Some days I can't believe, others I'm on my knees.

I'm so disappointed with my mom, who extended her trip but failed to notify me. Initially, I was really excited about her return but now it's "oh yeah, okay.."



On Tuesday, I thought, 5 days to Christmas.

Sounds so near! Yet Saturday seems so far away.

Today is Thursday already.




As much as I can't wait to leave the country for this short getaway, this little uncertainty stings the heart. Especially the whole idea of flying on my own, checking in on my own, waiting on my own (Omg, can you imagine if my flight delays?), what's gonna happen, how I'd cope, what I'll be occupied with, how I'll be treated, whether S is gonna keep his promise(s)- it all scares me.


Plus, I'm gonna be missing out on so damn much, all the Christmas parties with the different cliques. I wish I could be in both places at the same time this Christmas.





Anyhow, contrary to the disappointment I felt on Tuesday, I felt like I received all the love in the world at night. D and W came over, with strawberry taohuay all the way from ChompChomp despite the heavy thunderstorm. They came over to cheer me up, knowing I was upset (with both Daddy and Mommy) and was craving for tao huay(:




Though we sat at the void deck/Mc Donald's and fall short in comparison to the liansxz (that look no younger than 16 but were smoking) and bengsz (who were playing water bombs in the rain) around us, we had our fair share of fun, laughing at W's stupidity, my poor Chinese and embarrassing attempts to be gangstasxz and attempts to hit on some girls. HAH.

Thank God though, for W's umbrella that kept the (fat) three of us (sorta) dry.


But I totally crashed my healthy diet plans with FRENCH FRIES for supper. Like, omgz fat oil carbs alert please. And W just couldn't stop eating- Double Cheeseburger, Fries, Ice cream! Temptations! Tsktsk.

W attempting a raindance. Hah, I'm kidding.

Anyhow, thank you D. For always being here. Be it silently, or overtly. But I know you're this GINORMOUS cotton-stuffed pillow that cushions every single fall of mine.

Even when you're at the troughs of your life, you never fail to catch me, or twist my lips.

You deserve to be so happy, so much more than anyone should be. And I'm sorry most of the time, I'm so self-absorbed in my own world, and fail to offer you the shoulder you need. Yet you still stand there for me.

I love you sooooo much, D. And I wish I could smuggle you along in a huge luggage but I can't. Those 7 days will pass fast fast and you'll be strong, I know that. Love you plenty okay? (: (:



On a more random note: More random dreams! About The S and The B. Haha, it's freakily unpleasant and awkwardly haunting. No idea why I keep having these kinda random weird dreams, but maybe God is trying to tell me something.



Fine, I believe everything happens for a reason and each action has a reaction. Most of the time impulsive decisions I make lead to regrets. And I'm half as sure that this stubborn decision I am making might lead to regrets but I highly doubt it'd matter much to both parties involved.



At least I didn't promise I would tell you,

unlike you promising everything but fulfulling nothing.



"Flames to Dust, Lovers to Friends; Why do all good things come to an end?"

"With you baby, it was never number one."

Anyway,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ANDY LAU HANDSOME! HAHA.

And on the 20th:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NICK WOMAN! (must give you a shit colour)
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KELLY!
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY KIDDO MIDDO CANDICE!

hello my red ranger! AMP!

Million dollar question: "Where is Phuket?"

P: "Tell me which mountain you come from."
S: "How can you not know???"
J: "I thought it was a fruit."

P: "It's in Australia la, okay?"
S: "Let me teach you something else." *writes 'Paris'*
"This is in Thailand, you know or not?"

Omg, big joke of the night please!

Today, my rubber bands SNAPPED while I was having dinner.
So, okay, I admit, I AM VIOLENT.

Angel has decided to transform into mr Red Ranger (Power). Hoho.

I miss my Ding and she has a weird friend!

I must sleep by one am tonight cos I am sick and I need rest and it is not the right time to fall ill!

Futuresex/Lovesounds is therapeutic!

Cafe Galilee's Mango Tango is gross! For coffee alternatives, go for anything Strawberry.

Strawberry tao huay is LOVE(:

KIDDOMIDDODIDOO, thank you kiddo! Sorry I don't know how to write zhi(1) chi(2) okay!

After one month ++++++ I decided to take my BIRKIES out of its COLD CHAMBER and wear it again! (Or I'd get scolded by leeseefeechzechingkwa again!)

(can you see my rubber bands!)

Disjointed, mindless and random entries help to deeeeeeeeeessssssttttttttrrrrrrrrreeeeeeessssssssss

My favourite narcissistic bimbo

HELLO THE PSI HAS GONE BELOW 50! IT'S TIME TO GO RRRRUUUUNNN!!