,
see, we're getting there, getting there!
Eventually, we'd go somewhere out of SEA!

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Had Materials' Hi tea with Amelia & Zi and we met the weirdest ass professor. He asked us how we make our Uni choices, and evaluated what we said, and said our answers were WRONG.
We said, Interest, and Job prospectives.
Then he sent us to ask around (which we of course didn't)
and he came back to us later.
Everybody say, OHMYGAWD.




You know, I don't really have a habit of carrying my camera around with me.
And my phone can't seem to connect to my lap
and yes, my lappie is old. I had it since Sec School so it doesn't have bluetooth.
So I'm effectively new photo-less though there are many!
But then again. somtimes I wish we took more.

I could hit "Replay" a million times,

STOLEN.
I'm serious I can hit replay over and over again.
Like replay my hitting of the replay button,
and you replay that scene,
replay me replaying that scene,
and replaying ... yeah, you get the idea.

Well, I came only solely to check my mail,
in hope to get a notifaction mail.
TMD DON'T HAVE.
WHY? =( [Read: Puzzled + Disappointment]
And I didn't write my name down today.
SIGHH.

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Sorry everybody if I didn't reply your sms
or msn conversation.
I am feeling anti social tonight. Heehee.

AND,
I still don't know how to transfer stuff from my phone!
(I know there's a cable, and an installation cd... it just doesn't work?
And no, moto doesn't suck)

Moose Was Kidnapped.

"Nothing, I just want to talk."
"Sure, talk then"
"well but ironically i dont know what to say"
"has it been that long?"

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I don't know if you still see this,

but there's so much to clarify.

I feel like there's so much to say,

but yet nothing to tell you at the same time.

Yes, it has been long,
and time has left a void,
and this void, acts like the space that bounds us off each other,
which now separates us not only in distance,
but in thoughts and emotions,
dividing our spaces,
and warning us of what once happened.

It feels as though there's so much I have to make up to you.
I don't know.

You say it's tension,
I think it's a mix of hostility, fear, hurt, pride, inconsistency,
and discomfort.
I guess we just need to be stripped of our pride, entirely.

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This matter aside,
my phone went flat last night,
a bad time for it to die,
even worse for BOTH phones to run out of battery-
I missed the calls from Hr, sorry.

Fiveeeee more dayyys! =
Looking forward to the weeeeeeeeeekendddssssssssss!

Keep Takin', Keep Fakin'.

I am hungry.

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1 week and my keypad screws up,
got a new set ystday,
and it hung this morning.
2 weeks with it and i've yet to transfer my contacts!
But I'm not gonna connect my phone to my lappie anytime soon.
It scares the shit out of me.
[But I still love you (: ]

Ps: I wanted Melvin & Sharon to win! ):

Crests And Troughs.

I always automatically wake up by 7:50 nowadays,
and I can never fall back asleep.
Frustrating.


Mood took a plunge around Noon,
and I still haven't made my decision after hours.
I think, I have now, though.
So anyway, should I get THIS or THAT?
PLEASE CLICK.

Then I sulked all the way home,
until I came into my room and saw BROWN STUFF ON MY BED.

OMG YAY! GUESS WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY!
It's everything I've been waiting for-
Our Wetseal stuff (PRETTY SHIT!)
My F21 stuff,
AND MY UNI ACCEPTANCE LETTER. (Okay la, I knew I'd get it already. Not cos I did damn well or what but cos my course is unpopular, and I'm more excited about the clothes anyway)
(and another NTUC income shit letter)

Like I told my sis, Biz and Accounting people are waiting and still gotta wait cos everyone wants to go there so they've gotta slowly choose,
but the Engineering shit courses people are getting their letters already, cos it's so unpopular so you'd get it if you apply.

And she said, Yeah, Engineering SHIT what, you already said.
She is so convinced I'm the most UN-kiasu person (ask me why! haha!))
and as an encouraging sister, she said, "Good luck, the school sucks."
HURR.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO anyway,
See all ya fellow Pulau -ers in School.
LET'S GO FOR SPORTS CAMP TOGETHER!!!

To my MRS DARCY,
Don't be too upset! I still support that you go appeal! Love.

Ps: If you haven't pre ordered your HARRY POTTER book, GO NOW!

Pps: ANYBODY WANTS TO BUY PHANTOM OF THE OPERA TICKETS? THEY ARE 3RD ROW FROM THE FRONT, CENTER SEATS.
FOR THE 2PM SHOW ON 29 APRIL.
ONE PAIR FOR 290$ ONLY. PLEASE CALL/SMS ME ASAP.
THANKYOUVERYMUCH.

Wow, You're hot! Like, literally.

Oh my tian,
neither Calistar, nor MamaDao is online at work today.
I foresee time is gonna crawl like a crippled snail.
That's if snails can even be crippled.

I am looking forward to dinner.
Fly time, Fly!
I am a true blue red crabby (cooked crab shell vs meat inside) meeting a fellow crabby, eating crabs. WHEE.

So, should I get THIS PHONE?

Dying Thoughts Of A Paper-Backed Writer (Wannabe)

{EDITED}

Hi, my life is mother boring.

More boring than words can describe.

So I shall not allow my lack of vocabulary to further emphasise my bored boring life.

Spent my Easter with 2 groups of people, the first, included one who woke up at 7:55am, when we were supposed to meet at 8am, but rushed down by 8:10 am. Amazing.

The second, was 2 people who refused to take photos with me, but allowed me to take photos of them. Weird.

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Monday was dinner at BotakJones with Mr (soon to be) Botak (Jones)Wong.
I told you he's an Ahbeng. And we nearly got lost, hilarious!

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Bao (- Seef) on Wed, when I called to ask where they were, I had the shock of my life, "Fish & Co".
Sorta objected so we went Crystal Jade (Yay, Chinese Food!), squeezed through Bugis St. minutes before it closed, with Alicia's classic, "Can I go to the toilet first?"
And holding up workers of Ice Monster cos we went at 22:08 when they shut at 22:00. Oops. But we helped them make quite a bit of business.

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Impromptu lunch with the Patrick Star on Thursday, who braved the rain, and found her way to the "agar agar building" (Look like agar agar meh!). Yummy nasi lemak, plus milky-enough-Iced Milk Tea, and more walks in the rain. My brave pain-from-needles survivor!

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Then dinner, with THREEOFUS,
#1: Hair-py with Hair.
#2: I'll let you figure what the picture is for, but hint: Don't look at us. The background's more interesting. Especially the backdrop of the person in the background.
#3: Ah Lian/Beng/Hui in the making, yoh!
#4: random
#5: The difference between a Dancer, a soon-to-lose-his-sanity armyboy, and an Athlete.
#6: Hungry. (Pong, you see that? NO SMOKING)

Food there was somewhat disappointing, but I'm willing to give it a second try. Haha.
But I hate Western! Shall wait for the craving.

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This auntie damn slow! Called at 3:52pm saying she ended work, called at 4:40 something, "Oh I'm at Boon Keng already"
Pictures 2, 3, 4 are stages of our durian fest,
and we blasted 38$ on those 3 durians man.

The last picture is happyhappy durian smiles with durian shells!

All right, photo captions another day, I'm lazy.

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The success of a younger generation, usually depends on that of the previous.

Because skills, experiences, advice, are usually passed down from one to another.
So when one fails, do you blame the failures,
or their mentors?

Is it their incompetence,
or the mentor's insufficient guidance?
Or worse, the mentor's over helpfulness.

We're sorry to hear this,
I really am.

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The Sun is amazingly hot today! I like, I like!

I'm burping durians and tomyam soup, they taste like Peach Vodka.

I sold my N6680! I'm so lost without it, all my memos are written on scraps of paper, and my phonebook is empty!! (cos I'm lazy to copy it).

Queen of All Indecisions.

THIS IS BIG NEWS,
cos I've finally applied for A Uni. (uniapplicationsucksballs!)
Haha, One better than nothing anyway.
And this is SMALL NEWS,
you probably already know what my first choice is.
And my Sis is 99.9% convinced I am landing up there,
not because my grades are like, WHOA,
but because the course isn't that popular.
(DO YOU KNOW, if I do ever go there, I'll probably hate school. Our compound is like the freaking oldest and most lok kok, omg)

omg uniapplication sucksballs.


Leanne said, "I decided not to follow trends anymore, cos they go UP and DOWN."

My sentiments exactly.

I had meant to look through my uni courses again today,
and catch up on PB season 2,
but I spent half my afternoon shopping 60$ away.
WAHLAOEHKNSSAILA.

Anyone cares to buy me a new phone,
this phone is not even 2 year old la, basket.
so now if i dont reply your sms, you know why.