You Took My Heart, Now Take My Soul.

Change is the only constant.

Some people embrace it, some people dwell on it,

some people are oblivious to it.

Which are you?

A Fleeting Moment

When we collide we lose ourselves.

When we collide we break in two,

And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,

It's a hard mistake.

When we collide,

When we collide.

Have you ever wanted something so much and refused to let it go though you know you had to?

Like the blankie you grew up with, or a so-tattered-beyong-hope teddy your daddy gave you on your 5th birthday?

State of Transience.

Today I learnt that when you're craving for chocolates, grab a Peanut Butter+Banana smoothie instead.

When you're craving for fries, grab some pretzels and drink more water.

When you're craving for cookies, grab a mini pizza.

Unfortunately, 2/3 of the above listed to me, are irreplaceable.

And the only 1/3 left was what I craved for last night.

Like life, there is always the next best substitute.

But are you willing to compromise its satisfaction for something else?

I am willing to compromise the fats/sugar guilt on my chocolate for its satisfaction and sugar high. So to me, chocolates are irreplaceable. There are those who dig it, those who ditch it.

PS: Back online after a (unintentional) hiatus of 5, 6 days!

PPS: Back in school and training's cancelled for the WEEK! =(

Find Your Feet.

Last night,

He lifted my face and brushed his fingers across my cheeks, 

that look in his eyes; so strong yet soft, so strangely familiar,

like I've seen before.

"Don't ever lose heart", he said.

And I believed. Again.

twentyfours.

Three sunflowers.

Just Pull The Trigger Already.

need (nēd) Pronunciation Key
n.
A condition or situation in which something is required or wanted: crops in need of water; a need for affection.
Something required or wanted; a requisite: "Those of us who led the charge for these women's issues ... shared a common vision in the needs of women" (Olympia Snowe).
Necessity; obligation: There is no need for you to go.
A condition of poverty or misfortune: The family is in dire need.

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No longer will an ice cream cone or a lollipop place that same smile on your face.

No longer will receiving that toy you've always wanted light up your face the same way.

As you grow with age, your needs multiply, 

they are no longer simple.

They now come with expectations, with hope, with a price. 

And satisfying this growing thirst gets harder and harder.

What is it exactly you need, you want?

I Stole A Sticker

And now I'm Ultraman's Sidekick! :D

=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Slowly, Unsurely.

Today, I felt the ropes which support, strangle me.

I felt suffocated, felt choked.

I struggled to release myself.

I slashed it hard, harder than I ever could,

but it wasn't hard enough.

I dangled by the very bit left,

and was left gasping for air before I couldn't breathe,

thinking, "When will the time finally come?"

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And then, I blacked out.

Once In A While

I woke up creaking, feeling almost three times my actual age.

Like brittle bones in my body ready to break anytime.

It kinda hurts but it felt good (Ok, so I'm sadistic)

Training yesterday was The F Letter word: FFFFFUUU...N!

And as I guessed, my passes were all over the place. Hah.

Very tiring playing 7minutes of B.eachT.ouch with only 3 players.

Then we had to do 10m suicides x10 times per set of which the last set included diving components.

There wasn't any food left after that so we left for Pow.er Nasi Lemak. Last time, there were 5, or was it 6 of us. Last night, there was only 3. :( I miss everyone.

And now my back reallyreallyreallyreally hurts. :(

But I like Thursdays (when there's no Materials Tut) cos I can just sleep in. (:

PS: Yesterday an odd looking huge, long bug flew into my room and danced around the floor and freaked me out superdups bad. =(

Mirror On The Wall, Who's The Blackestpot of Them All?

I only wish I was a mirror so that what you've said can be a reminder to yourself.

Hit That Grass Patch

I can't wait for training later,

it's been a while since we played together as a team.

And it has been a while since I played non-pressured touch.

Then again, it has been a while since I touched that oddshape ball so bless me with good hands and good passes! Haha (:

OOPS :D

My Favourite Hello.

A Saturday ago, we had the first trials for the Summer Season.

Then rushed down to the Zoo where it was flooded with lotsa people.

Made our way through the 6.2km half jogging, half walking. We took lotsa silly pictures, made silly faces (and noises) and said silly things.

Lightbulb(ed) over dinner then headed down for the Surprise Farewell Party for Liangshit. (Whom we said our bittersweet goodbyes to on Tuesday) They gave themselves away quite a few times yet the silly boy didn't know anything at all. (:

Caught up with ex friends, ex lovers, and still-friends. And got a lift home. 

*****

This Saturday, it was peaceful and quiet. No more drama, no more trauma.

Simple yet supreme(: 

We had our typical weekend morning breakfast, then headed to Turf for our opening game. Which was unfortunately against our own Senior Team. We lost miserably, 11-2. Needless to say. =(

Headed to R.afflescity to get Helium Balloons :D Very very pretty(:

And waited close to 30mins for a stupid bus and watched rugby.

Coincidentally, his number was 11 that game(:

Chompchomp for dinner :D and Ben.jaminButton which I think is overrated. (:

Anyway, call me sadistic but I think I secretly like Surprises-gone-wrong.

Not that it is any funny how something you've planned goes haywire,

just that it leaves a stronger impression and lingers around your memory longer.

Just like the semianonymous flowers. (: Haha. Thank you. (:

Kings Of Leon = The Sex. Seriously.

I've been roaming around

Always looking down at all I see

Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak

Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody

You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep

Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat

I hope it's gonna make you notice

I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody

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"The iliotibial tract or iliotibial band (or Maissiat's band) is a longitudinal fibrous reinforcement of the Fascia lata. It is attached to the midpoint of the external lip of the Iliac crest and to the lateral condyle of the tibia. 

The part of the iliotibial band which lies beneath the Tensor fasciæ latæ is prolonged upward to join the lateral part of the capsule of the hip-joint.
The Gluteus maximus muscle and the Tensor fasciae latae insert upon the tract.
[edit]Clinical significance

Iliotibial Band Syndrome (ITBS or ITBFS, for Iliotibial Band Friction Syndrome) is a common thigh injury generally associated with running. Additionally it can also be caused by biking, hiking or weight-lifting (especially squats).

ITBS is one of the leading causes of lateral knee pain in runners. The iliotibial tract is a superficial thickening of tissue on the outside of the thigh, extending from the outside of the pelvis, over the hip and knee, and inserting just below the knee. The band is crucial to stabilizing the knee during running, moving from behind the femur to the front while walking. The continual rubbing of the band over the lateral femoral epicondyle, combined with the repeated flexion and extension of the knee during running may cause the area to become inflamed.

ITBS symptoms range from a stinging sensation just above the knee joint (on the outside of the knee or along the entire length of the iliotibial band) to swelling or thickening of the tissue at the point where the band moves over the femur. The pain may not occur immediately during activity, but may intensify over time, especially as the foot strikes the ground. Pain might persist after activity. Pain may also be present below the knee, where the ITB actually attaches to the tibia."

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It's You and Me Against The Rest of The World.

" you turned to me and said,

"i'll be going through withdrawal of you 

for this one night we have spent."

and, i want to speak these words

but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,

and accept "someday, somehow"

as the words that we'll hang from. "

Because They just won't understand it.

"Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole."

When You Lose Something You Cannot Replace.

3 words, 8 letters.

I had meant it to be something else another person should be saying to me.

But today I realised, it probably serves as a reminder to myself,

that I should be saying, "I am sorry." to you.

For the awkward silences, unexpected hostility,

unintended twist of attitudes.

We I should handle it maturely. :]

The Best Of Both Worlds, Never.

We never learn, despite history.

Adam and Eve: It was a forbidden fruit but they took it anyhow.

Why is it we always do things we were told not to?

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Anyway with all the flowers and heart-shaped balloons around school lately,

I just wanted to say.

I hate the commercialised idea of Vday.

Why are we stupid enough to allow florists and eateries to rip the shit out of us?

But then again, it's really sweet and heartwarming how the people around me are busy planning (and panicking) to make sure the day turns out perfect for them and their beloved. (:

Sooo, happy vday anyway!

There's a list of people I want to dedicate shoutouts to, but nvm. Haha

Pictures Cos Too Lazy To Blog

Am I supposed to be happy?

All I ever wanted, comes with a price.

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Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town,

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

Could Haves.

Like a drug,

You know it's bad for you, yet you keep craving for more.

You know it's dire consequences, yet it's attraction is greater than before.

Like morphine,

you become numb,

you become addicted,

you become dependent.

And then you lose yourself,

as if you never saw it coming.

It Hurts, But It May Be The Only Way.

Have you ever had a song that will make you tear no matter when, no matter why?

Doesn't matter what you've gone through, when the song plays, it just activates your tear glands?

I do.

And in just 3 days over this week, I've seen Love from different perspectives, defined by different individuals. I always thought Love was the same to everyone, the same warmfuzzy feeling, the same way it makes everyone's heart skip a beat, the same things we say, the same things we do.

But no, that's not how it works.

And last night, at M. We lost ourselves. It was insane and we had more people toppling than standing. We toasted to good times, to the uncertain future. While I requested to be convinced. We relived moments we missed, tasted times we almost had but never did.

It was dark, it was wet. It was a mess, everything was spinning, but there was one thing I was so sure about....

Yet you made me doubt myself this morning.

And He Said,

"I wouldn't say you made the wrong choice. But there are just better choices."

Wonder, _ _ _ .

Tonight was spent planning for FOC, followed by a carbo-loaded dinner at Broadway (Puri! (: ) with the Bestest Bud in Hall, my Favourite (exex) Hall Queen and Favourite An.ouka senior,

then a trip down to Jpee to grocery shop with the Bestest Bud.

Plus, my starbucks fix(: Headed back to watch Hockey finals, and history repeat.

Penalty flicks are cursed, and my heart bleeds for you.

I am still sorry there is nothing else I can do, but I am here for you. :( :( :(

On the way back to 1301, I found myself stopping by 1305, where 3 of us become 4, then 6 and lightened up a broken soul. (:

The (ex)roomie, who is still deeply loved, popped by after and it was 1am after I showered.

Late, and 830am class tomorrow. Long night following that.

IAMFINALLYSIGNEDIN.

IVPee 08/09.

It was definitely awesome, with a few bad games here and there. I never really got to embrace the victory when it happened. I had to force myself to get over it to prepare for NZ.

Saturday, after Wan.toks, we gathered at the Mighty Capt's place to review our videos. And it was there, we relived the moment. Though we already knew the results, my heart still palpitated every time Rpee scored, everytime a (clear) touchdown was denied. I am still semi in shock how touchdowns were overuled as a dropball, or even a forward pass.

More importantly, I was AMAZED (and amused) with the noise in the background. All that negative talk. All the jeering everything we broke through, all the cheering everytime we fumbled. But as she said, "Everybody hates Winners." and the Trophy's still ours.

Back to school for now. Apart from all the catching up, sleeping in class, and copying, we still have our classic conversations:

Yesterday,

"Do you think they will last?"

"L-U-S-T, lust?"

"No, I'm not W****, I do not have problems with my grammer."

"No, I think you haven't completed your sentence. You mean 'Do you think they will lUst... for each other?' "

"Hahahahaha. Since when did you become so smart."

Oh yes, and my boyf gave me permission to cheat on him for 2 weeks with a girl. HAHA.