bluesky skyblue

For the most UNobvious reasons,
I really like this picture.
Thanks aaaaaaammmmmmeeeeeeeeeeellllllllliiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaa! =D

Jien dear, WE, it's WE, WE, WE, who are the (censored) of the night!


I am enjoying my guitar solo by you know who right now. (:

Butterflies & Hurricanes.

So, gp down, phy p3 down, chem p2 down, math p1 down.

Shan't start on how terrible they have been, cos if you go to every j2's blog, their entries probably start with endless whinings about prelims.

Yay, now we all think part one is over.
But it just hit me that, part 2 is just a week away and it's not that long actually.

I watched the breakup today. Didn't really like it.

&
I'm very happy Chloe won Project Runway! =D

(another mindless entry)

My intellect thinks too highly of itself.

Yesterday, I learnt that there is ALWAYS an alternative to everything.
And last night, my alternative to MATH was sleep.
Com`on, double papers in a day. You definitely need the rest right?

But sitting infront of my Math PRELIM paper today, felt all too familiar.
It felt like BTONE all over again.
Skip this question, circle this part, flip the next page,
stone in your seat, let your eyes wander outside your classroom (I sit by the door)
blahblahblah.

Allow 3 hours to just breeze by you like that, when I'd honestly rather spend the time doing my chemistry for tmr. Because right now, I am convinced that it isn't wise to skip Ionic Equilibrium at all.

FYI, I got 15 for Blocks one.
this shirt is sooo cool. haha
but doesnt haemoglobin have an a?

Without sour, sweet wouldn't taste.

A dark congregation of familiar faces gathered around the quiet earth

A red rose fell upon the soft snow, prayers were whispered so slow from our mouths

Our breath rose in the cold like a hundred souls escaping

Just random song lyrics that are playing.
Today has been frustrating.
With more communication breakdowns that we already promised to work on but somehow to no avail, or maybe an insignificant amount.
Math is a Motherf.

I'm finally understanding how it feels like to be suffocated,
how gasping for air actually isn't much help at all.

How do you spell exhausted?

Save me, I am swallowed by the guilt of this

You're gone, sleeping in the dust

We will not let time erase us

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All right, I am officially hating that college with double alphabets in their school initials cos I've tried their Phy/Chem/Math paper and ALL of them have problems.

Plus, really weird questions, really weird answers and demoralising questions.

Bloody hell.

Goodnight.

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A Dark Congregation.

#1: Another signifance to our common identity. Hoho. Guess which belongs to who! (: Kinda obvious which is mine though.
#2: leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzeching in a very jumbled up order. (:

The day out with the other two was great. Garden Macs is definitely the place to go if you're a paedophile cos every few seconds, there are CUTE little kids (with their parents/granparents) that come in for ice cream or a meal. It's also a good spot if you wanna spy on how your felow juniors have been doing/ check out how terrible their attire/behaviour is. And it's perfect for one who likes observing people too cos all sorts of weird things happen there, like this girl with her boyfriend who sat at a corner of Mac with a perpetual black face the whole time they spent there which couldn't stop Seef laughing.

I love how three of us go through so much together. And how we don't have to meet very often or talk all the time to still be close. I think this is really a higher order of friendship. And you know what I think keeps THIS going like this? It's TRUST. A simple word, with a larger than life meaning. We may not always be talking, or at least Feiiers is more "away" cos she's in a different college, but WE know that we always have each other's back. There's always these other 2 strong pillars of support should you, the third one, ever crack.

I probably said this a million times already, but it really is how it is. And I really do love the simplicity yet complications of this friendship. (:

#3: While playing with the visualiser during Physics, they froze it and this was the picture. Hubert's mouth, and Gary&YongRui in the bg, just in case you can't see cos the picture's pretty faint.

#4: Crabs4lyfe! (The crabby on the right has braces, fyi) An afternoon/night out spent with my craabbbyyyy. With pumpkin spice from starbucks to food court's western food to mouth-chattering-cold Cold storage's fish keropok (!) and EEEEW YUCK, who did we just seee?

I woke up from a nightmare this morning again. Similar to the previous one. But I didn't pray about it this time. And GAWWWWWWWWD, it felt soooooooo real. I don't even remember what woke me up.

someday we'll know.

LEESEEFEELEESHEARLIMENCHZECHINGKWA is good quality time.
How I miss those days.
Now we have one more new thing to associate all three of us together(:

Can you believe that usually, I'm the one skipping school but now when everyone is, I'm faithfully attending it. Oh, well done, Phil. Hur.

ARGUMENT = CLAIM + REASON.

Because talking's just a waste of breath,

and living's just a waste of death.

fuck you, liar and deceiver.
for all the efforts i put to waste.

Sugar high, sugar rush. Skittles make you fat like a brush.

Is a brush even fat? Okay, that's lame.

I spent my sunday watching HBO, like a potato couch. (Isn't it supposed to be couch potato?) And I was eating potato chips. ):
Twisted Desire, Baby sitters club (grow up, phil, i know!), Series on Unfortunate events, and 50 First Dates.

WLE.

And right now, the days to the big P has reduced to single digit already. Omg.
SIX DAYSSSS.
Physics is the first paper and I'm barely halfway.

And I spent some childhood reliving moments at the playground yesterday! (: Sitting on the see-saw, though I really was too big for it.

Okay, I should just stop complaining. This entry is really mindless.
Maybe it's stress relieving. Oh, what the hell.

leeseefeeleeshearlimenchzechingkwa remedy later!
YAY :D

Btw, 3G ROCKS. I had a half an hour 3G conversation on Sunday. Haha. (Shit, damn ex know)

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My mouth ran dry,
my tongue got tied.
I can't seem to get the words out right.
You question, we doubt.
We argued about.
I avoided, You said,
Let's get this straight.
The past to clear,
why should we fear?
We'll talk one day,
before things go astray.
We'll rewrite this wrong,
so it'd be right from now on.

Like a decomposing rose.

Last night, I dreamt of Ronin.
All thanks to the email, and the conversation I had with Hr.
Do you know, what that means? Hurhur.

I was reading Dearest's blog, where there are double bloggers, and I'd like quote something not posted by her.

"No matter how one detest change, we cannot avoid them. It's like a vicous cycle we all yearn to break. There is no way to make people like change, but you can make them feel less threatened by it. Times, people, things change but we change with them."

People change, but at a different frequency as yourself.

Then again, there are some who never change what ought to be have changed.

This trust needs to rebuilt again, but somehow this TRUST, has become TRUST.

This is how much my solid one, has faded into a nearly non existent one.

leftyyyy =D

To my dearest little boy, that I always play mind games with, nag at to study (and I'm still gonna do it cos I don't want you to enjoy an additional year at the new compound), whom I share two common traits with- braces and being a LEFTY (which I would say, we're quite proud of, right?),

HAPPY SEXAYE 17th BIRTHDAY. (:

(I wonder if you'll see this. Haha. Hope your parent-meet-tutor meeting went all right(: )

My reply to your letter addressed to P.(for pain)

HOUR GLASS

"Hourglass"

As we sift through the hour glass
We realize that an hour's passed
And not a person here is innocent
We're both as guilty as a sin

It must have rained all through the night
The tires just couldn't grip right
So I took another long sip
And wiped away my chapped lips

This is how it ends
We believe every lie and say we'll be friends
How long will it last
Before we scratch all the scripts and we rework the cast

As the hour met the minute hand
We kept racing through this foreign land
With no direction or a telephone
Together we were all alone

That's when the puzzle was finally pieced
We compromised until our bodies seized
To some we seem like colder creatures well
We were warm until we went to hell

Cast the first stone
Lets pretend that we don't have a
Past the worst one
Forbid forget forget that you exist

*THE HUSH SOUND

someday, somehow.

8 Pages
16 Sheets.
A beautiful scar;
all too familiar?
A painful goodbye.
One I never got to say.
One I heard too late.

Like the roses need the rain,
like the poet needs the pain,
like the seasons need the change.

*

Singapore's deaf. But thank God Jon Leongs safe :D

SHAWN; bare with the smelly pigs/cows/goats/sheep nearby yeah. Smelly farms. hahaha. Dinner soon, yup :D

Of summer's kiss.

and I will leave under the cover

Of summer's kiss upon the sky

Like the stone face of your love

Just before she says goodbye

I was certain that the season could be held between my arms

Well just as summer's hold is fleeting

I was here but now I'm gone,

I'm gone.

Phil (Fill) my little world.

Why is chestnut called chestnut?

Because last time, some dude swallowed some seed til the nut grew out of his chest.

-

"Hey, I like walnuts!"
"Oh, I like ceilingnuts and floornuts!"

**

GUESS WHO I BUMPED INTO WHILE HAVING DINNER YESTERDAY?

My dearest.

**

I'm sorry I never had the chance to salvage anything at the lastest minute.
I'm sorry I've let you down, thrown the past 1month and ten days to waste,
I've not appreciated time,
I let my other stuff override your importance.
You won't even reply to tell me what time your flight is.
You won't even reply, when I said take care.
Now, you're gone for good.
I'm sorry, I never proved you wrong, that I do care despite how estranged everything feels.
I'm sorry, we never got to exchange any last words.
I'm sorry I only met you once, a month ago.
Bon Voyage, and really, take care there.

Mommy, mommy. I can't wait for you to be back, really.

Don't stop dancing.

Ten random things before I sleep:

#1: Someday you'll know should be permanenty deleted from every playlist
#2: Yay, Brandon!(: (For every smile-worthy reason for you and for me)
#3: You have no privacy at all, when you're sharing a room with your sister.
#4: I love carbonyl compounds, hate arenes.
#5: I bumped my afternoon away, watching Alfie (a little la, I found it too saddening to continue) and sleeping.
#6: My tao huay was somehow, really sweeeet today. Eee.
#7: I wanna go run.
#8: I feel like eating Kit Kat. ):
#9: Congratulations.
#10: I don't want to, simply because I feel there is no need, and I have no reason to.

Oh yeah, before I forget.
HI SHAWN!! LONG TIME NO SEE! (: Nice bumping into you yesterday. And thanks for making sure I got on the train even before you did, though you already missed 3. Haha.
Let's go night patrolling one day around our neighbourhood soon okay! See you around, Mr Friendly Neighbourhood Policeman! HAHA!

And for some EXTREMELY funny reason, this is the songs played THOUGH my playlist is on shuffle:

• clocks- coldplay
• yellow- coldplay
• don't wait- dashboard confessional
• someday we'll know- new radicals
• jumper- bedlight for blue eyes
• Feel like rain- Motion city soundtrack
• Forever love- X japan

OMG SHIT. It's the 14th ALREADY? Wah, die.

Can you take me higher? To a place where Blind men see.

I woke up very earlyearly this morning from a short 3 hour sleep to go down to Newton to meet the CHEN family. (:
Sat through Service, about Gentleness.
And Sunday school, where Joyce's Mom was the Sunday school teacher,
and we learnt about Joseph.
And how Joseph was able to interprete the cup bearer's, the baker's and the Pharoah's dreams very accurately.
What touched me most, was how he was able to give all glory unto God, and not let the fact that his Father up above is what helps him do everything that he is able to.

QT talked about burdens, and forgiveness. But it hasn't sunk into me yet. So yeah.

Lunch at THEORIGINALHOCKLAMSTREET Beef noodles (YUM:D) and we all thought HOCKLAM was the Father's name, but yeah, silly us. It's actually the street name.
Yarns is really blessed with a lovely close knit family(: and I was blessed too, to have the privilege to an entire morning with them. (:

1 thing I really admired is how the car is never quiet throughout the entire journey.
That's one thing mine will never be.
Unless we're quarrelling. HAHA

Then we had a conversation on whether the significance of the different people you think of at different times are different. (uh, get it?)
Like, who do you think of when you're happy?
Who do you think of when you're sad?
Who do you think of when you're angry?
Who do you think of when you're lonely?
And who do you think of despite your company.

I believe, the people you think of at different times, all mean something different.
I don't think there is a "most important" person, but I'm sure there will be some of greater importance than another.

Anyhow, thank you crabby (and weishan weijie wei 'an, auntie&uncle chen) for the wonderful morning to a SUNday -insert plenty of sunrays and smiles-


From I-feel-sorry-for-you, it has grown to you're-just-lying, to please-make-up-your-mind, to anger and shut-up-cos-I-dont-wanna-hear-your-damned-regrets.

To my dearest friends who make one of the most loving couple; (Z&T), thank you two dearests! (:

(I saw this from Candice's blog and I wanted to do it too so here goes!)

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

HOW COME SHE GETS TO LAUGH TO DEATH BUT I DON'T. UNFAIR EH.

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

philicia -- [noun]: A poltergeist sent back in time to change the course of history forever 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

She will be loved.

Yoohoo, fireworks with my favourite orange lover- PONG(:
Though it was very last minute, and very rush and very kan chiong and very sweaty and very blocked, I loved every minute of it (:

Have a break, have a Kit Kat.

It's like dying two days before your birthday,
like falling two steps from your finishing line,
like failing two marks from the passing grade,
like missing two stops to your final destination.

It's like ice cubes melting two degrees away from its melting point,
like snowing two days before it's winter,
like buying two days before the sales,
like trailing two years behind your lover. (lakehouse, haha)

The loss of it all,
is like dropping two m&ms from a packet of peanut buttered ones.
Like everything described, two minutes from bedtime.

Thrown into a cyclone of doubt.

I feel like it's a talk-less-more-photos day so it's a random post with random pictures.
Tuition yesterday with LuLing & Zi was a day of doodling more than listening.

My shirt from Feiiers, Amelia, Sheryl, Alicia.

I drew the third. So random and ugly. But I was bored and lacked inspiration. Zi did the rest.

This is my uncool friend. And his coolest uncool pose.

Math test in the LT today was like an open discussion/open book test where everyone was frantically discussing and copying one another's answers. Chem test, however, was a total twist. With LL constantly sitting behind us, and teachers screaming at you infront of everyone else, it was serious stuff, man.

Btw, the POOR (P)CME people had a test marathon, (P)CM people had jog-a-thon and the (P)ME people had a test walk-a-thon, as concluded by caliSTAR and I. hoho.

My orange gerbera from Luling to cheer me up (: It's really pretty.My fellow july baby who went "Don't worry, I understand how you feel. I'm a July baby too."
Yep, my ding dearest. (:A picture of PARTNERS(: That's me planting the ball SQUARE ON and MY GIRL being my dummy half. (:
Oh~ Sweet Touch Memories.

And before I end today's rather mindles entry,
I just wanted to say Hi to Gary Wxw and Lydia. (:
Simply because I never knew they read (not that I am supposed to know all my readers) but since I do now, let me say hi (: