Is that Okay with You?

I've been avoiding this particular page the entire afternoon,
been attempting to understand the damned Weierstrauss substitution,
which leaves me trailing behind by 3 big leaps.
And I'm growing frustrated,
I promised myself to finish something before the big match later.
GO MAN UTD!

Today I woke up to Mc Breakfast,
but I ditched it for peanut butter cookies + chocolate milk (simplicity is bliss)
and lunch was donuts, muruku, almondjelly longans, more chocolate milk!
And guess what else lies in the freezer, awaiting me to devour it!
BEN&JERRY'S. =D


Yesterday:
I could illustrate a classic case of sacrifice and power of love to you,
zizi travelled into school for a short lunch with me. Unbelievable how close the two schools are situated yet take almost an hour and forty five mins to travel from one to another.
Thank you ziziii. Love* (:

Training yesterday was not that good again.
I've come to a conclusion that my Fridays are indeed, Freaky Fridays, where I run extremely low on the luck and ball sense.
Can never toss proper balls nor catch proper passes. Not forgetting my shuijiao was churning in my tummy! =(

We had team dinner last night, a last min change of venue to Pizza Hut over Fish & Co,
and we only ate around 930. Played "I never", which brings back 78 & Trojan campfire night memories. I only reached home past twelve, and I fell asleep watching teeveee! Heh.


Thurs; we're done with French! (More or less). Gave myself a 3 and a half hour dinner treat, where we went from Canteen to Canteen, and eventually out of school.
We nearly covered the entire perimeter of school by foot (no, we weren't jogging)
and by the time I reached back, I wasn't surprised I was hungry again. Haha.

Wed! My tragic day, I rushed from training to meeting (which lasted 3 half hours in a freezing conf room) without dinner,
and my phone died while I was trying to contact Sc.
I had dinner anyhow, at the usual supper place near City Harvest, while Roomie was busy Trick or Treating around the Block.




I need to do something about my hair before my coach kills me. =((

Exam Schedule =(

Just so I won't forget,

14-NOV-2007 0900-1130 FE1006 HALL A-Foyer, B1, Nanyang Auditorium 100

16-NOV-2007 0900-1100 MS1001 HALL L-Lobby, School of Biological Sciences 245

20-NOV-2007 1300-1500 BS1004 HALL A-Foyer, B1, Nanyang Auditorium 104

21-NOV-2007 1700-1930 HMF1 HALL B-Exhibition Hall, Level 3, Nanyang Auditorium 755

22-NOV-2007 1300-1530 FE1005 HALL C-Block N2, B2c-12, North Spine 121

HOROSCOPE.

Cancer: You've recently been introduced to someone with a very unique personality, and you're intrigued. This person will play an important role in your future.






HMMM.

Always A Part, Never Apart.

Today, I proved myself a complete idiot;

one whom totally wastes my life (attempting) to study yet achieving minimal results.

I have yet to see 2 digits so small yet so powerful they could crush my Monday like an elephant on an ant.

That apart, Mo(a)ndays are no longer long days!

And I'm beginning to like it; how a temporary escape from school ends it/ starts my Tuesday.

We had dinner at Jurong Point last night, and our weekly Monday suppers at Gombak.

(Oh yes, and on the way out, we helped a poor guy push his stalled car cos he crashed into a lamp post =\ )

And everytime I leave, I'm so comfortable, I don't want to return. But don't we know all good things are shortlived.

Sunday morning: I replaced D's role as Postman and surprised her with donuts instead(: Munchy's are the best.

Sunday night: I returned and became Santa Claus, running up and down the same flight of stairs repeatedly.

Sunday night: I returned to keep a promise made a loong time ago.

Sunday night: We did laundry but it stormed so now we've to rewash.

JEW's new album is therapy. (:

How the hell did We wind up like this?

They say love is a circle- it never ends.
But I'll tell you one thing,
that a circle only brings you back to where you started from: Nothing.

Dental yesterday! My teeth still aren't straight =(
And I hate my braces colour, they are grey.

And touch yesterday was, disappointing.
Imagine playing like S-H-I-T the training just after Coach finally said, "played well today."


I've been (excessively) binging on chocolates lately,
must either be a sign that I'm upset,
which I'm trying (too) hard to ignore,
or I'm stressed.
I think's both.

Phil needs to Study, Study, STUDY.


Ps: Horoscope says, "A silly little tiff has the potential to turn into a full-blown argument. Take a second to consider the other person's perspective instead of blowing up"

A apple TEHPENG a day, keeps the Doctor away!

There's a reason why you could be my unintended,

(but you aren't.)

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true

***

Before training,

Eli: "Are you sure you want to leave the room with your fugly clipped up hair?"

After training,

Coach: ".... but you could have played better if you clipped your hair up."

(Though I already did, with 2 too!)

Training today was, satisfying and fulfilling.

Having a car makes you complacent, really.
I was too lazy to walk back from Can 2 today, I gave Sc a ring to pick me up.
So "buay pai seh."

To drive again is SHIOK.
To drive a Merc is.. triply shiok!

To do: Update the "List of stupid things we've done"!

It'd be the Last, Only if You say so. But I guess You've already done so.

Last week @ Invest,

Thirteen's seventh jcrc.

Can't believe the exams are so near.

The Oath and The Promise.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

"The F word"

28 hours later, and I'm back in hall.

"1, 2, 3, everybody say the 'F' word."
"Come on, hands together."
"1, 2, 3, F...... UUUUUNNNNNNNNN!"




Touch today was Fun. It was good, it was satisfying.

No champion cup for you to drink from, but champion hearts for you to (not) mess with.

Ps: I played Link today! Doing splits made me miss you a WHOLE lot, MY GIRL. No other partner beats you. We are the Best.

Wake Up Call.

Believe it or not,
I scalded my tongue from my heated-up donut.

HAHAHAHA.

Ps: I wasted my calories on stupid un-salad you tiaos last night. 6$ was a total rip offff. >=(


So apart from the supper every night (well, I guess it kinda also means I've been sleeping damn late every night), I've been sooo extremely caught up with school. But no, it's the non academic stuff. I need to find my discipline to really sit down and study.

Basically, life is, 4 days of school, til evening. Then dinner, then meetings, meetings, meetings.
Wed & Fris are training nights, and sometimes there are even meetings after trainings that stretch til the wee hours of the morning. Amazing right?

Then, there's God I must thank for Shaochun, who covers me during Joint Sports meetings. And I must give thanks for Touch too, cos we're more englishy than Cheena. Omg, I will so freaking die if touch was a cheena cca. *pats roomie on the back.
But anyhow, about Touch.....

Spots for IVP left vacant for Freshies: 3
No of Freshies: 29347820472
No. of Experienced Freshies: >6
Position Coach is looking for : Wingers
Position Phil plays in JC: Winger
Position Coach makes Phil play now: CENTER.
Current standing Phil is in: Ambiguous


Now you know why I say tomorrow's important.
And to be very honest, I'm rather freaked cos we've (as in the 10 playing) NEVER trained together as a team, and we have very conflicting styles.


Okay, and then apart from Touch,
I NEED TO STUDY.
Can't seem to understand and apply what I learn in tutorials.
Don't ASK.
Phil is stupid, really.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I hate how this feels.

Too much has been happening TOO quickly that I'm too slow with words, really.

"Let's get obese together so we can never ever fall through the gap between our beds!"

I have been suppering every night since Monday.


Fats, oh no, Fats.
What happened to the promise I made to myself? =(((


I didn't quite enjoy training today.
It was weird having the coach of a friend around, and playing with her.
Especially with conflicting styles and disapproving ideas.
So now, we have two coaches?
Don't really like the sound of that.

Last Night.

love, love.

ROOMIE LOVE IS GOOD.











I HAD DONUTS FOR SUPPER.

Time After Time

My current feel good song, though I know it's an oldie.

Lying in bed I hear the clock tick and I think of you
Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new
Flashbacks warm nights almost left behind
Suitcase and memories time after

Sometimes you picture me im walking too far ahead
You're calling to me I can't hear what you say


And you say go slow, I fall behind
Second hand unwind
If youre lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall i will catch you ill be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has turned to gray
Watching through windows you're wondering if I'm ok
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

Time after time

Little Miss Karma

Geri says, "You bring out the best in me!"

I say, "I bring out the be(A)st in you!"

Theme song for yesterday: Best in Me- Blue
Theme song for today: What goes Around, Comes Around - J.T.

I hope you've laughed enough, GDINEPANGCHEAPCHEAP. =D

(eh, squat in hall 13 to play badminton for us lehhhhhhhh)

Listen to Your Heart,

This just freaking made my day,

What we have in stall for us:-(The-other-Uni) Touch carnival 21 Oct, sunday
the school has given us the greenlight to participate.

i have selected 10 names taking attendance,committment& ability into account.
The following will be playing:
1-Eileen Khoo
2-Qiaoying
3-Phylicia Lim
4-Tong Mun Ling
5-Angela Yong
6-Tan Sijei
7-Han Na Park
8-Jeanette Lee
9-Nurliyanah Ali
10-Carmen Electra

Okay, please ignore fact that Coach can't spell my name.



Another effing busy week ahead with endless meetings,
but TOUCH IS THERAPY! For now, HAMSTRING PLEASE RECOVER.

Maybe, I shall engage in witchcraft for speedy recovery.


Ps: Please remind me to study, thanks.

I need to Think Twice, Thrice, Frice (Fries?)

HELP.






I swear I'm dying.


Ps: Currently, Phil has an overloaded brain, a coming week full of meetings every night, a strained hamstring, a growing tummy.
Okay, bye. More HOC stuff.

+

She needs her own space
she's playing mind games
ends up at my place
saying that she's changed
(Jenny, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

'Non merci, je suis inutile fils de biatch."

I hate physics.

Invest last night was funny, I remember having to rush for training from hall, while having to settle my formal wear.

Was damn late, but functions always start late anyway.

Worse, I strained my hAmstring for lunch. (Hungry, anyone?)

Now, I think I'm probably having to rest for at least 2 weeks, if it's not thaat serious.

Joy, came over late night for a surprise visit while she was at Gen's,

and I slept for 10 hours, totally missing Life Sci today cos I refused to get out of bed.

And we had MASS suck-the-long-sweet competition today. Heehee. =D

CAN'T WAIT FOR 2100 TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Ps: Happy Birthday, FGBABY. *KISSES

Horoscope for the day.

"You'll finally find the solution to something that's been bugging you if you take a break from it for a little while. The answer will come to you."



Phil feels queasy. =(
And Roomie is uber stressed and I can't help. =(

Save Some Sympathy For Me.

So, everyone's gearing up their books and pens and coffee for the sem exams.

Today, or rather Monday, is by far the most fun stressed-up day I've had.

Never had a quiz where two rows of people were openly discussing answers,
and blatantly telling each other, "True", "False", "I don't know?!", and even checking lecture notes.

Never have I so openly walked out from a lecture before,
but we all did it together anyway.
This is what I like about us, we do it together; right or wrong.

Then I find myself within these 4 white-washed walls,
two aircons (but 1 cackles),
two computers,
a water cooler,
and great company.

It is times like these you lose yourself in the accumulating work, and immense stress-
In a healthy way, of course. Crazily screaming to familiar songs we hear on the radio, suddenly swarming to the computer because of Crunchyroll, and the excitement everytime we conquer a damned Phy qn.

We were asked to tone down by a senior next door, (who came by to talk to us, and very generously, gave us some help! (: )

Highlight of the night: Sweet-sucking competition with Wayne.
You know those kinda looong string sweets?
We were gonna compete who could suck one up the fastest,
but we constantly broke out into laughing fits,
and W had his first string on the floor even before I had half of mine in my mouth.

(And, all three of us break into hysterical laughters)

Then he insists on trying again, this time with TWO strings.
And I won again! =D Laughed so hard, I had tummyache.
Too bad we didn't get it down on video cos it'd be something worth watching.

Speaking about laughing fits,
I broke out into one during Phy lect today.
OMG HOW EMBARRASSINGGGG.


PHYSICS, YOU CAN KISS MY ASS ON FRIDAY. I'M GONNA ACE YOU.
(okay, maybe not ace, but, I must be able to do at least half the paper!)


Ps: Tonight was supposed to be Crabbynight, but it didn't work out. =((

hocus pocus FOCUS.

Touch has become therapy,
there's always something to look forward to even though it's physical.

Didn't sleep til 730am on Friday morning, cos we biked out for supper (couldn't find tang yuan :( ), and was too full to sleep.
Woke up at 1130, wow. To oreos dunked in strawberry milk, and tangyuans from Lavender later in the afternoon.

Subcomm night at Weenamkee! I love Weenamkeeeeeee. Wanted to go see the puppy in 23! But J didn't get to book out, so too bad :(
Left for ice cream after the (chaotic) meal at Velo, where we concluded QQ is a kid afterall.

Lazed my night away in my room. I missed it, though 6461305 feels like home.
(And I think I forgot to clear the bin)

Today, I've got 2394732 things to do, 239482390 things to study, 090272438 things to settle.

Everyone wants to study, so do we.
Thanks for ditching us alone to get the stuff.



/won't be home till late afternoon tomorrow.

Someone Else's Dreams.

You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep

For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away




Besides being too easily distracted, I've finally realised that one other reason why I'm lagging so much behind school work is cos I'm too slow to keep up with the accelerated pace.

I have to finish 2 Math tutorials, 1 physics tutorial, and 1 materials science tutorial in 2 hours.
Damn.

It's when there's silence along the corridors that I hope it'd be you.

J'aime beaucoup mon frère! (:

Okay, before you read, you must understand that his tagline is, "french quiz gd gd~ "J'aime beaucoup corrosion assignment" '

All right, here you go:

L says:
wat's the plural of "ton"
L says:
tonnes?

back it up, buck it up. says:
tes
back it up, buck it up. says:
ton tua tes

L says:
huh?

back it up, buck it up. says:
shit

L says:
english leh

back it up, buck it up. says:
ton ta tes
back it up, buck it up. says:
OH
back it up, buck it up. says:
HAHA WTF

L says:
yar... WTF?
L says:
haha

back it up, buck it up. says:
ton as in 1 ton, the weight?
back it up, buck it up. says:
tonnes

L says:
yar

back it up, buck it up. says:
OMG THAT CONVERSATION DAMN BLOG WORTHY HAHAHAHA


back it up, buck it up: me,
L: mon frère! Haha.


please don't ask why I'm still awake.

Didn't know I'd need You So Much.

Today (Wednesday, I mean) has GOT to be the best day I've had in weeks.

Ling surprised me, with Romeo as a wonderful deploy DECOY (see what utn has done to me?),
together with muffins-baked-with-love, and a star that I know proudly hang on my bag.

Y, my Mrs. Darcy graciously cabbed down from her school to my little ulu island.
I missed that one, a whole lot.


Then, there was training! One which I was half excited, half afraid to go for.
No pain, no gain! Did fartlegs, and strides, and 100 dummy scoops + spin passes in one motion.
I'm aching, but I enjoyed, and it was amazing.

Dinner after training! Though it was only 3 of us, it was nice, nice, nice.
Walking back to hall was goood too. Walked from 16 to 2, round 8, 9, 10, 11, 15 and 14 then back.
Okay, my legs ache like mad and I predict that I'd have to roll out of bed tomorrow.

Why do we need quizzes, and why must they ALL come together at once?

Ps: The chicken rice I had for dinner sucked though! ):

Find Your Olympics.

I just HAD to paste this here, to serve as a (not very) kind reminder to myself,
about what I want.
Here's an email from Coach:

I am not the kind of coach who increases training 1
month before the big matches.Any team serious about
training will be preparing months ahead.Looking into
player/team needs.

We did pretty good in our friendly against S'pore Poly
last week:)
I am trying to fix another friendly for us,both
seniors & juniors.Looking at Temasek Poly & S'pore
American School.

For our juniors we are also training for Asian Schools
Touch Championships in 8 December.
Team selections will have to base on committment to
trainings & ability.

After that will be a lead up to our IVP Touch.
Followed by probably the National Touch League which
is likely to be pushed to early part of the year.
We are looking to put in a team in the womens B category.

Also in the pipeline,i am hoping we can rally up
enough interest in the team to fly up to play the top
2 best school teams in Bangkok near christmas.It will
be a training cum buy Bangkok down shopping trip.
Interested already?

Last matter on my mind,i will be announcing our new
captains for this season soon.


8 DECEMBER-Asian Schools Touch Championships
21-25 DECEMBER-Bangkok training/fun trip
JANUARY-Intervarsity Polytechnic Touch Competition
FEBURARY-National Touch League

Trainings now are every wednesdays & fridays,5pm.Bring
both running shoes & boots for Wednesdays.
Please learn to manage your time & make trainings.
Remember, obstacles are what u see when u take ur eyes
off ur focus.


NOTE TO SELF:

1. Management Test next Monday,
2. Math Test 2 next Monday (cannot afford to screw the second one!)
3. Phy Re test next Friday (don't waste second chances, Phil!)

Stress, is just an Excuse.

please take the emotions from my heart,

and place them as words on my lips.

Random Rantings

I just finished my lab report.
IHATELABREPORTS.
IHAVETOCABTOSCHOOLLATER
IHAVENTEVENEATENDINNER
IAMANGSTY.

This Is How It Goes, I Would Have Never Known.

I was comfortably numb where I stood,
where I watched the world whizz me by, unafraid,
because I thought I had it under control,
I thought my support pillars will never falter.

I was uncomfortably new where I stood,
where I watched tragedies tread past me, laidback,
because I thought I was well protected,
I thought the force fields will never fade.

I am insecure where I stand,
where I watch the ugly truth unravel, skeptical,
because I thought I knew it all,
I thought we had it all.

If your love would cost me so much, I'd rather have none at all.

No, I'm not ready.

Do you know how stressful it is to sign in to 34 new messages in your inbox,
to at least two from your leader reminding you, THE DEADLINE IS TOMORROW (or tonight rather) holyfuck, i missed the deadline! I thought today is Friday, but yesterday is Friday!!

have your peers constantly pressurising you with their 'how's the studying coming along?'

OH GAWD. It's a fucking recess week, not study break.
Someone shoot me please,
or buy me a bucket to store my tears.
I need to start saving water anyway.

This is overwhelming.
OVER, overwhelming.

I could really use some help.

Btw, Mrs. Darcy and Dingg, I miss you both like crazy.


Ps: Before I forget, link to Leslie's Trojan Sentosa outing entry on Monday.
I doubt I'd get to talk about anyway. =(

You COULD be My Unintended.

Just like a circle, no ends. Not triangle, triangle has 3 ends.

I just received a series of emails containing the same content but different first two sentences:

From, "I AM GOING TO BE LATE" to "I am late already." in 5 emails.
Just thought it was really funny, anyway.

Okay, shiate. I'm supposed to be doing my project. Make good and full use of whatever time I have left now,
my Tues - Thurs schedule freaks me out, BIG TIME.

TEEVEEE

If you watched today's episode of xiao hua xiao cao,
and thought you saw me on tv,
it wasn't me lor. blind ah. HAHAHAHAHA

and if you happened to record it,
I WANNA SEEE PLEASE. OMG

All We Know Is Falling.

Another week has passed, one of miserable meals. =(
And a week of massive repetitions.
Imagine, I ate at The Quad 4 times this week (with 4 different groups of people, of course)
and I popped by Jurong Point 4 times too.

On Thurs (the third time already), accompanied W & S cos they didn't want to have roomie gay loving time, and spent a good 2 hours there. We ate, W got his gift, S got his cables and sweets for the Hall Queen, and I got my ice cream, plus junk for the roomie.

Classic Moment: W and I got ice cream from Anderson's. (He freaking made me get a double scoop cos he said "single not shiok!" and got himself a single cos he was frightened by the HUGEEE double scoops) While queueing to draw money, I suddenly saw something flick behind me, and his cone was rolling on the floor. We couldn't stop laughing, cos we had absolutely NO idea how it happened. And the worse thing is, he quickly picked it up and continued eating after about 5 seconds of contemplation. His reason, "Aiya, army teach you 3 second rule."
Whoaaa. I would never ever do that.

By the way, did Anderson's standard drop? Or is the food at Jurong Point just substandard? They were saying the Fish & Co sucks too. Ames, if you see this, you are a better person to comment on it than I am.

Slept late, woke up early despite not having any lessons on Friday.

Naturally wake up around 9 plus lately.

Went for Squash!! Played it last time, but never really got down to knowing the right techniques, so yeah, we had the Professionals teaching us! Haha.

We unknowingly played for 3 hours, thus the really bad muscle aches in my left arm now. =(

Initial plans to watch Evan Almighty/ Hairspray after Squash with "my imaginary friend" were interrupted, so I caught Prison Break which left me gasping and screaming for more. REALLY. ALL of us can't wait for subsequent episodes, it's gonna be an exciting, exciting season!

Night cycled at night with Anouka(: We were the second team to set off, and we beat "Camalosers" (quote QQ) in every challenge.

The journey to West Coast was hilarious, the front people kept braking, so there were many near-accident situations.

I miraculously managed to cycle OVER a drain without falling in. I didn't even see it to start with, and I was damn scared!

Eugene and QQ make AWESOME entertainers, we were singing (or screaming rather) to classic songs like, 25 minutes too late, I don't wanna miss a thing, Iris, etc.

Shared Famous Amos cookies which we got for guessing the deng mi, (but actually we already knew the answers), discreetly robbed a box of Bakerzin truffle mooncakes (which I now have, in my fridge. Thanks, Jx) and gobbling Old Chang Kee curry puffs, sotong balls and carrot cake.

Then we had an Anouka Must-Do: To stand on this platform and let them spin us.

Omg, I nearly died. I was damn scared my mooncakes would spin out from my mouth too.

We had sparklers too! (: Was too tired to cycle back, so we hopped on Yinx's car and ditched the bike on the lorry.

Don't suppose I need to explain why I needed extra effort to crawl out of bed this morning.

So finally, it's the long awaited short recess break.
People say it's an unofficial study break,
but looking at my long list of To-Do's and I-want-to-do-desperately's,
there is nothing academically focused.

Note to self : Lab report and MWH project due when school starts! Please have a sense of urgency, Phil.


Favourite bitch; I'm gonna miss you.

Distractions, distractions!

OMG PRISON BREAK SEASON THREE EPISODE ONE IS OUT!!!!!

Awkward Silences.

(Okay la, I'm too lazy to search for a poster in English.)

Ratatouille was goooodd! I don't know if it really deserves 5 stars, but it definitely is something different, not those cheesy kinda shows, so watch it watch it! (I think I'm probably one of the last to watch it anyway)

Yesterday for lunch, I had damn nice smelling and looking baked rice which I pathetically took an hour to eat, with much difficulty and pain.

Macaroni for dinner. =(

And Today for breakfast, I had soggy cereal. =(

Oh, metal mouthed wires and rubber bands.

Training yesterday was ..... , sigh.

It sucks when you underperform during crucial periods and everyone else is stepping up.

I know I can do so much better.

A-cup.

I sit here with an aching mouth,
an empty stomach,
a stubborn mind,
and two slightly swollen eyes.

After TWO failed attempts to shock me from behind by FFF,
Roomie came back and scared me with a hug attack. Well done, bitch!

Things with braces are looking good,
though I'd really miss them, it's gonna be two years sooon!
And they really ache now =( Back on rubber bands.

So, the CAs are over, it's crazy, cos we had all three of them in a day, almost one after another.
Inevitably, physics is screwed. Phil went for her CA without studying, and without a calculator, and some bitch separated me and Romeo the Saviour who studied. Damn.

Life in school's been really hilarious, we laugh at everything everytime, and I really can't put them down in words.
Note to self: I love the ones I meet every morning at 64 4 1302, the ones I sit with every lesson, the one (Geri!) I get lost/fall asleep with every day, the one (Eli!) I come home to and fall asleep with every night.
I've been really blessed by the people around me, and I'm really glad we've met.
They are the reasons why I even bother lugging myself out of bed as early as 7:15 even though I slept at 5am the previous night.

And Pigeon's FINALLY over, no more late night trainings on Tues and Thurs (but IHG training soon, sigh!) Crickets enjoy visiting my room, we don't know why.
And being an Asst. Sports is not as easy/slack as I thought it'd be.

Training in 1half hours.
Later!

Ps: I really had cheesecake on Monday! Though not from cheesecake cafe, nor was it strawberry cheesecake, it was yummy(: Blueberry from The Quad.

I hate Tuesdays.

Basically sums up my mid terms, especially my affection towards Physics and my tutor.

On the other hand,

I'm feeling much better already, thank you guys for the concern.

And sorry for worrying you.

Term break next week, but there's so much shit to do.

I STILL need to catch up on work.

Doesn't help that I'm sick,

AGAIN.

Oh. Not the first time we're hearing this from Phil, haha.

All ways

You know what would really make me very happy now?



Cheesecake cafe's strawberry oreo cheesecake,
and Auntie Anne's Cinnamon Sugar pretzel.


Yeah, good morning anyway.
Today is dooms day,
the ONLY day I have my mids,
the day with 3 (almost) consecutive papers.

Supersizedtragedy.

I remember telling someone once,
that I'm so sick of talking about my near accident driving experience, the next time I talk about it, it won't be so simple.










I've never cried so effortlessly, and silently before.
It's like a spoilt leaking tap.
My heart still sinks at the thought of it,
my knee still aches.
I can't even bear to look at the pictures.

You're my favourite bitch.

Been damn effing busy, I've really neglected this space.
So much that should I ever want to look back on my past month of uni life, I can no longer retrieve the memories written down, but rely on the extremely limited memory bank up in the brain.

I keep promising myself I will post a proper entry, but everytime I pop by blogger.com, I experienced the blogger's block. It's those kinda feelings you get as if restarting on something that you haven't done in a long time. Eg: start studying again after 8, or maybe 9 long months of play.

I'm having fun, but it's tiring and everything has a consequence, some of which I know I may not be able to afford, eg. my CAs coming up. 3 in a day is no joke,
lagging 2930832 chapters behind is a bigger problem.
Having only another 2 days left to catch up is as good as suicide.

I'm sorry if you're clueless about my life now, I will really try to write a looong entry cos I'd love to remember how beautifully scarred my uni life is, and will be. Oxymoron, but that's uni life for you. (:

And btw, if I haven't already told you, my roomie is awesome.

TUES/THURS

As much as I've been complaining,

I knew I'd miss it,

miss the shit, miss the exhaustion,

miss the fun,

miss the people.

AND I LOVE QQ.

Skeptics.

This week has been crazy,

and extremely moody,

I can't wait for it to end.

One more day! So exciting, yet nerve wrecking.

All the practice and time spent better not be put to waste.

MIDTERMS START 13SEPT.

OMG

Highlight of the day,
Fang: "Oei Retarded Face. (To Eugene)"
Eugene acts blur, "Where? I don't see any retarded face around."
Peiyao: "That's cause you can't see your own face."
HAHAAHAH


PS: If I use "Fuck" again, please slap/pinch me.

NOTETOSELF II

Last week at cell,
Clarice made us write something we find very difficult to part with for God.
I wrote TIME. It's very hard, to put aside all the work especially with the extremely tight schedules/deadlines to spend more time with God daily.

Now, while I'm extremely tired but cannot sleep, with a 12 chapters of Physics waiting for me to catch up on, I'm seeking my spiritual comfort.

Psalm 115, V 9-11
"O house of Israel, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield.
O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield.
You who fear him, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield."

The Lord remembers us and will bless us,
Christ is strength.

Okay, so Holy. I feel better. (:

Seed

Subjects are thrown around the room
Looking for the ones that got away
A feeling of soft anticipation
Another confrontation I won't make
But how do we do it
We turned into something else entirely
We fake it
But I wanted it so desperately to be real

Run, run, holding on to some pieces that you left behind
Hope now, as I walk away, you're the one that finds me out
Run from the only thing left that I hold close

While he's letting you in
You've got the feeling you've been followed under your skin
It will be weighing on your shoulder, believe it.
If I could express it in a different dialect or in a delicate way
I'd capture the phrases inside the cage beneath my chest
And keep it locked for days
I wanted you so desperately to believe me

Run, run, why are you running from another conversation?
Someone that I've been planning on, you're the one that finds me out.
There's nowhere, now I found you, that I won't go.

I'm always letting you in.
You've got the feeling you've been followed under your skin.
It will be weighing on your shoulder.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in you.

Run, run, what are you running from?
Let all your small steps expose your secrets.
You don't have to speak for me to believe it.
But what do you mean? Yeah...ha-ha

Shaken and faint, you've got the feeling you've been followed
under your skin. It will be weighing on your shoulder.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
While letting you in, you got the feeling you've been followed.
Are you listening to anything I said?
Said to anything I said (You've got that seed in you)
Said (You've got that scene in you)

Shaken and faint, it was the hardest thing to swallow.
Pretending you don't miss me.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
While letting you in, I'll be thinking about tomorrow.
And every time we cross those lines.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
Hope now, as I walk away, you're the one that finds me out.

-THEACADEMYIS.

158 for, 7 against.

Back from pigeon,
satisfied with our progress,
the better coordination with Qq.
Upset about jcrc results.
Bye bye dream team,
I wish you guys were here with me. =(

The Sweetesttt.

OMG I HAVE TIME TO BLOG!

I refuse to go down to the polling booth, cos they've conveniently pangseh-ed and I've training in 17 minutes, I shall not care.

Back to last week, met HUGS darling for lunch, and convinced her into skipping lecture so she came over to 1305 (: But silly girl left her bottle here.

Didn't get to sleep on the second consecutive Thursday cos we went down to TV Lounge after training to join the rest at the Alcohol party. But by then, we were just talking and gulping green tea.

Friday, we went to support Wenlong in Hey Gorgeous, and I was totally embarrassed, but never mind. (:
Went shopping(: Got a bag from Topman, so gay. Bumped into ding!
Fell asleep during Cell. Went home, and received a call a few minutes after I slept.

So I drove out and down to Novena. (Near) EMPTY ROADS AT LATE NIGHTS ARE THE BEST!
Drove down to Fort Canning (used the same route thrice in a day, gosh!) then went for Prata and Thomson. Reached home at 5am, oh gawd, I could walk with my eyes closed.

Met ding for productive shopping. (:
Met Y to go for Shai's engagement dinner. (We all misunderstood it for wedding, the real wedding will only be two years later!)
Then bishan for bedsheet shopping(: Eli and I are excited about our next identical bedsheets- monkey and giraffes! (Read: Her fav, my fav! And we both have a monkey/giraffe in the room)

I'm too lazy to think about what I've been up too, I'm just typing what I can think of right now...........

So anyhow, yesterday was a bad day. And I missed the dinner with Trojan. (please insert a million sulks)
Today was better(: Though I was extremely sleepy, I kept falling asleep; even in French tutorial (I think the tutor hates me anyhow)

MID TERMS ON: 13 sept, 17sept (3 papers, omg), 29Oct. SCREWED.

My brain moves too fast for my fingers they can't type chronologically.
Oh gawd, I'm so screwed.

Time left to pigeon training: 3mins. SIANZZZZZZZZ.

Dance Hall Drug

It's only Monday, and its only 1am but I feel like sleeping already.

I hate Mondays, and how they always start with Math tut and the damn effed up tutor,
and how it stretches til 1930. And how it's only the first day of the week.

Today, we had a math test. 15% for Final Term.
And the tutor was nice, he gave us a question from tutorial: Prove sine rule.
And genius phil couldn't solve it. Omg, I felt like shit.

We skipped the in-between lessons today anyway. Only attended the first and last.
Celebrated J's birthday, but I missed the bigger scale dinner with everyone else cos of rally, which ended close to 12. So we effectively sat there for close to 4hours.
Impromptu is the best!

I feel so random, and tired......
Photos another day.

Happy Birthday, Junx.

The Past is just the Future with the Lights On.

and, i'm sorry for neglecting. this time, i've really really really been busy. i'm sorry. ):

-ripped this of crabby's blog.
Not that I'm incapable of writing it on my own, but it means more to rip it off someone else's heartfelt thoughts- goes to show I'm not alone.

I don't want to whine about how busy I've been, but it's really beyond what you can imagine and maybe understand unless you're there to see for yourself. (Read: Eli witnesses everything. Or rather, she witnesses the most.)

I don't want to be an over achiever in my leadership and be a failure in my studies.
I won't.

We regret to inform you,

I just got back to the room,
spent the night in 63's tv lounge- it was effing cold,
and we were uncomfortable.

And I just took a fucking cold shower. (Hate the toilet next to our room)
At this rate, I'm gonna get rheumatism soon cos I take my showers quite late early in the morning (read, 2am?)
And I'm never gonna recover from my permanent flu/sore throat/ cough cos I don't sleep earlier than 2am every day.

And so, another sleepless Thursday night.
Hello, it's Friday morning already,
and I don't want to appear on TV later,
but for the sake of my Romeo, I shall be supportive.

HERO/HEROINE

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath then I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

-BOYSLIKEGIRLS

PLEASE VOTE.

HEY GORGEOUS
(wenlong/favier!)

SCIENCE PAGEANT
(f2 please, that's qianhui!)

Carry Your Heart In Mine.

I hate it that I've to come online to do my work,

cos I always end up distracting myself...........

Just about 20 mins ago,

Mommy: "dinner at home tmr? I'm inviting friends over!"

Me: @($&%^&@&*!&!(%(!&% I've OG dinner tomorrow! >=(

(I miss her cooking)

Today, I:

• nearly got into an accident again. (I'm so sick of blogging about my near-accident experience!)
• ate Munchy donuts which beat those from Donut Factory hands down.
• had my eyebrows shaved, but for a minute, I thought she was really gonna remove everything,
• couldn't stop worry about how weird things will turn out,
• had false eyelashes attached again, but this time, 2 layers. (Say omg please)
• took 6 consecutive photos without smiling in a single one,
• had hair extensions so long and heavy, I needed double the effort to keep my head straight.
• had 93740275 people ask who I am after the extensions, and telling me I should keep my hair long,
• got married.
• cabbed home with make up and messy hair
• paid $13 for cab fare from Chinatown
• ate too much for dinner, and I'm supposed to lose weight or I don't need to fit into my dress anymore.
• should sleep early cos I haven't exactly recovered from the totally zero sleep from Thursday - Friday.

PS: I HATE FRIENDSTER. EVERYBODY SHOULD JUST JOIN FACEBOOK.

"I didn't think so,"

Two Names You Go By:
Phil, Philip

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Tank and FBTS

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
Mutaul understanding and Communication

Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
Playing Touch, Music therapy-ing

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The
Moment:
More time, bigger brain capacity

Two favourite brand of clothes:
Zara! Wetseal? HAHA.

Two things you did last night:
Watch Miami ink, Cell group.

Two things you ate today:
Mom's ondeh ondeh (THE BEST) and Munchy donuts (WAY better than Donut Factory)

Two people you Last Talked To:
Talked, as in verbal? Dad and Qq.

Two Things You're gonna do tomorrow:
Church, dinner with Anouka.

Two Favorite Holidays:
Christmas. School Holidays

Two favorite beverages:
Heaven&Earth Green Tea! Teh peng.

Two favorite TV shows:
America's Next Top Model, Miami Ink.

Two favorite foods:
YUPIAN MEEFEN, BAN MIAN

Two of your least favorite things to do:
Leaving school myself, waiting for my turn at long queues.

Two things you want to do before you die:
French a girl, get a tattoo.


Back to Physics and Zhao Yang. =((

"Don't try to suck me up ah."

Oh gosh, two nights ago, I posted an entry, but google decided to screw up on me so the post is missing.

Anyhow, life has been busy, but I'm catching up, keeping up.

I want to blog about last week!

We went down to Hall 9 for some card gaming session and I HAVE to tell you how shit lucky W is.

Imagine, getting two 7s dealed to you in a game of BlackJack,

and as a banker you go last in taking your additional card,

getting another 7 would be orgasmic, but it's also extremely slim,

considering someone among the players also has a 7 with him.

But that lucky duck actually got another 7, so we had to pay him 7 times the amt we decided to bet with.

Oh goodness, how lucky.

There was touch last week too. HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK!

Was damn fun, and felt really damn good to be back on the pitch with my boots and touching the odd shaped ball again. Though we had a mini pt- 1min of skipping, sit ups, leg lifts, hopping, burpees, etc; it felt DAMN GOOD.

Had hall supper after that, which was also goood! (: Though we were somewhat starving, and the food wasn't exactly staple food, it was still good and fun! Heh.

Oh, I remember being extremely upset on Tues, together with Geri. We felt like lost sheep in another land, being told to wear "long pants and covered shoes" for lab, but we ended up sitting down spending two hours drawing a bloody radio via a 2 pt perspective,

got lost for a good half an hr til we decided to just give french a miss.

Good thing we went out of school for dinner- it was a much needed break.

Left sch with Sugar Papa(ya) on Fri, and had lunch tgt with Shir and Melzone at Sakae,

then we left for Bugis where I bought a kids bolster while waiting for Y (Eli is convinced I am pathetic without anything to hug while sleeping) so I was lugging damn alot of shit around Bugis, and eventually Toa Payoh when I was going for cell, and then to AMK,

where we caught RUSH HOUR 3. I was so hungry, I got myself Nachos,

and after the movie, we went down to Tong Shui for Toasts- durian toast, peanut butter & jam, pork floss, milo, and I-can't-remember-the-last toast, plus some fried you tiaos for supper.

Oh gawd, oh gawd, ate like mad.

Had BBQ on Sat with the Cambodian kids,

we ate til we really popped. And we had TOOOOO much food.

And it was only after they left, and we were about to leave that we discovered Stingrays buried deep down inside the styrofoam box! =((

Them playing Squirrel & Tree.

Went down to some random coffeeshop in Kallang to catch soccer together after that,

where we grew bored halfway into the 2nd match of the night,

and left for SUPPER! (see, eat again) We had the worse food ever, and the worse milk tea ever, I felt like crying for them. Then we considering hanging out til the next morning (think: EEW, cos the BBQ smell still lingered) and we headed to East Coast Park, where Geri took @(#$&@#&!)!)~ long to park the car and our hearts nearly jumped out of our mouths.

And we had the big debate, which stretched on to Monday, on pronouncing "bitch" and "beach" and "bin" and "bean".

Wayne's been the topic of our jokes lately,

from his "fear of banging my car" essay, to "don't try to suck me up ah", and "which partSS of French do you stay?" and "what good are the French in?",

we are constantly reminded of why his Wednesdays are almost twice as long as mine.

Didn't go for Touch this week, cos French ends at 6 and we had OG BBQ,

second bbq in the week and I randomly lost my voice during pigeon training after that.

Pigeon trng sucked, by the way. And Coach wasn't even there. =(

Had tuition on Wed, so I left school and had to come back by 8 when tuition ended close to 7.

Imagine.. potong pasir --> home --> take stuff/shower --> dinner --> pulau you-know-which-Uni, all in an hr? IMPOSSIBLE.

Decided to shower back in Thirteen, but I was still 45 mins late for the workshop,

and in the end it lasted for only 5 mins more after I (unknowingly) entered by the front door. Gosh. Plus, we had such a rushed dinner, I couldn't even enjoy the food! So pointless. =(

Skipped French ystday for Fitting at Kai and some Ulu shop in Chinatown/Outram.

Exciting but scary at the same time. But I think it somewhat bonded the 10 of us together better. Though it suddenly thunderstormed, so we cabbed back without taking the receipt so we can't claim the almost-20$ fare. =(

As I'm sitting here typing, I've yet to sleep from Thursday, cos pigeon ended late, and I was talking to Roomie, then went down to learn some Math (I've decided to upgrade that lousy friend!), and we talked til this morning. It was funny how I kept falling asleep in between (tired) silences then waking up suddenly and asking for a repetition of response to my questions. And how I kept throwing things like the volleyball, my eraser, my syringe for a pencil, rulers, markers, (even wanted to throw handphones) to keep ourselves awake.

Anyhow, eventually the silences were too long and we both fell asleep for less than an hr, and I woke up to the smell of Peanut Butter Bread.

Breakfast was Cranberry Scones from Roomie!

And now I'm here, going down to pick up the laundry after I'm done with this post,

attempting to study/ do some tutorials.

Today is the end of third week, the coming is the 4th already. Fast, isn't it?

It's gonna be a month since I've been in Thirteen, (and btw, I decided to run for Asst Sports)

And I hope it isn't the wrong decision.

Another busy weekend coming up! =\

Ps: Better together is playing, and I'm thinking of you, Geri(:

"Err, excuse me, the queue starts from behind."

I suddenly came back to hall without my voice just now,
it must be the two barbecues. But it's scary cos it's too sudden and random.

My world is spinning too fast I can't catch up.

I hate to sound emo,
BUT BUT BUT,
I really reached an all time rock bottom low today.
I knew the time would come, but I just didn't think it'd be that soon, and at that point of time.

AH OMG, PHIL IS HAPPY. REALLY.
(If you minus the pigeon shit, piling tutorials, sore throat, increasingly awkward relationship with anouka, that is.)

NOTETOSELF,

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverane. Perseverance must fnish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

-JAMES 1:2-4

Do underscores in Phy lecturer's notes mean multiply?

She said, "Define 'Not up for it.' "

Whoever told you Uni life was much easier than Jc,
was just cheating you into motivating yourself to persevere and quickly get done and over with your shithead A levels.

Well, at least it was a good motivation then.
Anyone with any great ideas into deceiving me that working life would be much easier too?

Philoos intelligently not bring home her pencil case on purpose,
but forgot to leave spare pens at home.
She's picky about her pens.

And my Monday shirt has a mysterious pink stain, damn it.

Still don't feel up for it.
Too blessed and undeserving.

I'd have loved to use a pencil, but that just wouldn't be permanent.

Nothing beats home(:
Now I know why Sister and Lousy Friend have decided to ps me for home on Thurs night.

Haven't slept before 3 all week, (yes Eli?) Even the earliest is just minutes to 3.

Talked to Y and couldn't help agree more that I, being a single person, cannot accomodate to every single friend. Moreover, friends who don't understand do not deserve my sacrifices of those who are patient.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, is one of the rare times I have decided to finally make a selfish choice: of prioritising myself, so I'm giving Mr. Lim's birthday a miss.
Loong day tomorrow despite that miss!

And great,
I don't effing have an extra memory card so now I can't print photos.
Damn. Now I miss my old fat Nokia 6680.
What bulls.


{EDIT @ 0404}

NOTE TO SELF: I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
I WILL GET USED TO THIS.
{/EDIT}

CURSEOFCURVES

AND THIS IS THERAPY;

I've got the gift of one liners
And you've got the curse of curves
And with this gift I compose words
And the question that comes forward
Are you perspiring from the irony
Or sweating to these lyrics
And this just in
You're a dead fit
But my wit won't allow it
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse of curves
So with the combination of my gift with one liners
And my way
My way with words
It seems I'm too hip to keep tight lipped
And you're on the gossip team
You're making something out of nothing
And jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse, the curse of: (I want someone)
From what I've heard with skin you'll win

We All have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah, that's where mine go
that's where mine go
We all have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah that's where mine go
Where the reality grows:
From what I've heard with skin you'll win
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse, the curse of: (I want someone)
From what I've heard with skin you'll win
With skin you'll win
Skin you'll win

---CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR.

On a happier note, I learnt 2 new pick up lines!

#1:

Is your dad an alien?

Because there's no one else like you on Earth.

#2:

Do you have plasters?

I just scrapped my knees falling for you.

HAHAH SHIT.

PS: I think I've been blessed with the BESTEST SWEETEST roomie anyone, everyone can ever ever ask for. I LOVE YOU, E.

"Wah, you go for one camp, come back lose alot of hair, HOR?"

While waiting for Gdine to come back from far-away Hall 2,
I was looking at Hall FOC photos,
and realise that I miss my hair.

Tonight is going to be a loooooooooooong night,
I'm still contemplating going for Touch training tomorrow,
not knowing a single soul.
Please help me find someone to drag down for training with,
or I'd be damn sian. =(

Who You Are, When No One's Looking.

A woman confronts her terror of public speaking so she can tell her church congregation about her miraculous answer to prayer.
That's courage.

A man vows to get up twenty minutes early every morning to jog around the block, and he keeps his vow.
That's discipline.

A high-school techer patiently draws out an inattentie student and discovers she is a gifted writer.
That's vision.

A college student, overwhelmed by tests and term papers, considers dropping out, but decides to stay and study instead.
That's endurance.

A man notices his daughter's tear-stained face, and so he sits down and encourages her to tell him what's on her heart.
That's compassion.

A parent gives up an attractive job promotion so the family can stay in the town where they have made friends and put down roots.
That's self-sacrifice.

---


Back to what I've been doing-

School started on Monday, but there was only 1hr of lecture,
after which there was Jash, which was wrong, really wrong.
Nothing was good except the food. The performances were bad, music was bad,
we were all bored, so we left for prata.

Woke up early to fight a war against the computer and every other freshie for Add/Drop, it was damn chaotic and crazy. Handphones ringing non-stop, and only 2 laptops to accomodate more than what it can. Madness, madness. But, we did it!

Left for home, skipped school on Wed for dental- Braces are blue and blue!
And looking at how things are going, I doubt I can remove them any sooon. )):
Met F to clean up her Sheares hall, lunched at Techno-edge (haha!).
Think I didn't even clean twice as hard when I was cleaning my own hall man.
Slept the entire journey back, then dinner at Chomp chomp with D and Hk!

Thursday! I met my beloved wife, Y- SHOPPINGGG =D Heh.
But neither of us got much, I was quite upset! =(
Had a very coincidental, fated (?) incident too.(bumpedintogib!)
Yw, Artur and Shit came to look for us, so we sat down at Bk and talked.
Everyone's lives feel so different now, like we are no longer friends from the same college,
but now friends of a different phase: we seem to have moved on while they are stagnated at their service to the nation. Feels really different..

Cut my hair with Mom on Friday, bumped into almost everyone and anyone possible in Town,
Hr came to say Hi for a while,
left for Ikea- I was so disappointed cos I couldn't really get what I need! :(
Island creamery, where I saw Jien (Come on Monday!!)

Left for Cg, we played Balderdesh. OMG DAMN FUN.
And the above, is extracted from the handbook we're using for Cg.

And back to today..
I sold my sony ericsson. =( I miss it already but we had to part before it totally dies on me.
Now, I'm contemplating whether I should get an S500i, get back my V6,
or just wait. Sigh.
AND I watched Ghost Rider. I don't know if I was just tired, or it was boring, but I slept 1 hr 20 mins into the show. Heh.

Ps: I've been dreaming of the same person for 3 nights now,
is this scary, or scary?

You pay to give.

I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Imagine, Victoria Beckham,
plus a few centimetres,
minus the blonde streaks,
with (not-so-obvious) red streaks,
and a rounder, fatter, uglier face.

YOU'LL SEE IN DUE TIME!

I'm losing my voice, again.
Been on strepstils since the first camp,
I hope there isn't any addictives.

"You were emo before the word emo even came about."

BEST OG- ANOUKA!

I realise the past 10 months of slacking has overrod the past 12 years of a busy life,

I need to start getting used to it again.

E says I scare her.

For now, school ends at 730 on Monday,

6pm on Tuesday with training "from 9pm till late" (quote Stephanie),

1130am on Wednesdays and Touch training from 5pm,

6pm on Thursdays with training "from 9pm till late" again,

but if any consolation: no school on Friday, no school on Friday!!!

I need to talk about my life, but I can't put them down in words without sounding like I'm telling you a bed time story. (Not that I'm saying life is boring, but I don't want to just narrate it out)

So, another time, maybe.

Ps: I am not emo

Pps: Fighting a war with the computer, and every other student of the same University sure is tiring.

"The closest thing you have to chinese is your chinese name."

School officially starts tomorrow,
I'm no where near ready despite all the camps.
Hostel life feels like an army camp,
book in, book out,
cut off from everyone else.

There's a million and one things to do,
but only a hundred and one minutes.
Gotta get my hostel stuff, but I'm lazing at home cos I'm really tired,
gotta pack stuff for hostel cos I haven't exactly shifted everything I need.
Not forgetting timetable stuff,
and random school stuff.
J(oint Hall B)ash tomorrow,
OG lunch in between lessons,
school til 1930.
Training starts next Wednesday.

plus, my cousins from France are back in Singapore and we gotta play Host.

As you already know, I'm back from camp. (Read: Home Sweet Home)
It was fun la, but I think a bit too long, some points a bit too boring or disappointing,
the best of it all - ANOUKA: BEST OG! WOOHOO.
Best OG for the second time! We soooooo rock.

Caught a 0215 show after SP night, had Peanut Butter Toast and Egg tarts at Xin Wang. IT SUCKS OKAY. I was so hungry and disappointed.
But Disturbia was good, though the girl sitting next to me was particularly irritating cos she jumps (like REALLY jump) at every little thing, though I was freezing and hungry, though I watched without my specs, though I was starting to get super sleepy I had to slap myself and get pinched.
The bravest thing I've done: Walk around town in a dress and a size 10 Teva Flip-flops.

CHELSEA VS MANU TONIGHT AT 2155!

Lies right in between.

My roomie's other half says my table's messy and ____ (I can't remember what, but something not too nice) ,

I smell of Food Court,

Fright night tonight,

Reporting in 9 minutes,

But still online.

Dear roomie, if you see this,
I love you okay. Your puffy eyes look real puffy. (Oh, wth. Heh)

TROJANFORLIFE.

Were we meant to be together to be apart?

Don't have a good feeling about camp this far.

Another 6 more days.
Facial expression reads: SIAN.

I was this close to going home today. :(


PS: D, if you see this, my toes are blue(:
PPS: Haven't even showered yet. EEEEE.

Your Call.

Be right back 8 days later.

The Sunday before school starts.

I hope I come back regretting the sian-ness I'm feeling now.

I'm gonna miss everyone. (I sound emo cos I do feel emo, haha)

&, Thank you for the snackpack.

Cheap champagne and a complicated lifestyle.

Woke up @#)%&^*! early for Sister's convo yesterday,
spent half the time laughing to myself while reading messages (Y, I hope you went back to sleep, haha)
or reading Harry Potter.
Pictures all with her now, and her boyf's soo sweet (: Heh.

Then I checked in to Thirteeeeeeeen (Elisa, elisa, sigh, sigh, tsk, tsk)
Thank God for my Bangla Brudderrrr aka Brian (Or Brain) aka Aik Meng (Ehk, not Ayek!) aka Slave aka Dumbfuck (for that day)

(Okay la, I made him give a dumb expression.)

He came over together with his roomie and junior, to help me with the cleaning.
So together, we got EVERYTHING done in about 2 hours: wiping the wardrobe, table, window, drawers, cabinets, bed frames, with CIF (change name already), sweeping and mopping the floor, and even rearranging the furniture. (Eli, I hope you don't mind.)

But we had fun! Now they know the passcode to the girls' toilet, and I accidentally poured our rags away with the dirty water down the toilet bowl. Thank you, Ming Ming for hitting the flush button. I think my Bangla Brudder did three times as more cleaning up than I did la. Thank you, Brudder.

Settled camp stuff. Two pieces of Good news! #1: YEE PEI IS MY OGL YAY YAY YAY. #2:gibgibinmyog!butcantbespanymore

I want Wenlong and Chong tooo :( But she couldn't fight for them.

Flew down from school to City hall, in that "white old man cefiro". Thanks for trying to get me down in 15 mins though HAHA so ambitious.

To my everdearest Hugs darling with whom I have communication breakdown over the Internet and sometimes Sms,
I LOVE YOU. You are so WEI DA. Because she waited for me for 45 minutes. We ate at Kenny Roger's! =D Exchanged birthday gifts (thanks for the cookies and scrapbook! My friend can't stop laughing at me though =( But it's okay, I still love it!)

More rings. Nearly splurged more today. Saw this damn bloody nice bag from Doro Perkins. Bitch, it costs 73$ :(
On the way home, got a call to go for supper, sooooo, we went down to Geylang for.. you know, you know! Okay nah, we had taohuay but Prinsep taohuay beats it anytime, hands down!

Then guess what, we decided to walk around Lor 8 and Lor 10. It was really, big boobs alert. Haha. And the amount of them is simply.... jaw dropping. From every nation and every race man.

Left for shiiiishaaaaaa though it was almost one am, peach mint!
And we were doing silly choochoo trains, dragon and whatnots.
We asked, "What time do you close?"
Girl looks lost, and says, "One? Two? One."
I check my phone, and it was 0103.
"Huh? Isn't that now?"
"Uh, I don't know." and she walks away..
But we stayed til about 230? Is it? Can't rmb, got chased out anyway =(

And I came home with this pin, just in case you can't really read it, it says: I'm not straight, BABE!

HAHA.

I FINALLY GOT MANSON SERVICED!!

OMG WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER IS PLAYING AND I MISS TROJANS. :(

Listen To The Beating In Your Mind.

TOUCHED BY SAINTS.
Went back for Learning Fest today, but only played 3v2 thanks to my beautifully scarred knee (that just bled awhile ago)


Had TEAM lunch at Lucky Plaza, Ayam Penyet : Flattened Chicken.
Deserves TWO thumbs up.

Shopped with Y after that, told her I was "very determined to get something today!"
But in the end I got (too many) somethingsssss.

Had dinner, and a rather emo night... =(
I hate emo nights.

But anyhow, on the way home just now,
I NEARLY HAD ANOTHER ACCIDENT.
Damn it, my sis screamed so loud the glass could have shattered.
But I swear, it really wasn't my fault. HE DIDN'T SIGNAL.
Bastards.

**

strums away the blues. says:
PLEASE
strums away the blues. says:
PLEASE
strums away the blues. says:
PLEASE
♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
WHAT WHAT WHAT
♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
you WANT WANT WANT
strums away the blues. says:
haha
strums away the blues. says:
i want YOU
strums away the blues. says:
YOU YOU YOU
strums away the blues. says:
haha

♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
SURE SURE SURE.
strums away the blues. says:
haha will you come in wrapper? or without wrapper?
♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
i'll come in a gift ribbon
♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
wrapped with love

strums away the blues. says:
only a gift ribbon? haha
strums away the blues. says:
is love transparent?
strums away the blues. says:
haha
strums away the blues. says:
or is it available in opaque?
strums away the blues. says:
haha
♥ leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa! says:
it's transparent

**

As you can see, this entry is extremely disjointed,
which just goes to show how freaking tired I am with the accumulated lack of sleep from camp til now.

Attending sister's convo early tomorrow, then time to check in to # Thirteeeen.
Hopefully level 7, and crossing my fingers it won't be next to the washroom.
Gonna start shifting stuff in already too.
Goodbye, my dearest rooooom.
Hello, my (not so) dearest roooom(ie) HAHA, kidding.

"Please join the queue. Express on the Left. Advanced bookings only."

Last Sunday, for Ding's pre- 18th birthday:

Meant to surprise her, but I ended up being late, and she got mad with her innocent friend,
ran over to meet her but she walked out towards where I was coming so we bumped into each other in the end. What a surprise =((

Had ichiban at Esplanade, my #1 Jap restaurant okay.Had to come back, rush to pack my stuff, then went down to surprise her at 12. Dropped by Kiddo's before that. Ahh, yay! See the cap so nicee! Haha.Yesterday:More photos with F.

I will fill in the blanks later,

Chalet at 40B Biggins Hill bungalow from Monday! We spent time playing bridge cos the newbies were addicted, and SPONGEBOB MONOPOLY TOOOOOOOO.
We walked to Changi V for Nasi Lemak, where we bumped into a couple of people. Fancy meeting people even at such Ulu areas!

While we were snacking in the middle of the night, we spotted an ant trail so we decided to follow it, which actually led us to a HUGE COLONY OF ANTS. It was hair raising, we were screaming and getting goosebumps.

Had a taopok session before we went to sleep and it was damn funny, too bad, no photos :(
Seef and I woke up early early at 730 to order Mac breakfast, because obviously neither of them would have! Food came earlier than expected so we crawled out of bed earlyearly to eat.

But right now, the lack of sleep, pain in my knees, cheesy confessions, drums playing in the background, plus smell of rain, is enough for me to drift away. Good or bad, I don't know.
Don't like being in the eye of a hurricane, I'd rather have the vision of Cyclops.

"All right la, I think I'll stop here. Getting abit thirsty already."