Random

I think I like my hair short, colourful, messy, and all over my face.

Uhuh.

I'm serious.

Oh, My Little Fat Thumb.

My salon pas has lao-honged.

And I've run out of them.

Starbucks for life =D

I think my dentist is gonna kill me later because....

1. I haven't flossed my teeth
2. My retainers are um, quite dirty
3. I haven't worn them in the past hour and probably won't in the next few til I see her cos I want to eat ice cream!!

I am contemplating...

if I should play tomorrow now that I have the rashes thing. =\

I am having difficulty....

• making decisions
• with computing
• managing my time
• managing my WEIGHT MUAHAHAHHAAHAH

More Than Words?

I've so much to say but sometimes no matter how well you've pieced your thoughts together, your mind still hits a complete blank once you enter this space.

Sometimes, maybe just sometimes, words aren't enough to justify what's running through your mind.
You feel like a one year old, desperately trying to put across what you want, how you feel, but you fail to with limited vocabulary and probably the not-so-developed speech.
That's why babies/kids cry. It's the most powerful and noticeable sound to gain attention.
No, not that I'm crying. I'm just saying there has to be another substitute for words even at this age.....


I need 3 days for weekends.

Ps: Gdine, you've become my roomie's #1 idol. Haha.

Sunshine Time Again.

People always ask how you've been,
though I really don't understand why me.

Though tragic and slightly sadistic, I've pretty much given up catching.
No. Not catching, but TRYING to even catch up with the life you've oh-so-conveniently striked me out from.

I try hard convincing myself, and those around that we could "pick up from where we left off", but I'd tell you it's so hard it's becoming a lie if I said we could.

Everyone is busy, but that's not valid enough an excuse for forgetting.
"It takes two hands to clap", evidently clapping isn't our form of expressing our enjoyment.


This is really random.
These are words I should have keyed a long time ago but I never really wanted to admit this loss.
This is happening because I'm reading my friends page and realising I scroll down the page with less and less intervals to read.
This, maybe, should be ignored.
This is probably nonsense due to pre game jitters.

"Secretly," she says.

You see, I thought this was what differentiates us from the other students out there.

Apart from our age, the license, I thought our thinking would have differed very much from who we were one, two years back.

Shouldn't unspoken silences be understood?

Need everything be explicitly said?

Now, now, don't we all know the "don't tell anyone" never, ever, really works?

Anyways,

VANESSALIU GIVE ME BACK MY SPONGEBOB >=(

Incompetence Vs Inconsistency.

Would you rather be placed among the best, but be the worst there?
Or be the best amongst the not-as-good?

Incompetence or Inconsistency?
These are my questions for the day.

I've been thinking about self-confidence, compared to team confidence.
I've been thinking about my performance, and the team's result.
I question myself if I'd rather be put in Situation A or Situation B.

I remember her saying, "Picture a red flag and tell yourself to stop the negative self talk."
It rings in my head,
but I cannot control.


I thought my biggest mistake today was dialing your number,
but I guess the biggest mistake today was you not picking up my call.


I want to eat Ben & Jerry's. =((

Why Don't You Come Over Here?

Time check: 0836

Phil just woke up about an hour ago to her growling tummy (omg such a pig, I know!)

Been so used to waking up around this hour the past few days that I automatically woke up today.

Heehee, lucky I've company. (:

NOTETOSELF: SIDE STEP EARLIER

Because I refuse to get my brain juice working, I shall just post photos!
The real picture of the jungle insect invader last Wednesday, look at its yellow legs!
And yeah, it totally looks like a leaf!

Crabby popped by after dinner at Swensen's on Thursday, and had her virgin hostel experience washing clothes! (Actually, just hitting the Power Switch button) We should have totally made her mop our floor yeah. Haha, love you crabbbbbs.

And there's the worldclass biatch, but a favourite one.
She threw the life science notes over her own face,

then started whining that I threw it on her, and they're flattening her nose. =\

Oh yes, and,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ZIDEEEE!

I'm so upset I couldn't be there, but I'm sure you guys had a blast (:
Ps: Photo taken on her 18th birthday. See, we started the donut trend long before you guys got crazy over silly over rated donuts. And these are 70cents each!

paperbacked, so read me.

two down,
three more to go,
both not too good,
hope the next three will take a change.

friday afternoon spent like the exams are over,
trng in one half hour.

disjointed entry,
displaced person,
dysfunctional phone. (Hence, I'm probably uncontactable til Sunday)

I need to Think Twice, Thrice, Frice (Fries?)

HELP.






I swear I'm dying.


Ps: Currently, Phil has an overloaded brain, a coming week full of meetings every night, a strained hamstring, a growing tummy.
Okay, bye. More HOC stuff.

The Sweetesttt.

OMG I HAVE TIME TO BLOG!

I refuse to go down to the polling booth, cos they've conveniently pangseh-ed and I've training in 17 minutes, I shall not care.

Back to last week, met HUGS darling for lunch, and convinced her into skipping lecture so she came over to 1305 (: But silly girl left her bottle here.

Didn't get to sleep on the second consecutive Thursday cos we went down to TV Lounge after training to join the rest at the Alcohol party. But by then, we were just talking and gulping green tea.

Friday, we went to support Wenlong in Hey Gorgeous, and I was totally embarrassed, but never mind. (:
Went shopping(: Got a bag from Topman, so gay. Bumped into ding!
Fell asleep during Cell. Went home, and received a call a few minutes after I slept.

So I drove out and down to Novena. (Near) EMPTY ROADS AT LATE NIGHTS ARE THE BEST!
Drove down to Fort Canning (used the same route thrice in a day, gosh!) then went for Prata and Thomson. Reached home at 5am, oh gawd, I could walk with my eyes closed.

Met ding for productive shopping. (:
Met Y to go for Shai's engagement dinner. (We all misunderstood it for wedding, the real wedding will only be two years later!)
Then bishan for bedsheet shopping(: Eli and I are excited about our next identical bedsheets- monkey and giraffes! (Read: Her fav, my fav! And we both have a monkey/giraffe in the room)

I'm too lazy to think about what I've been up too, I'm just typing what I can think of right now...........

So anyhow, yesterday was a bad day. And I missed the dinner with Trojan. (please insert a million sulks)
Today was better(: Though I was extremely sleepy, I kept falling asleep; even in French tutorial (I think the tutor hates me anyhow)

MID TERMS ON: 13 sept, 17sept (3 papers, omg), 29Oct. SCREWED.

My brain moves too fast for my fingers they can't type chronologically.
Oh gawd, I'm so screwed.

Time left to pigeon training: 3mins. SIANZZZZZZZZ.

I'd have loved to use a pencil, but that just wouldn't be permanent.

Nothing beats home(:
Now I know why Sister and Lousy Friend have decided to ps me for home on Thurs night.

Haven't slept before 3 all week, (yes Eli?) Even the earliest is just minutes to 3.

Talked to Y and couldn't help agree more that I, being a single person, cannot accomodate to every single friend. Moreover, friends who don't understand do not deserve my sacrifices of those who are patient.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, is one of the rare times I have decided to finally make a selfish choice: of prioritising myself, so I'm giving Mr. Lim's birthday a miss.
Loong day tomorrow despite that miss!

And great,
I don't effing have an extra memory card so now I can't print photos.
Damn. Now I miss my old fat Nokia 6680.
What bulls.


{EDIT @ 0404}

NOTE TO SELF: I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
{/EDIT}

Lies right in between.

My roomie's other half says my table's messy and ____ (I can't remember what, but something not too nice) ,

I smell of Food Court,

Fright night tonight,

Reporting in 9 minutes,

But still online.

Dear roomie, if you see this,
I love you okay. Your puffy eyes look real puffy. (Oh, wth. Heh)

TROJANFORLIFE.

Fill the emptiness you took away.

I miss you Mrs. Darcy, come back quick. :(
Off again! But this time to Chalet til Tues night!

See you guys sooon.

Earth, or Water. Take Your Pick.

I'm sorry, Lord. For letting my fatigue and weak mental strength take over me.

I skipped church today. =( I feel extremely bad.

Lunch was good, meeting up with class after that was better.

Phone call from Seef was lovely =D

Mass conversations are the best.

Heehee.

Funny quotable quotes:
1)Lionel: eh, meng on my right, wen long on my left, im in the centre.
meng is bass, wen long is the speaker.... together = dolby 5.1 surround system....

2)Meng: See my size, I'm a submarine la, jump in sure sink. Then later cos got too much fats, will slowly float up.

3) Yeepei: Mummy, mummy.. You tie my hair too tight! -_- Uncle, uncle.. The door kiap my nose ^.^ Auntie, aunite.. Ur umbrella hook my mouth -.J

4) Lionel: u din know that night was a stir.... tornado forming and u were the epicentre, so u tot the weather was fine.

5) Yeepei: Capsule.. capsule? Sounds like some sweet..

OH! The sweet is strepsil!

Okay, more when I remember. For now..


Trojan! One Heart - One Soul - 杀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will fill in the blanks later.

Random picture from I can't remember when.
I think it's ugly. Ago thinks it's cute.
So I say it's ugly-ly cute.

##TUESDAYMet Est laogong for lunch during her break hour from work(: It was really a short but sweet time spent with her. My dear J wanted to sleep so I walked her back to walk while waiting for childhoodie to come from home.

Somebody was emo like shit. So shitty. But we walked from like one end of town to the other end back to another end and to the same end again, you know? We stupidly left Cine at 4 to Far East to kill time before our 645 movie, but we didn't get tickets so when we went back at 630 the tickets left were crappy. DAMN DUMB RIGHT. Don't remind us. We didn't even realise.

From Cathay we walked down to Raffles City to visit MORE emo friends; (why everyone so emoooooo emu) who was crying at work. But she gave us Prestat (!!!!!) chocolates.

Below, is a neoprint we took on Wed that was infrared-ed to our phones. It's suppose to be two pictures! But I don't know why it only shows one when uploaded. Sorry we took neoprints la, damn childish I know. But it's our last year as TEENS, we should act as teens for all we want for the last time.
Like everyone says, "enjoy it while it lasts."
Yeah baby, this is what it means.


Ps: Do me a favour please, don't confuse (over)reliance with love.

Forget It ;

Okay, balls,
I just realised that my life isn't that boring afterall.

I'm just self censoring all my fun and convincing myself, Life suckxxxx,
because I spend 60% of my time at work,
BUT EH. WHY I SO LIKE THAT.
Why nobody slap me.

I'm so excited to see what time I wake up tomorrow since I'm still awake at 1:35.
If I wake up at 7:40 again, I will ....

Okay crabby has a fun comment thing on her blog but I'm presuming no one reads my blog anymore so I shall not do it. Hah.

GOOD MORNING.

Happy Birthday, my dearest childhoodie toocoolforschool artist graphic designer.
You are da coolezz.

Stay with Me.

Ever since Day1 of Cny, it hit me that I've been increasingly stubborn.
Especially ever since one of life's suspension cords snapped. Lately, there's been too much in life to attend to, so many issues that deserve my attention, yet I choose to slacken in this highly uncomfortable yet temporarily relieving seat.
And I refuse to move.
No, not that it is luxurious, but I've been on my feet way too long that I'd settle for anything second best already. (And the worse thing is I'm limited to only what's Best and Second best.)

I might just eventually find pleasure in this seat, and not move until someone comes along and does something.

-

There are days where you are your normal self,
giggly, happy, crazy, whacky, insane.

Then again, there are days you are totally not yourself,
quiet, hostile, temperamental, (extremely) bitchy, grumpy, unhappy.


And THEN, there's those days where you feel like you totally want to be alone.
Yet being alone, is where you are in the comfort of those you don't ever want to live without.

Today, or maybe tonight,
is one of the many nights where I'm living in #3.


No, who says I'm emo?
I'm not.
It's just a sudden realisation. Haha.

FOUL.

Today is a foul day.
Everything is foul.
Everyone is foul.
I am foul.
I feel foul.
I act foul.
I speak foul.
I just feeel very very foul.