Backdate to July 30, 2008,
where I quoted: "I need you, but it always seems the more i need/want you , the more u drift away"


Can I throw it right back at you today?

A Long Time.

I'm really tired of travelling, from home to school and school to home.
From hall to hall, room to room.
Why do I have a feeling this will just go on til the last week of the sem?


Recess week is over, just like holidays past with the blink of an eye.
I'd say it was .... blissful. With achievements, good news, and lot of love from all corners.


One midterm CA down today, three more to go.

"My Love Is All I Have To Give."

If I could, I'd put Monday on Repeat Mode.
With a little alterations here and there; like:

• replacing the morning with Tuesday's, and how I was pleasantly woken up from my sleep.
• replacing bedtime with last night though I threw a midnight tantrum
• replacing the weather with breeeeeeeeeezy. :D

Nothing beats a homecooked meal with your loved ones,
and ice cream for dessert.
And us making ondeh ondeh together with Mommy. (:


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Here's to another weekend, entirely consumed by Touch. =(

No Pain, No Gain.

Peanut slab from aussie from jean when she came back :D

Kiddo's swiss.otel mooncake which she left in the fridge when she came over to hall but I wasn't in, hahahah.

The last of the Seventh Comm.

Chee.kychocolate
12 pieces of guilt (:

OUR PHOTO IS FINALLY ON THE WALLLL!

New boots and, new laces!

PS: What I've been trying to prevent the whole week; injuring of the other ankle, actually happened during the warm up of S.unig. How mother unlucky. I think the tiong is of extreme bad luck to me, everytime she shifts back something bad will happen.
But anyhoo, I'm stubborn. Tried jogging it off, got it taped and cold sprayed before every game, sucked it up and played. Now it's as swollen as my left ankle (grrrrrrr) and it hurts reeaaal bad. =(

PPS: But whatever the pain, it was worth it. We kept our title; S.UNIG CHAMPIONS YO!

zero conceded touch downs as targeted. Sudden death or not, a win is a win. (:

Have Heart.

I've had an insane week, bitch fits from the fucking roomie (no, E.li).
The war is now on. Really want to burn her panties, bra, clothes, shoes and things.
Ultimate slut of the century without a doubt. =(

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Met Yanns and Wenzhen for lunch on Tues. Made the B.ishanclub girl travel all the way to westside B.oonlay for meee. =D Thank you, Yanns. It was short but awesome (as always) nonetheless.

D came over on Wed to save the swollen-eyed Phil with a box of 12pc C.heekychocolates! :D Love you please. And she spent 2 hours doing nothing watching me study. (: Heh
PS: I KNOW HOW TO DO THE P6 MATH QN ALR. HAHAHAH

Then a very silent dinner at Cry.stal Jade... plus An.derson's icecream (not that nice =( )

Ca on thursday was insane. So was the entire day. First W pangsehed us and G was hopping mad.
Training was alllllrightttt, taped both ankles cos I kiasi. Heehee
Then after training there was 445389 missed calls and 324830 messages from the distressed Roomie and bitch C.roomie. Had dinner in a semi-closing canteen and received 3267 more calls cos I forgot about FOC interview (YAY, CP!) and they were waiting for me so I rushed down from Cant2 to CantA without even finishing my food....
(PS: Dinner was pretty agonising having to put through with the conversation......)


Then returned to Room with 1+1+1+1 t.iongs. Buy 1 get 3 free, thanks. Not like I even bought any to start with. And what's worse they fucking wore their shoes in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nabeh CB I SWEAR. I was so so soooo mad, you don't fucking clean the floor yet you bring your friends and wear their shoes in!!!!! Ultimate CBK, I went to speak to the Hall Prof like IMMEDIATELY and refused to return to the room. Waited for Eli to end cheer and we packed and left while the intruder decided to shower. ARGHHH.

N.tl on Friday again, 10-4. Both Capt. Sissy and I agreed we played better last week. Maybe it's the new addition of individualistic players. Oooohwelllssss. Ref-ed the next game, and koped a Jumbo Pack of gummies again. (: Yes, it brings a whole new meaning to the term "Sugar Daddy". Heh.
Had dinner with Ek and Angie at AMK where we listened/shared childhood stories til past midnight without realising. Ultimate.

Finally, bye week for W.tl. Just the right time so we get to rest for SU.niG tomorrow. =)
Finally, bought my new pair of booots! (White and maroon, simple yet pretty. Unfortunately, a nike pair cos nothing else caught my eye)

Ok, dinner time at Bo.takJones. (Super unwilling to waste my time queueing actually.....)

I am so sorry for the excessive vulgarities that reflect so badly on myself but it's seriously beyond toleration!
URGHH. Speaking about it makes my blood boil.

PPS: Still yet to cut hair cut hair!

Lavender Love; The Perfect Gift For Someone You Love

(bluetooth isn't working so can't post photos of the pretty box!); Cheeky chocolate delivery. (:


D, I Love Youuuuuu! (though you're sitting right next to me now)

"I'm sorry you didn't know in the past"

So angry so mindfucked so tired so distracted I just feel like deleting everything burning my notes burning her underwear........
just. so. pissed.

Tonight, I've Fallen And Can't Get Up.

I haven't cried so hard,
so much,
in such a long time.
Fuck B.eij.ing Ai and all else related from that c.ountry.

So damn tired,
so much to do/STUDY,
so much on my little mind. =(


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And just before bedtime, I saw this on my igoogle:

John 14:1-3 :
"Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also. And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know."


Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled.

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Impossible To Find.

gaycutie. says (11:43 PM):
well you done done me and you bet i felt it
i tried to get you but you're so HOT that i melted

skin on skin says (11:43 PM):
haha
skin on skin says (11:43 PM):
are you singing to me?
skin on skin says (11:43 PM):
orrr ?

gaycutie. says (11:44 PM):
arent you phsix_(..@hotmail.com)?
skin on skin says (11:45 PM):
yeahhhhhhh

gaycutie. says (11:45 PM):
yeah then. not you then who else.... -.-
skin on skin says (11:47 PM):
hahahaha
skin on skin says (11:47 PM):
how i know
skin on skin says (11:47 PM):
maybe you copied it from someone who said it to you? heh

gaycutie. says (11:47 PM):
NO.
gaycutie. says (11:48 PM):
only i will sing it t ppl. ppl wont sing it t me
gaycutie. says (11:48 PM):
heh
skin on skin says (11:48 PM):
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gaycutie. says (11:49 PM):
oh wait, not ppl. i only sing it t yoooooooooo
skin on skin says (11:50 PM):
yayyy <333
gaycutie. says (11:50 PM):
((:


lubbyewww. =)

Be Still, My Heart.

Happy Birthday, Jean and Carmen!

So anyway, besides the fact that Carcar went home, birthday sabo was smooth and easy. (: Not exactly easy since a struggling dead-weighted Jeannette is extremely heavy, but we were too caught up to think of complicated big sabo plans. Thank God for nature (rainy days hence wet mud puddles), and with a little ice and water, it goes a long way. (:


Training today was bad; apart from the extremely last minute change in venue, so many should-not-haves were done.
I think I need to sit myself down in a corner and talk it through.
Sometimes it gets frustrating, I let it consume me subconsciously, even out of the pitch.



PS: The ankle hurts again. =(

Everybody Is Yearbooking Themselves.

Really like the Auntie who sweeps my corridor every morning (:
She's so sweet, she aligns our shoes neatly just outside our door, and smiles everytime we walk past.
Anyway the corridor is always very clean that I (quite a clean freak especially regarding cleanliness of the floor) can walk around barefooted outside and not mind (:

Finally, it's the last week of school before Midterm break!
Can't wait for the break, with lotsa itenary all lined uppp,
but not forgetting I should spend 50% of my time studying. =(
Sigh, the life of a student; when was studying ever left out?
As G says, "Don't forget that ultimately your purpose of coming to school is to study, and not ... (touch)"


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Weekends were spent 80% on touch. The other 10 on S, and family.
Nt.l was... , I don't know, different? As much as we hate to admit it, sometimes friends do not make the best working partners. It was a good game nonetheless, considering we have never trained together as a team, we are totally unsure of our moves, and we come from different playing styles and backgrounds. With more training, I'm sure we'd be intimidating Sharkies.

Another Weekend of Wet saturday afternoon at Wt.l (hahaha aliteration). Bad field conditions, but it's no excuse. Right? Coach says expect this type of field conditions come Sunday for Su.nig but but but , it's really tiring to run when the field has this ultimate suction power....... =(
We won but it was a crap win. (At least I think so... =( 4/10 for me. )

Thank God for skins, I wasn't too muddy. But still, mud-smelling. =(


Less than 20 hours later, I found myself back at the same place......
Turfcity = third home. Youth training was awesome without the PT. It was never been this slack, we didn't even learn moves! Hate being all muddy and smelly without a proper place to shower though. Arghhhh. But even with just all the Attack/Defence shit, I've grazed knees and elbows, which really hurt.... =((
Seef made durian mooncakes so I went over to tryyy after training =D

So anyway, think I've probably recovered from the gastric flu (:
Ate durian mooncakes and ice cream over the weekend already :D
(S & I swiped out an entire pint of ONE Cheesecake Brownie ice cream from B&J's. Scary)

And We proclaim ourselves Sportiest couple of the Month/Year parading the neighbourhood in skins. =)

"Sigh.... Philly lim....."

Really random picture of a random training but I really like itttt. (:

Though pretty badly blurred, we were imitating guitar rockstars if you can see. Heh. Yeahhhh!

Think Angie and Sijie got the pose best! (:

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Yesterday, we headed to B.oonTongK.ee for dinner (!!!!) . But all I had was half a bowl of plain porridge and 2 pieces of Egg Tofu. And half a cup of warm barley. =( So tragic.

Woke up this morning and Mom said the fever has subsided, good news.

But lunch was 5 meatballs and a little tunghoon. Sad, sad. Gimme back my appetite.

When I get well, I'm gonna eat........

1. ICE CREAAAAAMMMM! - Haagen Dazs, Cold rock, Island Creamery, Ben & Jerry's. Either, whatever! Just give me ice cream.
2. Durian Mooncakesssssss. Just saw more in the freezer today! (G.oodw.oodPark Hotel yo!)
3. TOM YAM SOUPPPPPP.
4. Drink Bubble Tea/ Honeydew Soya Bean Milk from CanB
5. Whatever I'm craving for when I've recovered.

=))

Diagnosis: Stomach Flu, Fever.



Spent the whole night tossing, cold sweating, puking, running to the toilet, waking people up.

It was my longest and most miserable night ever, and time never ever seemed to crawl this slowly. Even time spent at the dentist felt faster than this. =(

Spent the entire of today in bed. =( Going home tonight, coming back tomorrow for training (doubt I can train though), but please please please let me recover by Friday so I can playy...

Welcome Home, My Love.

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Shirt reads: ABCDEDG : A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl

GFEDCAB: Girl Forgot Everything Done & Catches new Boy Again

W.enlong says: "I bought this shirt from B.angkok then got typo... I didn't realise until Jo told me. So paiseh."

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Deathmatch Score Tally:

End of Day1:
G: 2 cookies consumed,
P: 1 cookie consumed.

NOOOO I'm losing and it's all CHUACHONGKIAT'S FAULT. =(



Ps: I like days in school like this where we just laugh everything off, and joy is found in the simplest things. =)

"The Boat Will Sail You Home."

Training today was video session:
Accompanied by an extra large packet of Minties, Mars Pods, and a 50g bar of Peanut chocolate each all from Aussie, with love from Jean,
we caught 3 games; one very very badly defeated, another disappointingly performed, and the third pretty awesomely played. =)

Pretty psyched up for S.UNIG.
My coach is an outstanding one, and my team is a Champion Team!

Anddddddd, we had B.oonlay P.ower N.asiLemak for dinner todayyyy! =D Xiaopang drove us outtt. =))

Ps: THE ROOM IS FINALLY OURS!
Pps: Roomie love, reclaimed. =))
Ppps: No touch shoes. =(((

The Dynamic Duo.

zQ said:
but u and s.haochun were a kick-ass team

skin on skin said:
hahaha really?


zQ said:
u and s.hao chun both brought alot of laughter to the tense times.. ur energies which i saw in IH was.. one of a kind.. =) it was.. just very diff from the other halls =)


Thank you, My Dear President for the wonderful 7th Comm; You were, and still are an awesome Pres.
Thank you, My Dear Sports Sec for making the bestest out of what it could be.

3words/8letters, &I'myours.

The Pact:
For three days,
G not to be bitchy,
P not to swear.
The tempt: Subway cookie for the winner.



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Weeekends; hate how they come and go so quickly each time.

Caught Wall e on Friday. Absolutely loveeee it. (: Really awesome how, with that little speech, emotions and thoughts were put across. A really really heartwarming film (:

Longjohn breakf then W.tl on Saturday under the sun (finallyyy)! Played an extremely tiring match with yoU.w.c and drew 2-2. Disappointing =(
Thought both teams were really foul, screaming at each other and the refs. I remember limping out and telling a ref off in her face, then hobbling to Greg for ice. Extremely bad attitude, plus we're gonna be team mates. =S

Physio thereafter, where I learnt my still-swollen-after-two-weeks ankle is going to take a month or two for recovery, and isn't a sprain, but something like a misfit joint. =(
Good news is, training may resume but need to tape tape tape. Which reminds me, need to get more strappal! =(

Oh, and while waiting for my parents at Macs, for the first time in my 20 years,
I met and greeted the 4 characters of M.acD.onalds! Ronald, the Hamburglar, the Birdie, and the Purple-thingy. Pretty cool. Didn't manage to catch a shot of them though =( I was too caught up with my ice cream cone. Heh.


Sunday; too sick to get out of bed (almost) the whole day. Had to skip N.t.L training early in the morning. Eternally guilty (since it starts this Friday) but don't quite have a chance cos I'm probably not in the condition to train either.
Hence, wasted the day in bed, zero work completed over the weekends.




Phil is counting down to recess weeek.

Dancing with Demons Of Doubt.

On the way back to hall today,
I was so focused on what laid ahead, I almost tripped over a protruding brick.
Is that how we are in life too,
when you're so focused on the future, you neglect what's right under your nose: the more important issues you should be tackling now..
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Yesterday was the final hours of my commitment to hall, the "Oh-aRe-Dee" moment they call it; Investiture. Packed with bittersweet emotions, I took our appreciation plaque and left. Couldn't bear to stay for dinner.
The only thing missing was my Sports sec or the whole thing would have felt more complete, like a proper official closure. It would have been nice.


Today,
A wet day spent at: breakf with clique, shopping cum lunch with G the bislu/slubi, dinner with Kiddo.
They are what I go to school for. (:

PS: Effective Comm/Tech Comm are the bane of my Uni Education. >=(
PPS: Phil wants to go home and eat durian mooncakes, haha.

The Beauty & The Tragedy.

Watch your step, love is broken
I am every tear you cry
Save your breath, your heart has spoken
You already have my life

For I am finding out that love will kill and save me
Taking the dreams that made me up
And tearing them away
But the same love will take this heart that's barely beating
And fill it with hope beyond the stars
Only love

Another day, another sunrise
Washing over everything
In its time, love will be mine
The beauty and the tragedy

For I am finding out that love will kill and save me
Taking the dreams that made me up
And tearing them away
But the same love will take this heart that's barely beating
And fill it with hope beyond the stars
Only love
Only love, love, love

For I am finding out that love will kill and save me


-Trading Yesterday

Cookie Stealer Thief.

I dread school, but I always give myself something to look forward to so the weekends will seem like they're nearer.

Thursdays.
It has always been my favourite day of the week (for now til 2nd Oct, at least).
Basically because there is only 1hour of recorded lesson (aka can afford to skip and make up for it another time),
we have looooooong common breaks,
And there's training.




But somehow along the week, the happy thoughts are always put out by things we can't control.
Such that, I'd pretty much rather be left alone.
I guess this week is no exception.