Not There Yet. Not Even Near.

This is getting harder,

and I'm losing ground.

Mental Toughness.

And I have been unproductive for effectively more than twenty four hours now.

All I think about is sleep and touch tomorrow.

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"I have full faith you will reach my expectations if you just take a breather and not worry too much."

And that, I shall.

Nano

I know a place that we've forgotten

A place we won't get caught in

They won't know who we are 

I know a place where we can hide out

And turn our hearts inside out

They won't know who we are

To Save The Brightest One. For You.

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Today in Summary:

#1 Practice does not make perfect.

#2 What you see is (not) what you get. Sometimes.

#3 Solitary IS company.

#4 The truth sometimes cannot be seen, but must be felt.

Ready, Get Set, Thermo.

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And they did it again.

Over lunch.

Extra marks!!! :( You guys made me damn sad for one day :(

I'm seriously beginning to believe I am gullible. =(

Honestly,

I feel extremely shortchanged right now.

Fix My Feet When I Stumble.

Truth be told,

I'm secretly excited for tomorrow.

Not that I'm 100% confident for the thermo paper,

but I guess I like the idea that I'm finally getting started with EXAMS.

Though it means time's gonna fly, I'm running outta time for revision,

but it also means IT'S ENDING. MY IPOD TOUCH IS COMING HOME. And of course, HOLIDAYS!!!

Just need to get through this week, I'm gonna have an exciting weekend(: 

I already know it, and I'm looking forward to it. (:

Then get through the fucking Materials paper (IRONICALLY, this is my course. So it's probably like my corest core module which I understand nothing).

Then it's the final week (unfortunately also the toughest week; 3 papers in 4 days!)

Random question,

If you are above Average, does that mean you're A grade?

PS: I have the worst friends ever by the way. Yesterday, one was trying so hard to convince me 'r' stands for 'the first term', but it actually means 'ratio'. And last night, two tried extra harder to convince me the paper tomorrow is semi-open book. Argh, too tired to be mindfucked. Haha

Still love you all by the way.  (Except you, fff!)

Pause.

"Today, I was cuddling with the guy I like. I looked into his eyes and said, "Your eyes are so blue, like the ocean." He replied by saying, "Your eyes are so brown... like my shit". FML"

[[source]]

Favourite of the day. (:

My knees are aching from the campus run earlier :(

Agape.

There is no Love greater than that of God's.

This weekend, He reminded us of the meaning of that 4-lettered word.

A word we learnt since young, in our children's rhyme, from our parents/grandparents.

And the simplest form, yet the one most difficult to achieve is that of Self-sacrifice.

From John 3:16, we know, He has sacrificed The Best for us. And with that, there is nothing else God won't do for us, because He loves us.

How do You define Love?

In 1 Cor 13:4-7; the boundaries have been drawn.

I know I keep quoting these verses, but it serves as a reminder. Maybe to myself.

It is patient, and it is not proud.

We are taught to love our neighbours as ourselves, to love your enemy.

So how do we Love?

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Thursday; lunch at HollandV with Mrsdarcy and Wei'an,

followed by a series of quick shopping for the patient, and a (unintended sinful) food visit down to Crabby's. We tried to talk happy stuff/silly stuff and distract her from her discomfort and pain. I dare say to us, happyfood always works best(: + helium balloons! Nothing is as happy as helium balloons(: We got a H.arry Potter one  since she already had every other Get-well-soon balloon that caught our eye. The other two made a few phone calls to check the spelling of EXPELLIARMUS which we finally did, thanks to Wei'an(:

We had desserts from Da Paolo (supermothereffingkickassawesome!), the new kinder surprise, her Ahgong bought us Icecream from the Icecream man (old school but love it!) and we had more sugar rush from reminiscing the trigger happy JC days. 

Dinner with Dxxx where we over ate, then shopped a little for destress(: Hah.

Thanks for telling me my nonexistent bicepped arms are huge. I love you very much. ROAR.

Friday: Church- A solemn, solemn Good Friday.

Yet, why is this Good Friday good? (For you to answer yourself)

Studied studied cried studied cried cried studied studied. :(

Saturday: The Bestie had me over so we could study together while not being in an airconditioned place (fluuu!) We had the clock resounding every hour, counting down to the bare hours left to my paper (she only starts much later!) and being fed by Y.fei + Dennis. They made ice cream (cookies&cream + Hazelnut) and durian puffs; so we just ate. And after dinner we had tangyuans too. Basically we just ate while studying. FATSSS. But it was happiness(:

So O/A levels. (:

Sunday; 8am service!! Went home to nap before meeting Penguin & PresAw(:

We came back to school earlier than I expected, later than they scheduled (heehee), dinnered, attempted studying and fantasized more business plans: UNITUT !?, Shared (un)funny jokes, shot each other weird stares everytime our phones rang....... OK UNPRODUCTIVE.

And we had supper. (:

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It's not in me to force His word unto my friends, but I hope all of you had your share of God's grace, God's love this weekend(:

Because I did(:

THERMO IN TWO DAYS! :(

I'm A Dried Strawberry.

I'm literally dying.

In every aspect. Academically, physically, emotionally, mentally.

I keep building up defences for self-protection but eventually I have to tear them down with my own bare hands. 

ARGH. Why can't things take a different turn?

HI BESTIE, if you see this. Thanks for your silent company(:

Good Joke, Sonny.

/.-. says (4:19 PM):
*hahaha 

but gotta study and do at the same time wait u see me in IMH

the end is where I begin. says (4:20 PM):
*hahaha
*i think i must go soon
*fucking stressed

/.-. says (4:21 PM):
*haahahaha yay we can be toilet mates

What Hurts The Most.

My friend(s) say I look like a strawberry (cos of my hair :( ),

and maybe now I really am one sad/red/miserable/spotted/sour strawberry. 

:(

Life is miserable.

The flu bug seems to like me alot, no amount of Cold relief/ Flu Max is helping.

This sucks.

My world is spinning, literally.

So fast it has spun out of control. Yet I'm digging my own grave. Fuck.

And last night, Dxxx just had to tell me my arms are big. :(

Arggh.

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT PLAY JAM LEGEND! (Heeheehee)

....

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye? 

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry 

And everything, it will surely change even if i tell you i won't go away today 

Will you think that you're all alone 

When no one`s there to hold your hand? 

And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head

Goodnight.

It feels like 6am in the morning already.

And oddly, I like early early mornings; the smell, the colour, the feeling, the air,

and last but not least, the idea that it's a brand new day, a brand new chance.

Oh, My Little Fat Thumb.

My salon pas has lao-honged.

And I've run out of them.

Talk Is Not Cheap. It's Free, I forgot.

Two CAs this week down,

that leaves one on Wednesday,

and exams in less than 10 days now. (8 days!)

Anyhoo, with the CA over, it's also one module down(:

The test, however was bad. Despite already SUing it, the way the boys talk about it scares me.

Choy.

I've a receeding gum line,

and yesterday S dropped my retainers case and now it's broken and can't close... >=(

Talk Is Cheap.

THIS IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN THAT I'M ALREADY READY FOR EXAMS BUT HELL NO.

This weekend was very different from the last.

Last week, I rushed off class to H.omeTeam NS where the staff was ultimately unfriendly. Basically we made a wasted trip down, and now we the cheif programmers are in deep shit cos we have no accomodation for F.OC. =(

And like any other Saturday, I played touch, fell asleep, woke in time for dinner, ice cream treat & movie with S. We caught ... Shopaholic, which I thought was better than expected. Coincidentally bumped into my sister at the theatre so we had a lift home!

Sunday was spent with the dear ex-roomie, for just 1.5hours to celebrate her transition of a kid to an older kid. Haha. 21 or 12, you'll still be a kid to me! Heh.

And yes, it was a nice 1.5 hours. Short but enough(:

This week: Sushi buffet til 6-ish then supper at Prata house til 1-ish.

And (once again) like any other Saturday I played touch, sat under an umbrella to watch touch, was at turf while it was damn hot til it rained til it got sunny again, iced my thumb, waited half an hr for Mr. PresidentAw, watched S play for G.uinness against the Natnl team boys with PresAw, chomped for dinner, and studied (wow finally(: )

Today, was caught in the heavyheavy rain but decided to get drenched cos we were freaking hungry(: Spent the afternoon with Penguin. It's becoming a typical Sunday for us, and I kinda like it(:

Basically after sprained my thumb thrice in a week: Saturday, Tuesday, Saturday, it has finally swollen and hurts big time. It's bloodclotted and hurts when I try to move it (therefore hurts when I write too) HENCE I have skipped Sunday training (again). Hah, I'm never gonna go for training until exams are over. =\

PS: I still want to chop my hair.

PPS: I feel like sleeping already but I have two CAs tomorrow, of which I haven't started one.

"You're my angel in spongebob form."

Today,

or rather Yesterday,

I WENT TO SCHOOL WITHOUT MY SPECS.

How smart of me.

Ohyes, and we accidentally burst out laughing when our dear tutor went "Jiggle Pah!" again today.

Heehee.

Plus, gymed til my legs and shoulders are aching (knees still hurt from Burpees yesterday)

And skype is funfunfun(:

Finish What You Started.

We came up with ingenious plans to prank teammate(s), and our coach,

got all excited about it,

but in the end, THE WEATHER PRANKED US.

Fucken rain that lasted through the afternoon :( 

We trained indoors but carried on with the prank (on Coach), and she was too focused on WTF happened to our training gear that she didn't notice everyone turn our backs to her and giggling away. Anyhoo, she was pissed x1000000 at our irresponsibility and "kept her eyes on the bag" cos she couldn't believe it.

(Ok, we took out ALLL our touch balls and replaced them with 1 basketball, 1 volleyball and 2 small spongey rugby balls)

I was a walking evidence of F = ma and P = F/A yesterday at training.

Large m contributes to large Force which results in High Pressure as the Area of my thumb is small small small. :( Painful. 

Oh, had Macs strawberry oreo mcflurry today. It was awesome! Like a strawberry sundae + oreo mcflurry. :D Yums. Thank you! :D