Is This How We .....

I don't want to know.
Really. ='(

Examples of Conversations You Should Not Be Involved In.

jL:
maybe zhen ren look better?
p:
whos zhenren
jL:
as in real person =)
p:
oh
p:
OHH
p:
HAHHAHAHAHHAA

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"haha better make sure it's 10pm hor pls"

"you just wait patiently in your room laaaa. Hahahahaaa. We will come. =)"

"ok that seriously sound like a whore.."


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Today, over dinner, we taught the juniors our TINGTINGTING! =)

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"you'd still be my favourite girl. "


Maybe when I wake up, it'd all be expired emotions to be thrown out the door.
Wait, what emotions?

Drama-mation

Can't quite find the right word on how I feel right now. Paradoxical, maybe?

As learnt from elective, I probably just don't have the right cognitive maps to piece the little strings of information together to see a picture, a future, and the differences it will make.

Am probably not quite ready yet for these changes,

because I know they will be drastic ones.

Snow Patrol's new album is therapyyyyy.

Any Other But Her.

A pictorial representation of many things.

Guess what they are. =)

A dramamamamama night today.

So. Damn. Tired.

Don't Forget.

TNC gummies from Aussie when Sis came back last night,
together with a new pair of Havais. :D
Can't wait for the sem to be over and concentrate solely on touch.
It's been fucked up and can't wait to start a brand new sem right.



PS: Made new specs on Friday! :D

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You wrap your thoughts in works of art 
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart.

One Day.

Similar to how another door opens when one shuts,

when one depletes, another grows.

Maybe one day, you will just ....

love me less.

Sigh, You.

mygoodhurt, said:
YOU ARE A SLUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mygoodhurt, said:
HAHAHAA
dont wanna try says:
ya i noe im a slut
dont wanna try says:
hah sorry

OGAY. But I still love youuu.

Colourshades

This is what I did the whole of yesterday afternoon:

J says: "Humpty Dumpty from Adams family???"

In my defence, it was the only Humpty Dumpty I could find that was sitting down initially.

Then I found a really cute one and decided we should have a colouring exercise:

J is so creative with her blackie Humpty.

Tried to fit it into a wheelchair but nah, doesn't look good.

So we embarked on another colouring exercise. (This one was tough!)

Since it was just gonna be for fun, decided to give mine some bling bling. Haha

A refined version of J's Humpty.

And the finalised one! Yay! After the whole afternoon. =(

Home For A Day

Weekend:

Trained bright and early on Saturday morning. We were "promise(d) that this session will not inclue shuttles/suicides of TOKs" but we did agility fitnesss! =(

Giant shopped, brunched, got upset over the thought of losing my 22$, but eventually found out A took it. And she used it to buy 5 bottles of Po.cari sweat, of which only 1 was for me! Okay, but I got the money back in the end.

Game in the afternoon, though, was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! With composure and really awesome support on attack/covers for defence, we won! :D Strained the quads muscle though. =(

Family dinner at Chinatown where 5 of us had, stingray, claypot rice, yupianmeefen! , orhlua, char kway teow! And of course, sugar cane! :D

Really yummy dinner with awesome family time. =)

Wasted my day on Sunday though =( With the excuse of a strained and painful quad,

 I stayed home and spent half my day on the phone. But thank you Yanns, J, Ding anyhow. :D

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School has been so-so, the typical monotony of a tertiary student. You wake up, head for lessons, fall asleep, wake up confused, return tired. The familiar faces I see each day, the company I have, has been shrinking. With everyone (including me) self declaring the week, or day, e-learning and choose home/hall over school for revision. 

As I have repeatedly whined about, this sem is the most fucked up ever, and hence I'm only taking 3 cores. (Six next sem! Argh) With that, no excuse for not starting revision yet, and no excuse for mediocre grades, yes?

Was supposed to head home this week, but a casual phonecall came with a solution, yay. Called Mommy on Tuesday, thought it'd be better, since she wouldn't have to send me to school today bright and early! But anyhow,  she messaged me a little later:

"Just to let you know I'm baking strawberry cheesecake. Thought you coming home. Hee :)"

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"Come home lah. Actually I bake for you to take to school tomorrow I send you back."

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And I did, we baked it together though. I've lotsa pretty (maybe not) pictures of the before, during and after process. We did, cornflake cookies, strawberry cheesecake, strawberry peach cheesecake, pineapple tarts. Yumyumyum. =)

So I didn't study in the end, but who cares.

(Stupid bluetooth isn't working well so I only managed to upload one picture. )

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Just yesterday, a peer fell in the LT and was pretty badly injured. Then suddenly the entire row sitting infront of us disappeared. If I were to be the casualty, would the whole row have disappeared too? Or would self-interest, once again, come first.

Maybe One Day We'll Wake Up, And It'd All Just Be A Dream.

1 Corinthians 13: 7 - It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.



It's just a moment of change.

Complicated Lifestyles.

Phil is,

very hurt.

And she doesn't want to talk to you for now.

And and she hates you for putting her where she is now.

Like really, really.

"you're being selfish."

Fairytales I Could Never Be.

Fitness today as expected,

we ran til we slipped, nearly tripped, and feared.

No, not the fear of running itself, but falling on the so-damned-wet track.

Now I feel like my body is disjointed, 

each part with a life of its own.

Unfortunately, the only place I wish was aching isn't.

Maybe we didn't do the core strength station properly. =(

Phil needs to make long passes. 15m backward pass and no shorter.

Competitive + Competitive = Super competitive!

So last night, we had intraschool capts ball. Kinda stupid on one hand how we spent hours waiting to play. Zzzz. But anyhow we had a good time. Think the final match was the most exciting one too. =) Had to handle alot of The Sp's shit but ok la, it was funny.

And as quoted by him in a really joking manner: "Winning isn't everything. It's the only thing!"

We got a really huge hamper which made The Sp damn happy, we were so amused with his satisfaction with little things. Then we crashed a hall's event, supported our fellow team mate and presented her with the hamper. HAHAHA Classic.

Was so flustered rushing from room to room, making T bring a spoon around hall that we didn't have dinner. Walked out to eat but I was so tired I was sleepwalking. =(

Still sorry I missed your performance, but I hope the honey water helped. :]

PS: Lab is an online experiment today so no school on thursday! :D

PPS: I need to watch 4 online lectures. Dieeeeeeeeeeeee.

PPPS: Too much of odd shaped balls = cannot catch round balls properly. :(

Last night, I was so spoilt I insisted on going home even at 11:30pm.
I called my mom, then called a cab in, and left for home....



There's NO place like home.
I'm glad I went home even though I woke up to no lunch. =(

All Over Nothing

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

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This is super tragic. I went to bed with a headache and a nauseous tumtum so I skipped church and by the time I woke up, I already missed breakfast. =( And I love weekend morning breakfasts.

Alsooo, I searched all the supermarkets in my neighbourhood plus those in H. ave 8 and NY mart and I still can't find my gummies. Why why why. Do not doubt their existence cos I've eaten them more than once! We used to have a weekly affair but then Gr.eg buys Snakes only now. =(

Third calamity, the macs downstairs has removed all their powerpoints. What a slut. =(

Just In Case You Forget How It feels.

So I guess I spent my weekend playing touch afterall.
We played 3v2 in the middle of Or.chard road, right infront of OldC.hangKee with flip flops/sandals/inappropriate footwear under the hot afternoon sun!

But I guess it was kinda fun, throwing balls into a hole in the banner; challenging ourselves to not touch the banner, or throw with our eyes closed, and while moving the banners. We also went mini 7-11 shopping, booth hopping, blah blah blah. Too bad the two little ones left as I arrived. But W + S + A made it better, better. =)

And we now all know how we'd look like when we're sixty... Boooooo =(

PS: Caught 'Burn after reading' and it was soo, sooooo, soooooooo bad. >=(

Imperfection, Indifference.

When the bridge we built is burnt,
the words we use become weapons,
the heart we have hardens like a freezing ice,

what would you do?

Angin Mati Orang!!

I let you take the wheel
And the driver's seat
Strapped in
So you get the best of me
Now what's left are the memories

When you were mine
You know

We had it all in front of us
You were the one
I was in love
But you always hurt
The one you lost
I couldn't get enough

You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you

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I learnt a new phrase today. You've gotta translate it twice to get the real meaning. (: Heh.

Lab today was shorter than expected! Chong and Brudder were sharing about how tedious and long it took but it was pretty allright. The two lab technicians are DAMN cock. It was more like a havoc class...


Anyhow, we went down for training. Freaking weather had to be this bad when I wore my new boots. And they're white! =( They feel a little too big for me actually, but it wasn't when I tried it on.. Ahhh, now they say I look funny. =(

Suicides and agility stations for training, then refereeing, and a half with the Com.Studies Interschool team.
Guess it was just average..

But dinner on the other hand.. Dinner was way awesome. No more food left by the time we ended so we walked for Macs. :D Yeah, violating diet plans but it's the company right.
We sat there for almost 2 hours and left around 1115. Made lotsa noise, disrupted all the late night muggers studying plans. But seriously, we have the right to that noise pollution, it's a Canteen. Not a library. Can't describe the awesomeness of the night, but you know what's lethal? Wasabi fries + chilli sauce + Fish burger + Milo. It gets you high. Like really really high.

We should do it again sometime soon, my dears! Study dates to start like last sem please! :D

PS: No touch over the weekend! Woohooooo
PPS: We are accumulating lots and lotsa bad karma. Hahaha

It's your choice. Not mine.

A Disease.

B:
if there is ever a disease called waiting
just for ur info

careless hearts, hollow eyes. says:
hahahahaha

B:
b just died
haa

everything we had.

All I Wanted To Do Was Deliver Breakfast. Then Leave.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I Held On To Your Promise.

Quoted from Griz's blog,

"1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love is more than a feeling.

Why do people end their relationships? Have they been abusing the word "love" to each other for the entire course of their relationship? I believe they have not. Perhaps in certain cases, people change and so has the love for their partner. Perhaps in certain cases, some do not truly understand the meaning of love. Do not fault them. After all, life's just a journey of lessons. I personally have learnt what the bible says about love and I like it.

Relationships are a test, a test to see if the other party is the one you would want to spend the rest of your life with. Sometimes the test could fail. Sometimes you need to sit the test multiple times, but if you're lucky, you will pass on the first try. People might have failed the first test badly, but I personally feel that it would be a pity to not try again. Maybe it's risky to try because the person might change, but life's all about trying."

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What happens when the one who promises never to let you fall, is the one who pushes you down the bottomless pit?
Do you believe that the things happening to the ones dear to you have a large effect on you?

For example, people around you start studying, you'd feel motivated, or somewhat pressured to follow likewise.

When people talk to you about their insecurities with other issues, do you feel strongly related to the words they speak?

When they start questioning themselves, and the things around them, does it spur you to question the same things too?


I do not deny the heavy involvement in Touch has detached me from certain aspects of my life, especially the spiritual one. The weekends have been solely dedicated to my Full-time job, I haven't been able to see things outside my enclosed fish bowl.

Last Friday before CG, I screwed up. I said two things I shouldn't have and created a snowball effect, accumulating someone's fucked up emotions. I was let in on something few days later.
And subsequently, another piece of news.
They have affected me. They teach you to be more appreciative of what you already have, but from there, I see the similarities, I've drawn the comparisons.
And I waiver......

It's not that I'm insecure, it's not that I'm faithless.
I just (once again) don't know how to deal with it.

This whole sem is a fucking mess with a million issues unsettled on hand.
And I don't know where to start..
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If any consolation, I finally got my months overdued OMG-HAHA-bag with a weeks-overdued date with MRS. DARCY. Lotsa sinful indulgences but these are the little sacrifices you make in return for a bigger bunch of happiness.

I love F.red F.lare! :D

Don't worry about me.

A Joke A Day.

ت says (12:23 AM):
why were the little strawberries upset

careless hearts says (12:23 AM):
cos mama berry was eaten

ت says (12:24 AM):
no

careless hearts says (12:25 AM):
then

ت says (12:25 AM):
cos his parents were caught in a jam!

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Heh, jokes sharing makes the two emo kids feel better. Really.
Even though I'm hearing some for the millionth time, it still cracks me up.

Oh Man, What Am I Doing?

I failed my 40 fucking percent test.
And out of 151 students,
I'm the 20th.
From the fucking bottom.


AND I DROPPED MY PHONE AGAIN DURING ELECT!!
FOR THE FREAKING THIRD TIMEEE! URGH!

Between The Ink And The Paper,

We celebrated the end of Midterms with Kui.shinbo Buffetttt! :D
Actually, I was the only one with the midterms... =(
Ate til I could literally P-O-P!

And no N.tl on Friday, hence Cell!
We started on the book of Esther; learning about Respect and King Xerxes and Queen Vashti. Heehee. It was good to see (almost) the whole Stingray again :D

Make-up Mac breakf on Saturday for the one we missed on Wed.
A lousy, lousy day at turf, and an emo talk with Ekay on the way back.

Training on Sunday was fitness! =( Wasn't too bad for a first training though, but I wish we had more playing time. Though I was already 65% sian.


And a good way to tip the heavily mind-exhausting week, is a mindless weekend with lotsa sleep and relaxing and eating. =) Haha. Plus, a new phone Brudder calls Kueh Lapis!


PS: Another week off from school training. Shiokk. :D
PPS: I woke up with ants in my bread this morning... =(((

+

I dyed my hair,

but I don't see a difference AT ALL.

:(

PS: I just changed my cranky 910i walkman phone to a cyber shot one. And I also JUST fucking dropped it at my doorstep. @)$*@#%^*!)$!

PeeaSseLE Tomorrow!

These are the things my friends will say:

- "Why must hide around the bush?"


--"She's Brunette."
--"Oh, her name's Brunette?"
(Ok, I don't know how to spell that word)



--"Are your hands sour?"
--"I don't know leh, I never really tasted them." [This is a classic !]


And this is one thing another friend did today:

-Withdraw 1000 from the N.ie A.tm machine. HAHAHAHHA. I couldn't stop laughing for a whole 10 minutes as he sat there counting the notes to see if it was correct.


PS: NOOOOO N.tl TOMORROWW!!!!!
PPS: Gotta play on Sat though. Secretly lazy, but quite excited to play that team. =D
PPPS: Training bright and early on Sunday Morning....
PPPPS: I DON'T WANT TO MISS I.VEE.PEEE PLEASEEEEEE!!

I Need Your Loving Hands.

Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Children's Day.

I spent the day watching two episodes of G.ossipgirl and two episodes of Heroes,
and attempting to beat friends on Word Challenge.
Oh, and reaching Macs at 10:50 to see that their breakf menu has changed to the lunch one. =(

Welcome back to reality and Hall of Torture.
I pray for tomorrow to be a really great day. Please.