3glogy.

for the first time after buying my phone for 1year and 21 days,
I made a video call.
3g rocks! woohoo!
Fun with Weiyarnie(:

OH AM GEE.

So, I picked up a skill or two from the professional friendster stalker, and found something beautiful.

I clicked that very convenient button,
after much hesitation, for fear of the wrong impression.
But I did it anyhow.

And then minutes later,
"You have received a new message from Friendster."

Okay, go figure the rest of the story yourself.

WRESTLER

From Weiyarnie~

Your Wrestler Name Is...

Soul Sister Vendetta

What's" Your Wrestler Name?

Of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CELEST!

LAFS~

If you comment on this post,

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

I guess unlike Livejournal JIEN* posted hers on, you gotta tag, then I'll include it in the post?

And this is so lame, I'm in my room, my sis is in the living room, and we're talking on MSN. The convenience of technology, tsk. And the laziness of human. Hahh.

Sunshine, meet me soon for your rapture tickets! (:

A day of pleasant coincidental surprises. =D

I'm so in love.

Bumping into Qinks(: The coincidental bus ride home with Ah gong dearest and Gerald the Barney! :D

Bumping into grand dots coincidentally at Garden Macs.

When tuition stresses you til you go mad, and when studying bores you.

My lovely pitch twin, and my girl/partner to end my touch career.

go ahead, as you waste your days.

let's waste time ;

simply because blogger has been letting me down.

We're all in this together.

Well, we may be a 9 men team tomorrow, but we're 10 in hearts and souls.
I did my visualisations using Paint just now, but Blogger just doesn't allow me to upload images (again) So I guess it's good, cos I won't bore you with Touch Terms and the silly yet complicating moves we do.

Well, and I guess this is it.
To think, just one and a half weeks ago, we were still contemplating on continuing our touch career.
But like Joy said, let's end with an exclamation mark, and with no regrets, such that when we start studying, we wouldn't have "would"s, "should"s and "could"s haunting us.
Let's just make full use of whatever trainings we've been through and not let them go to waste.

After this, I promise oh-so-faithfully, I will go back to my long forgotten and neglected books/ notes.

Goodnight moon~

(Ps: Today, I learnt that I am independent, I want my friendships to be transparent, I aspire for a sweet fulfilling career, I am contented with my happy life, I don't have a high sex drive. Yeah, contradicts a little to what I learnt yesterday. Heh)

Let's re write an ending that fits.

Two days and I've not slept a wink
with these thoughts that I've been thinking.
This is the mark I aim to miss. (again)

You toss and turn, I lie awake,
into the sand were sinking.
Holding us back from breathing free (I'm done)

More than words you keep to yourself.
Like a curse that fares thee well.

One man came, one truth to tell.
All this blame, hammers your way to hell.

(Random parts from Mae, someone else's arms.)

**

Math Lect was spent playing Bejeweled Action style with Tag team mates Becca, and Star. and YESSS, we broke the top score to 1 million 100 thousand ++++
And we were so desperate for "pens" to tap the Dopod screen we used erasers. =D


LoyFatt stepped down today. I gotta admit, not having a badge MAY be equivalent to reducing your tendency to get a teacher's attention to catch you for something bad you're doing... but I do feel kinda weird without it. =
Btw, call me stupid/slow/ignorant, but how come I never knew those Team -insert school- jersey key chains were being sold for CIP by the teachers? ): I didn't get them, but nice ol' Piuzymiuzywiuzyliuzy gave me his. =D Well, not really cos he loved me or anything, but because he felt his was ugly and he didn't want it anymore. But yeah, I gotta admit. It really isn't.. pretty. But who cares la, I still like it. (To a certain extent)


During training today, I pulled some funny weird ass muscle again. Okay, not ass literally this time. But some weird muscle in my right thigh. Amelia says its the quads. Cos she's got it too. And I effing hate it. Wed's the match. And the worse thing is, I can't bend.
That means, I can't be an effective dummy half, I probably won't be able to do splits, and YES, I can't really run properly.
Okayyyyyyyyyyyy, lame shit. I shouldn't be boring you with these touch terms.

And after training today, I learnt that,

• I am a Lion
• I'm gonna marry an Elephant
• I am ready for a relationship
• My thinking is rigid
• I will have 4 closest bestest truest friends in my entire life
• My heart is made of glass
• I will have 3 relationships before I settle down
• On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest, I have a sex drive of 8.

**

And I learnt how to spell disappointment today. Nope, not d-i-s-a-p-p-o-i-n-t-m-e-n-t.
But with 6 alphabets.

Br&on starts school today. ):
Childdddhooooddiiieeeeeee! All the best for your (dreadful) second year in La Selle(:
Thanks for the phonecall :D

To the person who posted that entry,
I remember. (:

(I can't upload photos. GRR!)

Ronin @ the bay

Dearest Rioters,

RONIN will be performing an exclusive 2 hour set @ The Esplanade this Friday, 28th JULY, at the outdoor stage, from 7.30 to 9.30PM!. One hour will be dedicated to a quiet acoustic set of love songs, the other to a balls to the walls rock n roll showcase! Best of all? This show is completely FREE !! So bring your friends!! We'll see you there!

RONIN will be the official endorsers for the upcoming MOTOROLA's ROKR phone, soon to be released in August. So if you walk past a bus stop, and you see our butt ugly faces plastered over the adverts, give it a kiss or a slap and then head out to buy the new Motorola phone. It ROCKS!

We begin recording our second album in a week! We have big things planned for our newest upcoming baby, including an international online music portal! So stay tuned for mroe details on the upcoming album! We'll leak information along the way
Love ya all! See ya on Friday @ The Esplanade!

remember?

Nothing or noone will change anything between us.

=) Absolutely nothing.

Like the poet needs the pain.

My eyes still feel weary despite the minimal rest I had last night.
They're tired and they hurt and I'm struggling to keep them open.
But everytime I lay down or shut my eye, there is something yet to be solved that haunts me inside.

I know I shouldn't be running away, but that's the easiest way out I can find this time.
I'm taking things one at a time, and right now, my priority and most important thing to me is, definitely, Wednesday's SRU for we no longer have much time left to practise, train and build up our inflexible minds.

Addiction, is when you close your eyes and still see it around you.
JingBao, Celest, Star, is that happening to you too? I keep seeing Bejeweled jewels everytime I close my eyes. Haha.

And LoyFatt is stepping down tomorrow.
I'm sure my successor's gonna do great. (:

Oh @#$%&*$%@#
I've yet to write my SGC. Damn.

My birthday present from Bao Clique from New Urban Male.
Damn right they are.

"I hate your 'I don't know's."

This morning saw me reaching just on time for training but we still reported to the field late anyway.

This afternoon saw me playing touch with the combined j1s and j2s team against Blacks & NY Poly and me screaming at Celine and Steph and I feel AWFUL about it.

Early afternoon saw me receiving a message from the one I thought didn't care.
And chwee kueh and bubble tea with Yanns and Annabella.
And a train ride down from Toa Payoh with Rachel and Bev from NY Poly.

Three pm saw me going up the escalator to the bus stop outside Novena where I met Hubert who told me A.G.O just went down.

The whole afternoon saw me talking to an emotional stressed nervous scared (good, close) friend. With Raspberry Tea for company and boredom found in United Square.
It saw us avoiding Toys R Us cos it serves more as a reminder to AGO, than a distraction, and saw us entering the "Learning Loft" and orange chairs outside the Italian Language Centre.

The afternoon taught me you care.

The evening saw your departure to what you feared most.
The evening saw me meeting my DINGGY dear with Laksa for dinner.

730pm saw us in Toys R Us.
8pm saw us walking to the bus stop after a phone call that wanted me to go down to Dhoby but I was too tired.

Night saw me through half my Physics Nuclear Tutorial.
Midnight saw me through two teary phone calls.

I am going to sleep.

*

Dear Yarns, what you said yesterday has made an impact and it got me thinking. Then something happened...
And I don't like the sound of it.


I have never been able to resolve awkwardness. Put me in an awkward situation and I'd just run away. Avoid.
I can never seem to find the right words to say.
I wish I had a better way around with words.
'Cos what I meant to say never comes out how it should have, and it just makes things worse.
But then again, saying "I don't know" to "Don't you have anything to say?" doesn't seem to change matters at all.

Yeah, we're drifting.

*

"So many people around you seem to make you so much happier than I do"
It's ringing in my head.

TINOEIWRBW- moment.

(edited)

#MONDAY:

• library slacking with Ah gong, Khainam and Ah ma and I'm not gonna show you the photo on the ez link card
• Training with the team of 9 bodies but 10 hearts and souls. I love you; my Joya Bean, Esteesers, Qian Bing, Yann Pie, Anna Pie, Elzza, Samburger, Sinseng, Teh-cy. (I am Philli Fries!(: )

#TUESDAY:

• pretty lab experiments with Calistar over pH values of chemicals.
• Pirates 2 at Cathay after school and I got so restless I nearly fell asleep.

#WEDNESDAY:

• Training by the semi-d
• Bumping into Mama daoooooo
• Dinner at Changing Appetites where I got freezing cold and NICE Hr lent me his NEW sweater and he took that shot, btw.
• More than half the class turned up(:
• Happy birthday Vera, Amelia, Tong, Hui Wen, Pin Ying, Neri, Bing Quan, Prissie xiao shun.

(happy birthday nanny!)

#THURSDAY:

• Homed before training
• Friendly at Rj
• Tong came to find me(: [No Verns, I do not regret. And I think T's better!]
• Seeing Dearestest and Sheryl (chua)

#FRIDAY:

• Service learning prep
• Tag team for Bejeweled action game and breaking the high score with point soaring over a million
• Disgusting gazes
• Far East Chicken Rice
• Sunshine's present (we were coincidentally at Level One, Far East together!)
• Oh, when the Saints, Oh, when the Saints, Oh, when the Saints go marching in!
• LK at the Crabbypathy table with Yarns
• Mocktails! -Sexy style, Endless Love, Parfait
• Walking by some ulu dark streets to an isolated ATM machine

***

To MAngo geLato and maCritchie lOng Late Midnight walks,
You don't seem to care anymore. ): I know I have no reason to expect anything, that's why I will only say what I've been thinking here. If you cared, you'd see this.

More than a Memory.

Every night, I sleep with a few orange glowing stars by my bed, two pretty Helium balloons
(one of (reflective) silver and another of metallic blue with huge happy words of PHILIA and HAPPY BIRTHDAY spread across them respectively), a huge red heart balloon accompanied by 2 small white and pink heart shaped ones and an round orange one (personally blown up by Hash and Yarns), a hand made clay art work on top of my shelf, just in front of the big red star, a bouquet of hand folded flowers with PHIL above it on my shelf- they just make my dream so sweet.

Every meal I have, is accompanied by the 8 stalks of sunflowers+ 1 pretty big pink lily+ 1 pretty yellow daisy + 3 lovely peach roses, makes every meal a more than tasty one. Withering /withered, they may be, each stalk still holds a significance. (:

Just random.

**

Qn for the day:
Absence makes the heart ______________ ?
Choose between fonder and wander.

Joke of the day: Alcohol contains acid.
Hurhur.

Chasing cars.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

* SNOW PATROL.

i can see the perfect sky is torn.

I wish I took more photos on my birthday.

Happy birthday, Yew Wei! (:
See you later. (:


And to Wong JJ my slayer,
I'm so damn proud of you.
All the best for 1500 finals and Relay.

And Zoe grandots dearest,
Ahma loves you.
Go fight for top 4!
Proud of you too, dear.

And Nuer dearest,
Stagnant PB doesn't matter, okay?
Just do better than you did for heats. (:
You go, girl. 800!

:'(

this was how i felt for the last two hours of my friday night.

words can't say how disappointed i am with the two events that occured.

a picture paints a thousand words.

i hope you get the thousand words i wish to pen about how i'm feeling but can't find the right words to say.

well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it

should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you

(leeseefee)leeshearlimenchzechingKWA

Cancelling tuition 2 hours away from it and heading for an alternative plan of BEN & JERRY's with my beloved zideedoodadey is the best thing that can happen today. (:
(Okay, maybe falling asleep throughout tutorials and not getting caught at all is quite thrilling too)
Then we went for a second round of food spree down at Plaza Sing by the mini food fair. Though I must really say, that the cheese sausage was so plastic and the cheese oozed out from random spots of your sausage and not where you bite.
And that sharks fin soup tasted more like mushroom soup and we were so disappointed with it.

But her company just makes any bad day, a wonderful day; any disappointing food so satisfying.

I love you. (:

"If we're gonna take part, it's gonna be all 10 of us. No one's gonna be left behind."

So much to say, but so little time.
Guess before I gotta start re-setting my priorities and catching up on the more important stuff now.
And nope, it isn't on my work. But sleep.

The past three days (Monday til Wednesday) has been an like an emotional roller coaster. From extreme displeasure, agony and pain, to extreme awkwardness and uncomfortable-ness, to extreme sugar overload and pleasure (bumping into Yarns along the walkways of Taka) on Monday, to a surprises-filled, extreme joy/happiness/blessed 18th year old Tuesday, to me falling sick, to extreme indecision/dilemma, to I-can't-live-without-the-9-of-you, team teamtalk, to joy and comfort in one another, to HAPPYBIRTHDAY TO YOU in the midst of a conversation, to sm:)es and sinful chocolate stuff.

Thanks once again, for the wishes that were still coming today. Haha
Premature or Late, I still appreciate and love it. (:

On a heavier/sadder/more serious note,
I think we should really take some time off each day, and give thanks for the people around you.
Life is fragile, unexpecting. You never know what's in store for you, good or bad.

Just today, there was this confusion that worried us all, for her and her family.
But at the end of the day, we saw the light at the end of the tunnel.
It is dim, but who ever said a dim light can't become brighter?
All we need to do is, keep the faith, that this light won't go out on you.
This light, instead, will get brighter and brighter, with every step you take nearing the exit.
We pray, we hope, we keep the faith, we commit everything into God's Hands.
Though her family may not believe in Him.

We should really, never take those around you, and our life for granted.
It's a once in a lifetime thing, really.

Be strong. Though I know you won't see this.

SO BLESSEEEDDD.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

EVERY SINGLE ONE!

IN EVERY SINGLE WAY YOU CONTRIBUTED.

BE IT

• SMSING ME,
• CALLING ME,
• WISHING ME IN PERSON,
• TAGGING ON MY BLOG,
• MAKING SURE I HAVE MY BREAKFAST (healthy one too),
• BEING PART OF MY 18 GOD-SENT STAR ANGEL/FAIRY SURPRISE,
• COMING FOR THE SURPRISE PARTY (even though you know it might feeel very awkward),
• SHARING MY PRESENT, GETTING MY CAKE(S)/PRESENTS (class and everyone else),
• SINGING ME A BIRTHDAY SONG,
• SHAKING MY HAND,
• GIVING ME A SMILE,
• OFFERING ME A HUG,
• TRYING TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO COME FOR THE PARTY,
• BEING PART OF THE SURPRISE- class and everyone (even if it was accidentally telling me),
• LOCKING ME IN A (smelly) CUBICLE AND SHOVING SUNFLOWERS INTO MY HANDS,
• SPENDING TIME WITH ME,
• MAKING SURE I WAS HAPPY,
• CARRYING MY PRESENTS AROUND SCHOOL FOR ME,
• ENSURING I HAD A SM:)E ON MY FACE 24/7,
• LOVING ME,
• AND BEING A PART OF MY OH-SO-BLESSED LIFE.
  

I LOVE YOU ALLLL!

[WITH EXTRAEXTRA LOVE TO THE TWO VERY VERY DEAR(EST!) MASTERMINDS THAT SO SNEAKILY PLANNED THIS SPECIAL DAY ON THE 18TH YEAR OF MY LIFE.]

I am so very surprised, and lost for words.

My expressionless expression was not because I already knew, but because I was really shocked.

(: