You're The Direction I follow To Get Home

1)WORK

IA this week's been goodie goodie. (:

Finally starting on experiments: sample prep, gold deposition (unfortunately, I don't have access to the Au otherwise I could steal some and we could all be rich!), lspr measurements, bilayer formation and next week, more molecular testing, more layer by layer depositions and even SEM training!

Okayyyy, I know I sound like a complete nerd now. But I really like it!

I've been working OT the past two days and yes, I've been complaining (though I don't quite deserve to cos I have DAMN slack days too). Just unlucky the OT falls on days I have a tight after-work schedule (non-leisure related)

Lunch breaks have also been awesome with my aN-yoU-aSs pallies, with fellow course mates and the lonely Hub, with my dearest OG mate ongjunx(: , getting used to the way around campus and eating out of school.

Despite the reallyreallyreeeaaalllly low pay, I'm pretty glad I was granted my first choice company. When I'm bored or waiting for results, I can just head over to the Computer Room and I'll always find someone there, or head down to L3 library and disturb Ah Chu. =)

Today, Junx came over while taking a break from his Fyp report and I was showing him the experiment. Also taught him how to use O.rigin to smooth curves (which he still doesn't know how to do after 1 year in Im.re) and he is impressed by me! :D Yay. I also hit my head against a cabinet which has never happened in the past few days but it had to happen when he was around.

J: "Don't worry, I won't tell G you knock your head."

Me: "If you tell her, I'm gonna ask her to 'boxbox' you!!!!"

=)

I win. Heh

2) IVPee

Only 1 game this week instead of the supposed two. Tuesday was our second game against SPee. Anyway, just as I thought I was doing fine, I got sat out TWICE in one game. Apparently I "needed to get out for a while before more possession lost or losing you (me) altogether". In other words, I was being destructive then self destructive/destructed.

We won anyway, 6-2.

Thanks Sugar Fairy for running down from N.us to watch the game! =)

We also caught IVPee Bball girls semis on Tuesday after our game. It was an extremely exciting nerve-wrecking one between us and aN-yoU-aS. From trailing by a-few-points, we caught up to a draw, then to a lead, then gave away free throws and the match ended with a draw. (The coaches of the opposition were so fierce, they even threatened the officials)

So it was extra time of 5 mins where we had a good lead initially until opposition caught up and the aN-Tee-yoU team had to work extra hard to take the lead again.

Eventually we won by two points and it was an awesome, awesome feeling. Plus seeing our fellow (ex) teammie playing so well, leading her team and scoring- we were so proud of her =)

So yesterday was the finals, which we rushed down after training. We were already trailing by a bit, but the bball girls kept trying to catch up. Each time they narrowed the gap, an unexpected (but freaking accurate) 3 point shot will come from the aI-Tee-E girls.

There was a period of time the aN-Tee-yoU team was ON FIRE but it wasn't enough. :(

We lost in the end, by 4 points ( I think?) Cyn still played awesome but it was really sad to see her cry :( She didn't cry when we lost S.UniG and she told us to be strong. So it was really saddd =((

3) FOOD

Been eating way too much fast food, Macs after watching bball on Tues (twister friezzz!), BurgerKing on Thurs and Macs again todayyyyy! :\ Had bubble t on Wed too, and a major frogurt craving due to the insane sun. The BenJerry's at Vivo's closed for renovation too. :(

4) MISC

Work ended early on Monday so I went to fix the oh-so-terrible hair of mine (I snipped my own hair and it was hideous).

Caught Blindside on Wed with liangshit my Curly Hair Friend after lunch with Ahgong and Yanns in campus. =) The show's really really good. =) We both enjoyed it. Shopped for Ahgong's farewell gift before heading down to his place for the (not-so-)surprise farewell party. (:

what will I do without you, Ah gong.

Have a safe flight to London.

Bella.

I am...

panic attacking for the second time for Wednesday's paper.

BUT : I have a paper tomorrow so there should be no reason for me to neglect it.

S says I should stop thinking about it so I've kept all the notes, past year papers, tutorials, and everything that reminds me of Advanced Materials Processing in a file and hid it under my table.

Spent the weekend in hall, except Friday night and the first half of Saturday.

Surprised Seef over breakf with the other 4 of Bao (sorry you couldn't be there Sheryl!) to celebrate her 21st one day early. (:

So I'm finally starting exams tomorrow! (: About time, when people around me are beginning to E-N-D. :( 7dec sounds so far away, but shall not complain about the time I have on hand to use for revision! (:

Need to go for a run soon. Getting oversized.

TigerLily.

A post of the infamous long weekend:

Filled with much reunions (big and small), realizations, celebrations and expectations.

Dinner with S and family over steamboat, then cousin's birthday celebration where I was greeted with too many kids, I can no longer remember their names.

Supposed to attend Moo's 21st but sorry for the clash of events =(

During their Recess/my public holiday, I caught up with Yanns and Yarns over Aston's (old time favourite) and an Indonesian dessert: baked banana over condensed milk sprinkled with chocolate flakes and shredded cheese. Mmmmm, heavenly. =) And as the Crabs observed, we were dressed in each other's House colours: Yellow, Blue, Green.

Also caught Inglorious Basterds; wasn't what I expected but I enjoyed it. A heavy hearted show (compared to Ugly Truth), and it was kinda tragic, but I like. =)

Plus, late night study sessions til I get damn brain dead. And the evils of temptation: Strawberry sundae at 1am, French fries at 3am.

My emotional jar probably also overflowed over the weekend from feelings suppressed for too long. But I also learnt that there is not always an answer to every question.

Neither is there a lesson to be learnt from every thought dwelled over too much.

AND, that one day in the future, we will only regret the things we NEVER did, and not those we did.

Will you be my plain water?

Whichever You Prefer.

Training on Wednesday was "Back - to - School" themed. We all came dressed in our JC jerseys and we were reeeaaallly colourful that day. It made training look bright and happy but the fitness/drills totally killed whatever was left.

We forgot to take pictures so we took this while waiting. (:

Thursday(night) was spent with no other than my favourite people from schoool. =D

From Prata to intended ice cream at I.cekimo (which was closed by the time we arrived), and then to prawning til 3ish. We spent more than 10$ on snacks to last us through the night, and caught a grand total of FORTY ONE PRAWNZZZZ.

Slightly into the first hour, we realised our net had many huge holes and thus 2 luckyshit prawns managed to escape. :( But we were on a rolll the next two hours and Brudder even caught a KING PRAWN!

It was definitely much more enjoyable than the first time I went. Somehow we couldn't get used to the amount of strength to be used so I managed to send two of the prawns I caught on an insane Reverse Bungee ride, concussing them as they hit the walls on the side. Chong even tangled up our rod with the lamps hung up.

We had fun feasting, but we finished them all up in less than half an hour.

Nothing tastes as good as when you've caught/cooked/earned them yourself. :D

Site recce on Friday was awesome. It was short, sweet, SPECTACULARR. We were in total AWE of the place, and it was so much nicer than what I remembered it to be..

Really. Awesome. (:

Then, that night, Mommy brought home her Third Daughter. (HAHA) Some little cute p3 kid who stayed over for the night. Both of them were sooo caught up with their Facebooking games, I was quite speechless. My mom is 5* (secret! hah!) and the girl is only 9!

Saturday; had an awful breakfast. :( I didn't get my waffles and everything was just so bad. Then we had our semis. Really important game. Victory would have been sweeeeeet, but we didn't work hard enough for it. The first time we played this team, we lost 4-2. Then we drew 3-3 the second time, and finally won 4-3, earning ourselves 2nd place in the table.

Yet, during semis we lost 5-4. It was so so close, the pressure was intense, everyone was flustered. It didn't help that we were screaming at one another, but the opposition deserved to win based on that 40 minutes. Tragic, but true. =(

Made my way down to S.omerset Residences to celebrate Liu's 21st! It rained and thus ruined the party plans by the pool and everything reverted back to the room. The birthday boy had pretty cupcakes in place of a birthday cake which was kinda cute. (Since he's a boy!)

Woke up bright and early for Funtouch today. We won! Black berries. Haha.

And the rest won u21 girls too! Even the Turf Babe was from our team, so awesome stuff.

Hate astro burns/ sun burns though. And yes, my middle finger is swollen from a boot-kicking action from I-can't-remember-who. =(

Caught T.erminator just now. It is definitely one awesome action packed film.

But it kinda made me nauseous. =(

Back to touch tomorrow with taped up fingers. AGAIN. Oh my. 4th consecutive day of Touch tomorrow. :( OK STOP WHINGING. Goodnight.

Now?

The weekend passed like pseudo post-exams,

Friday with Family,

Saturday playing Touch and supper with Bao,

Sunday spent at church, shopping, airport slacking and watching soccer.

It also felt somewhat like a celebration, where we treated ourselves to good food; Mac Breakfast, Kenny Rogers, Sushi, Kickass prawn noodles, Supper at T.ongshui, X.in wang .....  .

The sun on Saturday was mega hot, so hot I had goosebumps. Weird, cos it has never happened before and I thought they'd only appear when I'm extremely cold.

We won 8-7, not too convincing a win, but one nonetheless. Grazed my knees and nearly evaporated under the heat. =(

Then an impromptu supper retreat, which led to lotsa screaming in the car (which isn't uncommon). It was a good catch up, a good break from revision, a good source of comfort- that old times never die. 

Sunday, travelled to about two places to get a watch with a heart rate monitor. When we finally found it, turns out they didn't have the strap, so we got another (which in my opinion, is probably only third or fourth best ) Studied for about two hours or so before we headed East to Bedok, an hour early. Aiport for dinner, and supposedly study, but the plane landed early and dinner took longer than expected no thanks to poor service. 

Stayed up to watch M.anU lose. >=( Even though they fielded a really young team, I thought they'd still pull through. We went into penalties and lost. YOU KNOW WHY? Cos VANDERSAR didn't play. =) Still think Welbeck sucks btw.

Mommy sent us back to hall after lunch today(: Yay to a spare car for two weeks! :D I tried starting to shift out and unknowingly packed two (huggee) bags worth of clothes but my wardrobe still looks the same.

PS: The touch is home, still sealed, and hidden in a corner under my table.

(NO GPANG you are not going to open it for me(: )

PPS: 2 people walked past and commented how shag/stressed/qiao cui I look, another via webcam, and another over dinner. This is not a good sign. =(

Finish What You Started.

We came up with ingenious plans to prank teammate(s), and our coach,

got all excited about it,

but in the end, THE WEATHER PRANKED US.

Fucken rain that lasted through the afternoon :( 

We trained indoors but carried on with the prank (on Coach), and she was too focused on WTF happened to our training gear that she didn't notice everyone turn our backs to her and giggling away. Anyhoo, she was pissed x1000000 at our irresponsibility and "kept her eyes on the bag" cos she couldn't believe it.

(Ok, we took out ALLL our touch balls and replaced them with 1 basketball, 1 volleyball and 2 small spongey rugby balls)

I was a walking evidence of F = ma and P = F/A yesterday at training.

Large m contributes to large Force which results in High Pressure as the Area of my thumb is small small small. :( Painful. 

Oh, had Macs strawberry oreo mcflurry today. It was awesome! Like a strawberry sundae + oreo mcflurry. :D Yums. Thank you! :D

Get Myself Together.

Yesterday at training (we were concluding what a closet bimbo V is) :

J : "What's the fastest way to drown a blonde Val?"

P: "I know! I read it somewhere, put a mirror at the end of the pool!"

V: "Huh, I would have said, 'in a pool of nutella!' (in a very very excited tone)"

Today at training:

Coach: "Looks like you need to strengthen your fingers instead. Next time before training you must tape up both your thumbs."

Me: "Ok I shall SMS more! Thumb strengthening."

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The itouch is here, so surreal to finally own one but I'm honestly willing to let it go(:

It's completely sealed with the shrink wrap and makes it more difficult but I've left it safely tucked in a corner of my shelf so I won't touch it (NOR LET ANYONE TOUCH IT!) Haha

School yesterday was so bad. :( As always I skipped my 830 lecture, but woke up earlier than normal so I took my time. Left for school and reached the LT realising I left my file behind :( It was a 2-hr lecture. So I retraced my steps to hall and back to the LT again. :( I probably also killed  90% of my brain cells thinking about whether I should get the Touch or not, so much til I ended up with a headache. (BIG JOKE) Then I wasted my 6hr break before training doing nothing.

BUT but but training last night was fun despite being extremely tiring :( Pool training drains your energy without you knowing but we acted like 5 yr olds brought to the pool for the first time.

Training today was more verbal than physical but we learnt lots nonetheless(: We were itching to play games so we drew out imaginary boundaries for a 5v5 game at the end but the lights went out on the first tap-to-go. We started playing in the dark, dropping every ball thrown before we were called in to take a picture with the guest coach. (AL! He wore his specs so cannot see his pretty eyes :( )

Mac for dinner. :( The company was great, but the food (and calorie count) was scary. :(

One last conversation to wrap up this post:

M: I'm not a bitch.

P: Yeah, you're just a mitch. (Male Bitch)

M: WTF!?

OK everybody should be studying and not reading this. 

Honest Juice.

I hate Sunday Nights. :( Hate the pre-Monday Blues, hate the feeling of coming back to school for yet another 5 days of torture, hate the academic information, hate school.

OK JUST WHINING.

(This is a bottle I brought back all the way from NZ. HAH. The orange juice is daaaaamn good ok. And I really like the bottle though it's just a sticker over some ordinary plastic case! :D )

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Effectively did nothing over the weekend yet lack the sense of urgency currently.

I KNOW there's a million things I have to do, and should be doing but I can't get started, can't settle down.

My arms are still aching from Thursday's training (We had to do 50 long passes each, for both sides. = 100 long pass) and carrying Friday's shopping stuff from A.didas warehouse. (S and I spent 400$ altogether but he definitely bought more!! Haha)

I probably also ate more than what I'd normally eat in a week over the past 2 days:

Friday, Thai Food for lunch, (then I went home fell asleep watching webcast). Met Ahgong/Art/Yanns with S and had dinner at Little.part 1 (don't trust reviews, it isn't that good) which wasn't enough for the boys. Seventh H.eaven for dessert (must go!) then, to B.alestier for BKT. It's almost like we had Part 1 of the Food trail. Heh.

Saturday, Mac breakf, which we haven't had in a long time. (Not Mac, just weekend breakf)

D.empsey for touch after where it poured like mad. And I fucking sprained my thumb! But it's the left one this time, and it isn't as bad as the previous sprain on the right so ogays. But but, I really HATE PLAYING AGAINST BOYS.

Went back to SA.jc, wasted time watching the boys play touch, and we had Food trail Part 2.

Tpy's Fishball Noodles, Purvis' Beef Noodles, Maxwell for Orhlua/Porridge/Pigs organ soup where I ordered a really diluted cup of Strawberry/Mango juice, Eggtarts, U.dders for Ice cream. We wanted to go Thomson for BCM (!!) but we headed to Thom.son 800 instead for Soccer. (ManUtd lost. Seriously. It was really hard to watch. :( ) Had Wala's pizza after soccer/before rugby. Caught the first 10mins of R.BS 6nations finals and fell asleep. HAHA.

Sunday; after 4 hours of sleep and dozing off during service, I dabaoed BCM (!!!) from AMK's kickass store and went down to H.ave8. Of course it doesn't taste as awesome packed, but it finally satisfied S' craving which lasted for 2 days. So poor thing.

Then dinner at O.asis where I was forced to eat alot (I don't like the 'Skinny Talk' at the dinner table. Reeallly.) and was tempted with KOI (hahaha gee pang!!) but for the benefit of my health, I resisted. YAY. Good job phil. (:

Oh yes and I was phone-less the whole Saturday til after service on Sunday cos I absent-mindedly left my phone in the car.

I'm still tired from the lack of sleep and I've been having a resident headache.

Maybe it's like Griz's: "Tension Headache", the doctor said.

Happy Birthday Pong,

Happy Birthday Tingyi.

Your Skin And Bones.

This weekend passed by,

quick and spontaneous, like any other.

The difference though, is the after taste it has left behind.

Bitter sweet, but also enlightening.

Tragic, but true; that it always takes things like these for you to know the truth.

Friday night was spent prawning til 4. We had a few bites, but we caught nothing. We have so much more to learn about this new thing we're trying to pick up, just like how much more we have yet to know about each other despite the hours we've had together.

We also witnessed a fight, that broke up within the same group of friends, which involved hair tugging, chair throwing, beer-bottle smashing, lots of vulgarities and eventually the police.

(But to start with, I had an early Black Friday: my friends left for school without me, I had a bad test with unfriendly company, I mixed up match venues, I almost sprained my ankle walking across a grass patch, I got attacked by ants... Argh)

We probably fell asleep only after the sun rose, and slept til the clouds hid the risen sun. It started pouring and I murmured, "Thank God I didn't have a game today." Not because we could spend the afternoon together, but because I didn't want to go home with my underpants soaked.

Then suddenly, three words you said to me shot through like an arrow in a bull's eye, "I dunnoe leh" and I finally knew what "More than words" meant.

Most of the time, the final word in the final sentence is "Bye", but I decided to play it different. And I said it, the most effortlessly summarised phrase: "Fuck you."

Being kickass friends, my FridayNightGang (self proclaimed) had already picked me up and took me down to BarBarBlackSheep; Smokin'frogz rather, for (really oily and fattening) dinner. Being the gentlemen they are, they even paid for dinner (which I barely ate). Wanted to drink, but chose to head East to the Beach to pick up the other 1/4 missing from the party of Four. (where the driver was being a complete Gangster on the road)

Joe's (slightly) dysfunctional Macbook and terrible wireless connection took us on a detour to Tampines where we crashed and become a party of Seven (of which two were virtual). Skyped with the one in Aussie, and another in England; Liang I miss you alot =(

Was sent home safely and slept in til mysecretDate woke me up an hour late. If you didn't know this about me, I secretly hate waking up when I'm upset. But this time the numbing effect lasted longer than I thought it would. Spent the day studying/digressing/reading NewMoon with mysecretDate and Penguin dearest. This was where I randomly flipped the book open and read the below quoted paragraph. Today was not meant to be productive (academically wise), but merely an excuse to distract and take my/your/our mind off things. This spells Discipline. I probably also had an ultimate sugar overdose for the second consecutive day (imagine: 2 tubes of Mentos and 1 packet of Skittles all in less than 3 hours. Yesterday, it was MagnumWhite + BubbleT).

The numbness, faded a little while over dinner. But it came back after the nostalgic ride back to school. No, it's bad, but it's good for you.

And tonight, my best friend is coming over (hall) to crash.

This is a support system that will never fail you.

"Do You Wanna Be A Quitter? Or Someone Who Stays"

One week ago,

Tuesday; we had pizza and macdonalds and htht after training til two in the morning,

with our shorts and underwear soaked from icedips. Then we lugged the huge green bin back all the way from CanA.

Wednesday; Yanyi crashed IS training (it was fun though!), then we starved while waiting for the Bff and Spacemedic0016 (haha) and had lunch at 3. Then my stomach/digestive system threw a tantrum (diarrhoea) and the rest of the body screamed for rest. Decided to give training a miss (despite the coin flipping's decision to not skip) and slept. Woke up with a fever and found myself in deep shit. But then again, I didn't quite care.

Thursday; 

the cousins/aunts were back from cruiseee. Shopped a little in town before the friendly (omg the blue top from topshopt and black top from fcuk :( ) Played a pretty awesome + fun game with the boys down at Rpeeee.

Cabbed down with wet shorts/underwear/shirt/skins (totally freezing!) to Laopasat and had only chicken wings and squid for dinner. =( Then headed back to Ritz for the rest of the night and baby-fashion-show-watched til we felt sleepy and Shanniee stayed over! :D

Friday; woke up to Macs, headed down to Full.erton, then more shopping, more babysitting, more Macs and lotsa Starbucks. S came later with a surprise (skins!!) and he took over the babysitting (or baby carrying in this sense). And we bumped into lotsa people: "secret daughters?".

Haha. Had some Mega Seafood Feast for dinner but it wasn't as yummy as it looked. PSP-ed like mad the whole night with lotsa A.pe Academy challenging. Then we said our final goodbyes(:

Saturday; slept in, caught S's game (awesome game!), tossed in bed til late :\

Sunday; wet, wet, wet, cold. Prayed for rain, and training to be cancelled. Got the first, didn't get the second. Boohoo =(

Then I watched Love Actually til I couldn't stop crying (haha)

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This week,

Monday; caught the Bestie for breakf before she left for Europeeee, that lucky girl. I love you, Seeef! :D Then met Pong, and we ate til we popped (though we shared a meal and didn't intend to binge at all). Then, the very screwed up friendly.

Then D, as usual, ohsonicely cabbed down to check up on me(: And we did what we used to always do, but haven't done in a really long time. ;) Thanks for everything, as always, Love.

I love you, Ding! :D

Tuesday; CP meeting at Starbucks. We're almost done, and I hope we don't need to meet on Thurs anymore :D Caught the very last quarter of Basketball IH, then trained with a new area taped up.

"That's new. What happened?"

"Uh, I don't know, It just hurts."

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Coach and I had a very good talk after training, together with J and A.

"It is just how much you want it."

She gave me the green light to make my own decision and assured me not to think/worry too much.

But I am still indecisive.

We ordered Macs (again :( ) to Fifteen and ate at the lounge, with aircon (hence freezing with our shorts &underwear wet again..), television, and a mini htht.

When you can't find strength from within, you draw it from others.

"It's only three more weeks, Phil."

All Over Nothing

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

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This is super tragic. I went to bed with a headache and a nauseous tumtum so I skipped church and by the time I woke up, I already missed breakfast. =( And I love weekend morning breakfasts.

Alsooo, I searched all the supermarkets in my neighbourhood plus those in H. ave 8 and NY mart and I still can't find my gummies. Why why why. Do not doubt their existence cos I've eaten them more than once! We used to have a weekly affair but then Gr.eg buys Snakes only now. =(

Third calamity, the macs downstairs has removed all their powerpoints. What a slut. =(

Angin Mati Orang!!

I let you take the wheel
And the driver's seat
Strapped in
So you get the best of me
Now what's left are the memories

When you were mine
You know

We had it all in front of us
You were the one
I was in love
But you always hurt
The one you lost
I couldn't get enough

You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you

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I learnt a new phrase today. You've gotta translate it twice to get the real meaning. (: Heh.

Lab today was shorter than expected! Chong and Brudder were sharing about how tedious and long it took but it was pretty allright. The two lab technicians are DAMN cock. It was more like a havoc class...


Anyhow, we went down for training. Freaking weather had to be this bad when I wore my new boots. And they're white! =( They feel a little too big for me actually, but it wasn't when I tried it on.. Ahhh, now they say I look funny. =(

Suicides and agility stations for training, then refereeing, and a half with the Com.Studies Interschool team.
Guess it was just average..

But dinner on the other hand.. Dinner was way awesome. No more food left by the time we ended so we walked for Macs. :D Yeah, violating diet plans but it's the company right.
We sat there for almost 2 hours and left around 1115. Made lotsa noise, disrupted all the late night muggers studying plans. But seriously, we have the right to that noise pollution, it's a Canteen. Not a library. Can't describe the awesomeness of the night, but you know what's lethal? Wasabi fries + chilli sauce + Fish burger + Milo. It gets you high. Like really really high.

We should do it again sometime soon, my dears! Study dates to start like last sem please! :D

PS: No touch over the weekend! Woohooooo
PPS: We are accumulating lots and lotsa bad karma. Hahaha

It's your choice. Not mine.