Ninety Five.

With every step back I take,
it takes me a larger step forward, unknowingly.

I pull myself away yet I've found myself drawn closer.
Like creepers on a tree;
inevitably intertwined, mutually dependent.

And this scares me.
The entanglement, the dependence.
Because I'm not supposed to.

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Another piece of good news today.
I am really honoured.

Smelly black tofu.

First day back at school after ...... almost a month.

Feels reallyreally funny and awkward, still disorientated, I told G I felt like a Freshie in a complete foreign land.

Give Me One More CNY Holidayyyy

SO FUCKING TIRED,

and still disorientated,

if any consolation, I STILL HAVE FRIENDS!!!!

Simply because everybody was helping me find an access card (and unfortunately, bugged the same person).

Ok, really awesome and loved(:

Still feel like shit though. BOO SCHOOL.

An Angsty 1000th Post.

Fucking found another 100 reasons to fucking hate schooooooooooooooool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will You Still Love Me In The Morning?

This New Year,

I remember waking early to grab two McD. breakfast sets, and cabbing down for a surprise.

It wasn't long ago, we played monopoly and ate pizza til late. Then had more food; like prata and popped by Jul's where I was greeted with a shot of Baileys.

Last Chinese New Year,

It was reunion as usual, and supposedly, a Zouktrip to "shou ye" but I can't remember what held me back.

But that was what led to an impromptu supper, driving from place to place across Singapore because every other eatery was closed.

This Chinese New Year, I wonder how it'd be.

Not like I'm a big fan of the angbaos (but undoubtedly the pineapple tarts. Hah!) and the visiting.

"If got time, shall we supper again?"

Time is not the issue here, if you haven't already realised.

And well, to shake off the extra kilos I know I'll gain, I went for a run today(:

From my place down to S'. I don't know how far that is, but it was a good run (after so long).

Don't Care Where It Ends, It Doesn't Matter Now.

Woke earlyearly again this morning despite sleeping at 3. :(

I don't really have much to do without my notes nor updated online lectures.

Seriously dread going back to school but I should just STOP whinging already.

The first day after landing back in Sg was pretty awesome too(:

It made homecoming easier to accept, hah!

Met l.shit for our typical lunch-at-Central catchups, and we grocery shopped for Mom and he witnessed my ugliest hair yet. :(

Well, I wanted to trim it cos it was getting messy.. but it just got out of control.

And the hairdresser snipped my fringe, like :O .

And she kept trying to salvage it which got worse, and my face just got blacker with every snip. :@ Boohoo

Accompanied D* to cny-shop, but I think I shopped more. Knowing I might give in to temptations, I made a list of things I can buy, which were: Tights and Shoes.

And I got both. :$ But well ok, at least I didn't get more than what I need so it's good right? (:

And we soup spoon-ed! Yay, ok favourite + it's healthy (low carb) and it does not taste like puke Art.hurlim! :(

But the ultimate purpose of D getting her cny clothes was also achieved, so yay, it was a very fulfilling meeting.

PS: I found my new psyche up song!

PPS: My house smells like pineapple cookies, yum! This is the reason to love cny! 

The Beginning and The End.

No updated online lectures = cannot catch up on work.

Hence I went shopping = spend another 80$ excluding my hair cut.

Of which was so bad, I wanted to burn the hairdresser. 

WHICH led to me in a cap today hiding my hideous hair (wah alliteration!)

And my heels hurt from too much walking in slippers so no more slippers. (:

I seriously need a sugar daddy (heehee) and a normal functioning brain cos it is currently disjointed and disorientated.

COME ON, GOOD KARMA

y*:
sure got a lot of gossip right?

y*:

excited excited
haha

p*:
yeah man
must accumulate good karma first

y*:
lol
ok, tml i'll help u put 5 cents into the macdonalds donation box
LOL

p*:
HAHAHAHAHAHA OK

City Of Sails.

Well, I had to write a summary of the trip for Wan.toks,

so I shall just cnp the email here, as my blog post. Hahah.

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Hi Wan.toks! The Baby-toks are back from NZ! (:
It's a really beautiful place, the people are soo friendly and welcoming, and all of us enjoyed our stay there!

Sooo, we were gone for 10 days, of which we spent 2 travelling,
and played some pretty awesome touch almost every day we were in NZ!
The first 4 days were the Y.outh World Ch.allenge where we met with teams from NZ, Australia and South Africa.
We played both U20s and U18s, and lost pretty miserably, BUT we all felt the trip was still enriching, cos we learnt something from every team.
Each team we played with was very impressive, especially the Aussie teams, who were disciplined and structured, yet knew when to break away from it to play what's in front of them. We also met with an Australian coach, Carly, who gave us feedback on our game, and taught us new dirty tricks (heh heh).

For the Women's U20s team, our closest match was with South Africa's U18s (9-6), where we really stepped up our game. We started executing our moves properly, dummy-scooping, and playing their weakness to our advantage.

We also watched more impressive touch, between Australia and NZ, where we wow-ed and gasp-ed at their perfect long passes and diving techniques. Some games involved fights (like an NZ girl wanting to punch an Aussie guy), most games involved tension, and one Mens game was especially exciting when NZ played with only 5 men for almost the entire game (yet they had a rather good strong defence).
Why? Because, during an interception by an Aussie guy, an NZ guy ran to the sub box so that another sub could run out from the other end of the box, gaining 20m advantage, and catching up with the Aussie guy.
The ref gave the penalty touchdown, sent the NZ guy off, hence they played with only 5 for the rest of the game.


After the 4-day tournament, we moved on to play their clubs, who were also really good. Then we discovered their secret, which was to start playing young. Some of them start from as early as 8 years old, and some of the girls we played at the club side were only 12 (and already good at the game!)

We also ice dip every night in the already freezing wind, and wear our skins after every game (thanks Wantoks for the skins, again! We all love it and needed it). We carbo load everyday (potatoes, bread, pasta, :s) and don't sleep enough (sleep about 11 something, wake up at 6).
We've also had lotsa injuries (sprained thumb, pulled hamstring, injured knee/shoulder/ankle) but were very well taken care of by the physios upstairs.

We also shopped til we dropped, where some ran like they never did before to an Adidas store about 200m away to get a visor for $10,
some bungy-ed (like Anne who refused to return to SG to say she chicken-ed out so she jumped anyway),
and all of us made friends with the people there.

But overall, in this trip, we definitely bonded, learnt something new about each other and about the sport. And in my opinion, the most important thing we took back from this trip is, that in this game of Touch, trusting the person next to you on the field, and having confidence with the person on the other end beats any fancy moves, or individual flair.


Ok, really long email. But NZ WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! (:

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And stuff to add on my own,

On the first day of the Tourney, I hurt my thumb again, went for physio then x-ray, cos it was suspected fracture (and I was so scared :( )

But the results came the next day and no fracture, so thankGod ((:

Subsequently, every game I play, my right hand is severely taped like a cast. Quite funny(: but it felt more secure.

And and and, the skies in Auck.land are soooo beautiful. They are filled with stars like those you see in the movies and never think exist. (: It is an absolutely beautiful sight(:

And I Missed You.

Now that I'm home, I reallyreallyreally don't feel like travelling all the way back to B.oonlay and waking up early to attend lessons, nor cleaning up my room which has been left vacant for almost two weeks, and start training again.

My only regret of the trip is:

-- not diving (I don't think I really had to at any pt anyway) and leaving Auckland scars on myself,

-- not taking a picture with everybody (especially the Mixed),

-- (maybe) not taking enough pictures,

-- no money no time (no love) quoteunquote Al.

Now, all I want to do is, shop shop shop (in NZ) and eat (but less potatoes) and hang around my friends (without the studying or paying attention in class factor).

Lotsa catching up to do! Both with work, and friends.

Eggcited But Scared.

OMG MY THUMB/PALM IS FUCKING GROSS.

It looks like a chicken drumstick/pregnant fish/pigeon leg.

Yeah you get the idea. Gross shit.

And I was forced to train in slippers and a swollen thumb yesterday.

@$)(%^*$%^&^%&*^&

But S's birthday surprise went pretty ohhhkayy considering the few hiccups,

and we couldn't prawn cos it was damn crowded :( But nvm, next time.

Here I am now, sipping Peach Red Tea with Pearls AND Jelly so I get quite a mouthful each 'sip', with less than 24 hours to go. :( Back to packing, then I guess? SULKS

PS: My jersey is too big for me but I got my 11 so who cares :D

NO MERCY

IVP CHAMPS, BABY! 

(and a sprained thumb, again. GRRR)

ARTICLE LINKS:

US & Spee

FINALS

Finals

KILL GAS AH

I Am Not A Fucking Mind Reader.

People always say, how things change overnight.
But you know what- you don't need nights, not even hours.
You just need seconds; split seconds.

It is that split second you make the decision,
be it to pass that ball to score a touchdown,
or a split second too slow to catch the ball when it is thrown.
And of course, the split second decision to hit the send/call button.

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Anyhoo, been pretty preoccupied with everything apart from school.
Except Today, I had to run a Vertical Marathon going up and down from door to door looking for relevant Profs / Person-in-Charge to get my EXTREMELY last minute leave application from school approved.


Skipped school yesterday to do some shopping, and catch up with Yanns, my dearest. (:
We were stopped couple of times along Orchard, and the funniest was when we were approached by some Ok.to Tv Crew. So yeah, we're gonna appear on Ok.to (I really hope we don't actually, cos we were severely underdressed).


Next. IVPee, which feels like it just started yet it is ending tomorrow already.
With an unexpected twist of fate, we are playing Rpee again.
Feeling super egggcited(:

And off to NZ 12-22 January. :(

Too Fast, Too Furious.

So much much much has been happening,

I find myself unable to sit down and organise my thoughts, my events, my Things-to-Do.

All of such are scribbled over scraps of paper, slipped into my (purple, omg) organiser.

Now everytime, I've a vague memory of something I'm supposed to be doing, I've to look through a mess of illegible handwriting to remember.

Argh.

MY SKINS HAVE A FUCKING HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='(

HELLO THIRTEEN.

Never thought it'd be this fucking hard,

and awkward, but we all must get use to changes anyway right?

I am way past my bedtime for my first lesson of the first day of school tomorrow : 830am.

ZZZZ

But before I head to bed, [[LINK]]

S'pore in touch foot.ball tourney

Sat, Jan 03, 2009 The Str.aits Times

By Jon.athan Wong TOUCH Foot.ball Sing.apore (TFS) will be sending two teams for the first  time to compete in the Youth Trans Tasman Tou.ch Series  in New Zealand. It will be held at the Trusts Stadium, Wai.takere, Auckland,  from Jan 14 to 17. Originally planned as the 2009 Youth Wo.rld Cup,  the tournament was cancelled by organisers  because of financial difficulties.  It was eventually reinstated under a new name.

It Waits For No One.

I knew time flies,

and I knew it would all happen fast.

But I didn't know "fast" meant quicker than the speed of light.

School is starting tomorrow, and I still feel like it's Mid-dec.

As much as training five, six times a week drains every single bit of me,

and I whine about it quite a bit, I really (definitely) prefer trainings to school.

First week of school, last week of IVP.

And then I'm whizzed to NZ. Before I can even realise it.

Feels really surreal.

:( And I'm shifting back to 13 tonight,

without an access card. How brilliant.

Gawd, it's all happening to fast.