I can safely say I now fully understand the term "living in fear".
BUT, as the (unofficial) roomie says: "there is no fear, like fear of fear itself"
Who would have thought things could be this complicated?
What's worse is we didn't even need their help afterall.
Training tomorrow's video session! Time to review the lousy off-form me play kampong touch on Saturday. =(
Three words to summarise the week: Out of control.
Finally, after two weeks long of add/drop and deliberation, I've settled on my timetable (again), which is the closest to the most ideal. Also, finally decided to settle with 18 AUs instead of 21, and not do an extra core. For that, Sorry Wayne Chow Chow! =(
The weather has been unpredictably insane, one minute I'm loving the sunshines and next I'm shivering in the rain. Just yesterday at aN-Tee-eLe training, it started to pour but a few hours later the sun shone. Didn't think I did my best at our first doubleyeW-Tee-eLe game, and S observed something was holding me back. Sigh =( Wore my skins for the first-est time, after Jieling's many "by-the-time-you-wear-collect-dust-already" remarks. Heh.
Good cadet obeys her Captain's orders ;) Think I could get used to it :D
Oh, ps: aN-Tee-eLe training was surprisingly not too bad!
Been too bloody exhausted to wake up for Nat training this morning, we woke up at 10:35 am and a casual "Let's-go-for-Mac-breakfast" comment. Instantly sprung out of bed, to brush our teeth and cabbed 3.10$ worth to the nearest McD and paid by EZ link cos both wallets were empty. =( So pathetic. Haha
Which reminds me of my McD incident on Thursday in school. Zero cash, atm queue sooo mother long, and ez link card not enough money to buy just two sundaes and a double cheese burger. =(
CCA fair is also overrrr! Hope we've recruited enough, among which there are talents we can groom and count on in the near future (:
I'm currently waiting for special delivery lunch order! (:
But who ever said school seems okay?
I hate school. >=(
But I love the people in it. (((((((((((:
Had a decent training session today , though it was pretty tiring , it was nice :) The week's coming to an end, got my ms2008 albeit a little dilemma here and there , its still better than before :) Touch is looking awesome , with NAT team trainings and WTL coming up , there almost looks like there's no time to breathe , but i'm sure i'll survive with a little , positivity .
All in all , school seems to working out okay :)
I can't seem to post a proper entry without sounding like I'm complaining (under the extremely bad influence of Super Mario Pang Qiao Yi).
More often than not, I find myself hitting the backspace key more than the alphabets on the keyboard.
This is the sound of (un)settling. Sigh... =(
I will not complain that.....
I have training on Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday morning,
then Winterleague match on Sat afternoon,
and another training on Sunday morning
this week. =)
PS: Then training again on Monday.. =)
(From Sing.fest)
I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you
And all along, you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything that I need just to make it
Time can tear you apart,
But it won't break, anything that you are,
You are
We won't say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi
I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Every single day that I can breathe, you changed my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi
So don't say our goodbyes you know its better
We won't break, we won't die
Made a trip down to Alexandra Hosp today to pay Nick a visit after his ACL op.
Was quite a heartwrenching sight, see him more emo than ever, and the only black-headed among the rest (which, on the other hand, probably makes him alot easier to spot ;) ).
If you see this, get well soooooon!
PS: I hate my monthly killercramps.
PPS: Feel, Phil.
Always remember.
Still stand by the fact that our shirts KICK ASS though the supplier screwed our base colour.... =(
The Trojan People;
we were supposed to hide behind the flag la. But W spoilt the picture.
Seniors outside Stjames
EVERYBODY!
And it is coincidentally a heart shape. (:
First day of school, first day of the week.
Started off pretty bad; woke up a little late, couldn't get a cab, reached the hotel just on time (but supposed to be there 15mins earlier), said an extremely abrupt goodbye to JSATT (but the XOXOs made everything feel better), couldn't quite fall asleep when I got home, add/drop was bad (still can't get ms2008!), training wasn't that good either (injured the drumstick thumb further boo)..........
and paradoxical feelings towards aN.Tee.eLe groupings............
Ramuk & I just keep pissing each other off.
Roomie was a bitch cos she demoted me to "you're just like my mother" cos I didn't want to help her carry the motherf heavy fridge 6 floors up (but I did in the end what, I was just telling her it is damn smelly)
Very damn sleepy and I've 830 lesson tomorrow and I don't have my notes.......
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Please let me pick up a MS2008 :(
Nights.
SOMEONE PLEASE JUST FUCKING DROP YOUR MS2008 PLEASE.
I DON'T CARE WHATEVER INDEX. I RATHER BE A LONER FOR TWO MODULES THAN TWO SEMESTERS.
THANKSSS.
S.ingf.est was way effing wicked. (in their europe accent)
I miss JSATT already, (I didn't manage to get a group shot and I'm really upset about it)
and this whole add drop clashing with training thing is stressing me out. ='(
I only have that 3and a half hours to determine my future. (OH FUCK!!!!!!!! I just remembered training is at 530. DIE) Right.... Now I need alternative plans =(
Anyhow, don't want school to start. Don't want holidays to end. I've had enough fun, I miss school, but I'm not ready. =(
Busy weekend ahead. But can't wait. Hope we don't screw up.
And Ahgong, don't be so greeeeen. ;)
By the way,
after 7 hours in Sentosa yesterday and the afternoon of S.R.C + pool games,
Phil is officially as red as a lobster/tomato/chilli crab,
and is very very sunburnt. ^!#($*#&!O!$
" I need you, but it always seems the more i need/want you , the more u drift away , sometimes fate plays games with us , sometimes i feel its just a lil insensitivity. I find myself willing to give up everything for you , but im beginning to see that in your heart , i am probably just another thing to love , you are my everything , my life , i am so afraid of loving u sometimes , but i guess to you i am still just someone there? no doubt i am important , just not enough . "
I'm sorry.
So basically I'm having an awesome start to Year 2.
Everything that were right went wrong , and everything that went wrong got worst.
No longer being a freshie now means more expectations,
more responsibilities,
of which I've been caught unprepared.
There are so many things to settle,
yet I'd be occupied with SF from Sat-Mon (that means skipping the first day of school yo)
and I don't know how things are gonna turn out.
I really don't know what to expect.
And it scares me.
I just want my MS 2008,
and things to be less tensed. Please.
PS: My foreign student roomie (for the time being) has shifted in.
PPS: She's going Msia tmr, but her friend's gonna stay in her place. WTF right. Nyeh.
Back in hall (slacking off camp for a bit),
and currently stuck in a huge huge dilemma.
1307 is HUGE. BIG FAT HUGE. It really is the largest room you can ever find,
I'm happy with the sufficient, if not surplus of space,
but things just feel different. And I don't know if I should switch back to 1305.
Not forgetting the many complications involved.
Gonna be staying here for the week at least, shall see how it goes.
Sigh.
And guess what, 1304 is where W.aiy.ee is staying.
Talk about coincidence........
Okay, gonna put on my bedsheets and run along 3 storeys down to spy on banner painting.
Bittersweet feeling for the week to past quickly yet I don't want school to start. =(
