Spinning Drama.

Road rice & I in a spankin' new white Beetle(:

Took two medals home on Saturday from W.antoks awards night and it has to be the First time I'm ever taking something back in 3 years =)

Coach caught me just before I left and said some really touching words of encouragement that left me close to tears.

+ the long anticipated milkshake from OE with two of my favourit teammies in the club made my Saturday really lovely despite running low on the S. (sleep)

Hectic weekend at V.olkswagen and I'm back to being jobless again =)

Oh life is good when all I need to do is meet up with pals and train.

Only until I break it down into the nittygritty that my head throbs and my eyebrows meet to form a frown.

Life is not that good when you have to worry about 12 other people, and plan ahead into the future.

Consider: Semester 1 vs Semester 2, External Fyp, Hall rooming issues, Tournaments, Goals, Dynamics, Priorities, Choices, etc.

Mommy's finally back, together with my lovely grandparents from Penang so I'm currently kicked outta my bedroom. Am crashing with the brother tonight! Should I sleep on the floor? Or should I just make him sleep on the floor since he's the guy anyway.

HAHA

And Happy Birthday, Daddy! We hope you like the wallet and ohsoyummy dinner!

We never had to request for a 10-people table but it was soooo fun :D

Innocence.

The nephew and his Auntie.

Aww, so much love!

The Future Freaks Me Out.

It suddenly dawned on me that this could be the future.

A glimpse of what things could be like; when Sis is married and Mommy gone (touch wood please).

It's just been two days (?) without my mom and things are already different, people already feeling empty. It's scary how Daddy seems so crippled without Mommy. He seems lifeless, hence he tries to keep himself busy. It isn't that he didn't trust me with the responsibility of bringing The Brother to dental, I (only just) figured that he didn't want to head back to an empty home, and be alone. So he insisted on sending us there and accompanying us through dental.

And then being the insensitive, too-busy-for-anything-else daughter, I didn't have dinner with Daddy. We bought food back though, but maybe he missed the company of Mommy, faithfully at the dining table every night, so he gave sitting there alone a miss and skipped dinner altogether.

At 8:48pm, he told me he was tired and headed straight to bed. The food still in its container, still in the plastic bag, still on the table.

Then I continued spending ME time- doing my nails (sorry, sounds so bimbo), clearing my emails, that I forgot about the clothes in the wash so he came to tell me they are done. I nodded and said "later" and only remembered while eating my grass jelly longan, over Bolt on Disney Channel. There was sooo much clothes to wash that I had to separate them into two bundles. And while hanging them did it occur to me that maybe Daddy doesn't have clothes to wear to work anymore. But even if I wanted to iron them NOW, I can't cos he is asleep. So how?

Even joining Trojan at prawning later seems kinda wrong right now.

:(

loss.

"Everyone of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library."

-Haruki murakami

What a Weekend.

Quick one before I go.

Double champs over S.TL Finals and TouchAttack 2010 a success!

Thank you my wonderful NTUteammies and Clubpals and participants of TouchAttack.

I'm sunburnt and exhausted but I'm really thankful and glad =)