Rule of Threes

"The important thing is to abide by the rule of threes. Either you see a woman three times in quick succession and then never again, or you maintain relations over the years but make sure that the rendezvous are at least three weeks apart."

--Tomas, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Now, everywhere I go or everything I do seems to link with this.

PS: Might just be adopting a Rule of Threes relationship with trainings.

"All that glitters is not gold,

and not all who wander are lost."

L.

"Love isn't blind.

It sees, but it doesn't mind."

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The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create.
—
Chuck Palahniuk

loss.

"Everyone of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library."

-Haruki murakami

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."

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"XXX-- SOOO many things to do with so lil time... so stressed that u wanna put out your own hair"

-- my friend is so stressed his hair caught fire and now needs to put it out.

Aww, poor thing. =) Heeee.

I Know That You Were Trouble, But I Couldn't Resist.

So I :

• removed my stitches today, and
• found out that my bottom right wisdom is in a worst state than the one I extracted and hence,
• will experience a more traumatic post-surgery recovery when I do get it extracted.
• finally went for 930 lesson after breakf with the roomie
• couldn't stop sleeping in oh-so-boring elective.
• was asked the meaning of "LOVE" today.
• recently can't stop throwing FORWARD passes
• didn't play w.tl on Saturday but still went down
• caught Timetraveller's wife over the weekend with Bao, and
• didn't really like it. :(
• missed my gipee interview last wednesday thanks to wisdom surgery, yet
• was offered/recommended for it but,
• had to reject it after calling up gipee office only to find out it clashes with the infamous ivpee.
• made a domokun card + whippedcream-covered-sponge as a pseudo cake for Jeannette's 21st with Jieling
• have a new found baby whom I spoil. It is true.
• was too late to sign up for Nikehumanrace AGAIN but it clashes with w.tl anywayyyyy
• must be patient
• must not express negativity to my teammates on the field
• am excited for S.unig yet a little scared
• was told that we think alike by A(nne)
• really hate reccosboys cos they are so effing selfish and full of themselves
• really hate 5llah softball male team after today cos they were so rude and unapologetic after lousy bats and allowing their softballs to fly into our field more than 3 times when they didn't even book the freaking field.
• missed out on eating dessert last night cos they stall was closed after we finished our main course, and hence
• tried the weirdest combination of ice ever - peanut ice, mango puree and nata de coco.
• was visited by seetohmeetoh weiyanndearest last Friday after wisdom extraction who bought me hotfudge sundae! WHEEEEEE
• as usual, hate school
• have been trying to sleep early, wake early. And so far,
• have been sleeping by 230am and waking up before 1130am. Good start.
• am currently hooked on: All The Right Moves/OneRepublic and Two is Better Than One/BoyslikeGirls
• need to study studying. THREE TESTS COMING!!!

PS: And Jeannette says: " I LOVE/사랑해/大好き/真的好爱/*insert 'love' in other languages here* you all~ "

"Do You Know Half The World Is Starving?"

About two weeks ago over tea, Aw convinced me how mankind are more independent than we think of ourselves.

If we took a step back and slowed things down a notch, we realise that there are many moments you don't need company. But during these times when you actually do have someone with you, it is but a privilege.

It is not about, "why aren't you there when I need you" but "thanks for being here with me".

Just a few hours ago, I was reading through _feelosophy. A long forgotten logbook. A secret stash of memories I don't want to forget. A little scary though, how some move on while others stay rooted where they came from. A little skeptical, how empty promises and absolutes are used so freely, "I will never"; "You will always".

I am ashamed to say a part of me has forgotten, yet a part of me still yearns.

It is hard to ignore completely, yet difficult to accept whole heartedly.

And the part about school: I can never finish whinging.

Why am I not surprised I decided to slug in bed til noon instead of going for lessons.

Now I pay the dire consequences of missing tutorial- I understand zilch.

The fire alarm went off at 5 in the morning too, waking neighbours and myself. (BUT NOT MY ROOM MATE NOR ANGELA!)

And just on Monday, I went to school for an 1130 class when school starts at 1230.

ARGH.

Take away my past but don't rob my memories.

Mental Toughness.

And I have been unproductive for effectively more than twenty four hours now.

All I think about is sleep and touch tomorrow.

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"I have full faith you will reach my expectations if you just take a breather and not worry too much."

And that, I shall.

Pause.

"Today, I was cuddling with the guy I like. I looked into his eyes and said, "Your eyes are so blue, like the ocean." He replied by saying, "Your eyes are so brown... like my shit". FML"

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Favourite of the day. (:

My knees are aching from the campus run earlier :(

Agape.

There is no Love greater than that of God's.

This weekend, He reminded us of the meaning of that 4-lettered word.

A word we learnt since young, in our children's rhyme, from our parents/grandparents.

And the simplest form, yet the one most difficult to achieve is that of Self-sacrifice.

From John 3:16, we know, He has sacrificed The Best for us. And with that, there is nothing else God won't do for us, because He loves us.

How do You define Love?

In 1 Cor 13:4-7; the boundaries have been drawn.

I know I keep quoting these verses, but it serves as a reminder. Maybe to myself.

It is patient, and it is not proud.

We are taught to love our neighbours as ourselves, to love your enemy.

So how do we Love?

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Thursday; lunch at HollandV with Mrsdarcy and Wei'an,

followed by a series of quick shopping for the patient, and a (unintended sinful) food visit down to Crabby's. We tried to talk happy stuff/silly stuff and distract her from her discomfort and pain. I dare say to us, happyfood always works best(: + helium balloons! Nothing is as happy as helium balloons(: We got a H.arry Potter one  since she already had every other Get-well-soon balloon that caught our eye. The other two made a few phone calls to check the spelling of EXPELLIARMUS which we finally did, thanks to Wei'an(:

We had desserts from Da Paolo (supermothereffingkickassawesome!), the new kinder surprise, her Ahgong bought us Icecream from the Icecream man (old school but love it!) and we had more sugar rush from reminiscing the trigger happy JC days. 

Dinner with Dxxx where we over ate, then shopped a little for destress(: Hah.

Thanks for telling me my nonexistent bicepped arms are huge. I love you very much. ROAR.

Friday: Church- A solemn, solemn Good Friday.

Yet, why is this Good Friday good? (For you to answer yourself)

Studied studied cried studied cried cried studied studied. :(

Saturday: The Bestie had me over so we could study together while not being in an airconditioned place (fluuu!) We had the clock resounding every hour, counting down to the bare hours left to my paper (she only starts much later!) and being fed by Y.fei + Dennis. They made ice cream (cookies&cream + Hazelnut) and durian puffs; so we just ate. And after dinner we had tangyuans too. Basically we just ate while studying. FATSSS. But it was happiness(:

So O/A levels. (:

Sunday; 8am service!! Went home to nap before meeting Penguin & PresAw(:

We came back to school earlier than I expected, later than they scheduled (heehee), dinnered, attempted studying and fantasized more business plans: UNITUT !?, Shared (un)funny jokes, shot each other weird stares everytime our phones rang....... OK UNPRODUCTIVE.

And we had supper. (:

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It's not in me to force His word unto my friends, but I hope all of you had your share of God's grace, God's love this weekend(:

Because I did(:

THERMO IN TWO DAYS! :(

Save Your Breathe, Your Heart Has Spoken.

"I was not alllowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The trade-off was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing."

-New Moon

Just Pull The Trigger Already.

need (nēd) Pronunciation Key
n.
A condition or situation in which something is required or wanted: crops in need of water; a need for affection.
Something required or wanted; a requisite: "Those of us who led the charge for these women's issues ... shared a common vision in the needs of women" (Olympia Snowe).
Necessity; obligation: There is no need for you to go.
A condition of poverty or misfortune: The family is in dire need.

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No longer will an ice cream cone or a lollipop place that same smile on your face.

No longer will receiving that toy you've always wanted light up your face the same way.

As you grow with age, your needs multiply, 

they are no longer simple.

They now come with expectations, with hope, with a price. 

And satisfying this growing thirst gets harder and harder.

What is it exactly you need, you want?

Maybe One Day We'll Wake Up, And It'd All Just Be A Dream.

1 Corinthians 13: 7 - It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.



It's just a moment of change.

Competitive + Competitive = Super competitive!

So last night, we had intraschool capts ball. Kinda stupid on one hand how we spent hours waiting to play. Zzzz. But anyhow we had a good time. Think the final match was the most exciting one too. =) Had to handle alot of The Sp's shit but ok la, it was funny.

And as quoted by him in a really joking manner: "Winning isn't everything. It's the only thing!"

We got a really huge hamper which made The Sp damn happy, we were so amused with his satisfaction with little things. Then we crashed a hall's event, supported our fellow team mate and presented her with the hamper. HAHAHA Classic.

Was so flustered rushing from room to room, making T bring a spoon around hall that we didn't have dinner. Walked out to eat but I was so tired I was sleepwalking. =(

Still sorry I missed your performance, but I hope the honey water helped. :]

PS: Lab is an online experiment today so no school on thursday! :D

PPS: I need to watch 4 online lectures. Dieeeeeeeeeeeee.

PPPS: Too much of odd shaped balls = cannot catch round balls properly. :(

I Held On To Your Promise.

Quoted from Griz's blog,

"1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love is more than a feeling.

Why do people end their relationships? Have they been abusing the word "love" to each other for the entire course of their relationship? I believe they have not. Perhaps in certain cases, people change and so has the love for their partner. Perhaps in certain cases, some do not truly understand the meaning of love. Do not fault them. After all, life's just a journey of lessons. I personally have learnt what the bible says about love and I like it.

Relationships are a test, a test to see if the other party is the one you would want to spend the rest of your life with. Sometimes the test could fail. Sometimes you need to sit the test multiple times, but if you're lucky, you will pass on the first try. People might have failed the first test badly, but I personally feel that it would be a pity to not try again. Maybe it's risky to try because the person might change, but life's all about trying."

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What happens when the one who promises never to let you fall, is the one who pushes you down the bottomless pit?
Do you believe that the things happening to the ones dear to you have a large effect on you?

For example, people around you start studying, you'd feel motivated, or somewhat pressured to follow likewise.

When people talk to you about their insecurities with other issues, do you feel strongly related to the words they speak?

When they start questioning themselves, and the things around them, does it spur you to question the same things too?


I do not deny the heavy involvement in Touch has detached me from certain aspects of my life, especially the spiritual one. The weekends have been solely dedicated to my Full-time job, I haven't been able to see things outside my enclosed fish bowl.

Last Friday before CG, I screwed up. I said two things I shouldn't have and created a snowball effect, accumulating someone's fucked up emotions. I was let in on something few days later.
And subsequently, another piece of news.
They have affected me. They teach you to be more appreciative of what you already have, but from there, I see the similarities, I've drawn the comparisons.
And I waiver......

It's not that I'm insecure, it's not that I'm faithless.
I just (once again) don't know how to deal with it.

This whole sem is a fucking mess with a million issues unsettled on hand.
And I don't know where to start..
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If any consolation, I finally got my months overdued OMG-HAHA-bag with a weeks-overdued date with MRS. DARCY. Lotsa sinful indulgences but these are the little sacrifices you make in return for a bigger bunch of happiness.

I love F.red F.lare! :D

Don't worry about me.

Backdate to July 30, 2008,
where I quoted: "I need you, but it always seems the more i need/want you , the more u drift away"


Can I throw it right back at you today?

Tonight, I've Fallen And Can't Get Up.

I haven't cried so hard,
so much,
in such a long time.
Fuck B.eij.ing Ai and all else related from that c.ountry.

So damn tired,
so much to do/STUDY,
so much on my little mind. =(


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And just before bedtime, I saw this on my igoogle:

John 14:1-3 :
"Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know."


Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled.

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Sacrificial Love.

" I need you, but it always seems the more i need/want you , the more u drift away , sometimes fate plays games with us , sometimes i feel its just a lil insensitivity. I find myself willing to give up everything for you , but im beginning to see that in your heart , i am probably just another thing to love , you are my everything , my life , i am so afraid of loving u sometimes , but i guess to you i am still just someone there? no doubt i am important , just not enough . "




I'm sorry.