Monstrous Disastrous!

As promised we've got our V.ermonster treat on Wed(:

After lunch at this pasta place in W.heelock, we headed down to D.empsey where we waited close to an hr for coach to go home to find her wallet and come back down again.

20 scoops ftw!! Played some game among ourselves and found out more about each team mate(:

Then we headed down to catch the last rounds of Polite and joined S for dinner at Rafflescity BK where I bumped into pals from 13 who said, "pretend you didn't see me."

Whichever works. (:

Shallow Lives.

I hate the aftermath of a bad, weird dream.

But after I'm over the shock and I'm back in reality, I always wonder how and where these bad dreams surface from.

By the way, I'm currently hating life. Hate how I only have a pair of hands and 100000 things to do. Hate how I've to wake up to an sms from whoever about whatever whichever and I can't go back to sleep cos I must get out of bed to settle it asap. Hate how I need to run from place to place to meet people to get things. Hate how I have too much initiative sometimes. Hate how I keep complaining. Hate Fridays.

ROAR.

Want school to start.

I Melt In The Sun Like Sugar In Water.

Ever since I fell ill last week, everytime I step under the sun, I get this contracting feeling in my head.

And everytime I'm made to run a little harder than I can, I get this nauseous feeling in my tummy.

G made me realise a while ago that school is starting in 2 weeks.

Paradoxical feelings; I'm quite tired of holidays. (haha what a joke) Somehow, school gives you a direction, a focus. Though yes, 5/7 days I'm cooped up in PulauBoonlayNTU but ohwell, I guess it beats travelling there now 3/7 days for training bright and early.

Bad; I'm so desperate for my holiday and I know it's coming =) But when something comes it means it's going to end and school is starting.

A paragraph full of contradictions but with the significant changes made to my uni life with effect of this commencing semester, I don't know if I should be excited or worried.

J once told me, "Time doesn't past quickly. It only feels like it did when it's over because it already happened"

How true.

Yesterday, I was denied sleep after training and got dragged to Partyworld when I don't sing. So I got conned of sixteenbucks where I was semi upset. Then to accomodate us, they (FOC main comm!) let us slot in English songs which they knew too but it doesn't seem as fun as when they yell into the microphones alongside their favourite Chinese music. =((

W.araku-ed for dinner and ZM had swollen, cracked lips after 4 hours of emotion-filled serenading.

Whatever happened?

Last night, like a constant haunting, I couldn't fall asleep.

My mind drifted from thought to thought like a monkey swinging branches.

It felt surreal though; I think I've been reading too much HarryPotter.

Then just when I fell into a semi unconscious state, I suddenly woke up, face soaked in tears.

I had an insanely massive headache; it felt like needles piercing through the left side of my skull and someone was stitching. It wouldn't go away. I didn't dare get out of bed for fear of fainting (which has happened before). It was unbearable and I eventually got up and woke Mommy, who then fed me panadol and rubbed some medicated oil.

She said I was burning again.

Then I continued sobbing as Mommy put me back into bed and said, "Don't go for training tomorrow."

It was miserable and I hope it doesn't happen again tonight. =(

Take Me On A Trip I'd Like To Go Someday.

I am 21.

It definitely doesn't feel like it. Didn't need the party poppers and streamers to acknowledge that, nor the redefinition of rules I am now entitled to break.

As always, simplicity is supremacy. I would not deny things felt different with S' absence. Having a bunch of guys sing "Happy Birthday" was honestly a tad bit awkward and weird too.....

Then camp. And trainings. And xlb buffet.

BAO met on Monday to celebrate A-meee-learrrr's twentyfirst with the much anticipated XLB buffet.

Poor service aside, the xlb were very much substandard. We also ordered the worst choice of MALA soupbase which killed all of us. I felt my throat burn and head spin. At that moment, I knew I was gonna fall sick. :( We wanted to go for durians but I received an SOS call from S which disrupted plans.

I guess that was a blessing in disguise otherwise I'd have been more sick than I already am.

Caught Pol.ite games despite the splitting headache and leaking nose..

But I forced myself to recover so I can play on Wed(:

Wednesday was fffuuunnn. =) As posted earlier, now Coach owes us Vermonster(:

Then just as I thought I've fully recovered from flu, I got hit by fever.

But it only happened when I was already out- Met the W.antoks teammies for lunch at Swensens(: Then dessert at BenJerry's(:

It was a nice time of get together after so long, and nice to see everyone again. (Considering we used to see each other twice a week during season)

Left for Pol.ite again, which we were half an hour late, almost missing an entire match. :\

Got home, took my temperature, had lotsa medicine forced down.

And I finally woke up at 2pm after the interruptions with a growling tumtum cos I haven't eaten in almost 24hours.

So things have turned and as expected, things have changed.

I'm not inflexible; after all I've been through. But I will not say I've the best reactions to changes. Of course, all takes time to adapt, to adjust.

Now I'm just dreading this first far away weekend.

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And today, went to support Su/Siti/Senior-Toks at the Women's Contact game between B.ucks and B.lacks. Though we ended up talking among ourselves half the time, the tries that game through were still some pretty awesome ones. And sonnybaby broke her nose. It was like deja-vu all over again when it happened to S almost exactly a year ago. Except this time, there were alot more tears, and I was allowed close to her and could hold her hand.

Poor Su, you'll be fine k. Mama loves you and the surgery is not as scary as it sounds. (:

Another Beginning.

Like incorrect pieces of a jigsaw, I can't quite string my thoughts together lately.

But for now, rest rest rest.

37.9degreecelsius.

4-3,4-2, 4-3 to them.

We lost but hey, we scored 8! WOOHOO

VERMONSTER FTW! YUMYUMYUM.

I knew we could do it. YAHOOO!

sick but totally ready to kick ass and score that 3 touchdowns for ice cream! :D

go team!

POSTCAMP

Left for camp with a little bit of regret, got through the days hoping for Friday to come quicker.

With very little sleep, (I can count the total hours with my two hands), a lot more disagreements, a lot of hardwork, infinite naggings and lotsa hiccups, we got through the days, we survived.

With a lot of surprise good food (Xinwang porridge on Monday from Chu! Cinnamon melts with Junx and Rah on Tues! Two cups of Koi on Wed + sushi at night from G! More cinnamon melts on Thurs!) But with everything comes sacrifice, I barely ate dinner on certain nights :(

Camp was all about flexibility, and not preparation as somehow, somewhere Log would misplace something, we would run out of blindfolds, we cannot find 4 chairs, etc. At 5am, we were staring at our pre-planned camp schedule and looking into suitable changes to accomodate superstitions and save money.

I had moments of anger, of childish fit where I asked myself: "Why am I the one doing this?"

When people were sleeping, I was up for debrief. Sleeping last and getting rudely awaken the next morning by people who missed debrief.

I had my moments of regret; when things go wrong and I just don't feel like salvaging them anymore. I wanted to leave, just get a breather and let the rest do it.

Ultimately, like I told S. Since I've given my commitment to it, I'd just get it done and over with, to the best of my ability, with all I've got.

In the end when people tell you how much fun they've had, how smooth camp went despite the many last minute changes, the satisfaction is one beyond words.

Just like how it felt after Touch Attack. (:

Thank you everyone for making camp a success.

I've made friends, enemies, changed impression of others and yes, undoubtedly had an awesomely fulfilling 5days 4nights.

Hibernation started yesterday, and it still hasn't ended.

That's A Sparkle.

Happy Birthday,

and I'm off to camp. (with a little bit of regret)

mother effing tired to the core.

and i miss s already.

:(

One More, Please?

I just had my last weekend, before everything around me takes a 360deg turn.

Unpredictable.

I just read an email.

It had KARMA written all over it.

May WORLD PEACE follow after this incident.

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Over the weekend, Seniors' camp and Touch Attack happened.

The former took place on Saturday, at Sentosa. Despite the light shower and grey clouds looming, we carried on. We merely played six games with four

groups of very unsupportive, discouraging, RUDE, disobeying SENIORS who totally pissed me off (ok actually only ONE particular CGL) but before we reached the last segment I was already DEAD tired.

I suddenly fell silent and became 90% inactive and needed my name to be called out at least twice before I could respond. Ok, maybe it was the heat + hunger + dehydration + fatigue + angst + preparation that led to that but I'm so gonna die

on the actual camp. 6 days of this. Ohmymama, no wonder my fellow cp decided to sit down and play poker with satay sticks as chips.

Touch Attack on Sunday was crazyrushed. We ran the entire event with ONLY 10 people. And like I said in my emo sms, if I could do it all over again, I'd still choose this 10 people to run the show with me. Because they are the ones that cover one another's asses. They are the ones who will wake up bright and early to come help out. They are the ones who returned to school on a weekend for preparation. They are the ones who effortlessly did the job

of 3 people. They are the ones who, at the end of the day, sit down together with me, and reflect on the day's event.

Though there were many pre-event hiccups, we managed to pull through and it was awesome.

We fell short of our targetted teams by quite a bit but ultimately, finance is just a secondary objective.

Felt really surreal when it was over. How the month-long uncertainty built up to the week-long sleepless nights and intense concentration to do game & ref fixtures.

I will remember how I was crazybusy running up and down from the emcee tables to the three pitches; to play, to ref, or to collate score sheets for updates. I will remember how There's A Fire! gave their 101% in their games and in their sales of food/drinks. I will rememer how DearAshley shook hands and reminded opponents to "Buy our hotdogs". I will remember how yummy the hotdogs tasted! (They were so good I was still thinking of it late that night). I will remember how J.eannette holds a mic, a loudhailer, a stopwatch in one hand while the other lowers the volume of our music. I will remember the damned lightning

alarm and how we had to delay our games. I will remember how XP's math is much better than mine(: I will remember how much sh** A.ngela & Ek put up with know-it-all U20 teams. I will remember how Coach reffed til she had blisters in her feet.

At the end of the day, we received lotsa positive feedback, both from participants and teammates, even coach. And that made everything more meaningful than it already was. Indeed, everyone contributed to the success: my awesome teammates + coach, our awesome sports officer in charge, the participants, the refs.

Thank you all.

My sleepless nights, deteriorating eyesight, endless nagging have paid off.

Dear Yanns also left on Sunday morning for Hamburg and has reported to have landed without her checked-in luggages. But nonetheless, at least you're safe dear! LOVES!

Monday was the legendary Stars wars where my star planner hung and I managed to get a grand total of ZERO core modules. There were absolutely no slots left for any tutorial index and GO had made me call back "5 mins later" when I called.

Eventually managed to get the mods. Like M.ichael says, "seems like such a norm" now since we go through it every fcuking semester. Hur!

Tuesday, Date with Liangshitfavourite before Crabby's Disney-themed 21st!

Wednesday,

Itinerary after training:

-Ice spa with Valley Welly & a Goldfish

-Manicure/ pedicure lavender aromatherapy session with Ms A.ngela Yong

-Facial (with free body scrub & face mask thrown in) with Ms X.in Pei

-Lastly, organic healthy eating lunch with AnneSkinnyGoh

(as quoted from coach's email)

J.eannette and I went shopping; from Wheelock to Shaw to O.rchard central. Heehee

I went home and the heels of my feet hurt so bad :(

An extremely long-overdued meet up with the Bestie on Thursday,
and with the supposedly quarantined Ameliaaaa today!

Where we had sushi and 50 dollah mao shan wang durian!!!!!!!!!

I will keep getting better.

Nyeh Nyeh.

I can't believe I'm saying this now, but YES.

I'm starting to get too lazy to blog.

Life's been damn tiring but awesomely goooood. =)

ilovealviniaowyong. :D

Cos I thought you'd send me a love mail :(