Random Rantings

I just finished my lab report.
IHATELABREPORTS.
IHAVETOCABTOSCHOOLLATER
IHAVENTEVENEATENDINNER
IAMANGSTY.

This Is How It Goes, I Would Have Never Known.

I was comfortably numb where I stood,
where I watched the world whizz me by, unafraid,
because I thought I had it under control,
I thought my support pillars will never falter.

I was uncomfortably new where I stood,
where I watched tragedies tread past me, laidback,
because I thought I was well protected,
I thought the force fields will never fade.

I am insecure where I stand,
where I watch the ugly truth unravel, skeptical,
because I thought I knew it all,
I thought we had it all.

If your love would cost me so much, I'd rather have none at all.

No, I'm not ready.

Do you know how stressful it is to sign in to 34 new messages in your inbox,
to at least two from your leader reminding you, THE DEADLINE IS TOMORROW (or tonight rather) holyfuck, i missed the deadline! I thought today is Friday, but yesterday is Friday!!

have your peers constantly pressurising you with their 'how's the studying coming along?'

OH GAWD. It's a fucking recess week, not study break.
Someone shoot me please,
or buy me a bucket to store my tears.
I need to start saving water anyway.

This is overwhelming.
OVER, overwhelming.

I could really use some help.

Btw, Mrs. Darcy and Dingg, I miss you both like crazy.


Ps: Before I forget, link to Leslie's Trojan Sentosa outing entry on Monday.
I doubt I'd get to talk about anyway. =(

You COULD be My Unintended.

Just like a circle, no ends. Not triangle, triangle has 3 ends.

I just received a series of emails containing the same content but different first two sentences:

From, "I AM GOING TO BE LATE" to "I am late already." in 5 emails.
Just thought it was really funny, anyway.

Okay, shiate. I'm supposed to be doing my project. Make good and full use of whatever time I have left now,
my Tues - Thurs schedule freaks me out, BIG TIME.

TEEVEEE

If you watched today's episode of xiao hua xiao cao,
and thought you saw me on tv,
it wasn't me lor. blind ah. HAHAHAHAHA

and if you happened to record it,
I WANNA SEEE PLEASE. OMG

All We Know Is Falling.

Another week has passed, one of miserable meals. =(
And a week of massive repetitions.
Imagine, I ate at The Quad 4 times this week (with 4 different groups of people, of course)
and I popped by Jurong Point 4 times too.

On Thurs (the third time already), accompanied W & S cos they didn't want to have roomie gay loving time, and spent a good 2 hours there. We ate, W got his gift, S got his cables and sweets for the Hall Queen, and I got my ice cream, plus junk for the roomie.

Classic Moment: W and I got ice cream from Anderson's. (He freaking made me get a double scoop cos he said "single not shiok!" and got himself a single cos he was frightened by the HUGEEE double scoops) While queueing to draw money, I suddenly saw something flick behind me, and his cone was rolling on the floor. We couldn't stop laughing, cos we had absolutely NO idea how it happened. And the worse thing is, he quickly picked it up and continued eating after about 5 seconds of contemplation. His reason, "Aiya, army teach you 3 second rule."
Whoaaa. I would never ever do that.

By the way, did Anderson's standard drop? Or is the food at Jurong Point just substandard? They were saying the Fish & Co sucks too. Ames, if you see this, you are a better person to comment on it than I am.

Slept late, woke up early despite not having any lessons on Friday.

Naturally wake up around 9 plus lately.

Went for Squash!! Played it last time, but never really got down to knowing the right techniques, so yeah, we had the Professionals teaching us! Haha.

We unknowingly played for 3 hours, thus the really bad muscle aches in my left arm now. =(

Initial plans to watch Evan Almighty/ Hairspray after Squash with "my imaginary friend" were interrupted, so I caught Prison Break which left me gasping and screaming for more. REALLY. ALL of us can't wait for subsequent episodes, it's gonna be an exciting, exciting season!

Night cycled at night with Anouka(: We were the second team to set off, and we beat "Camalosers" (quote QQ) in every challenge.

The journey to West Coast was hilarious, the front people kept braking, so there were many near-accident situations.

I miraculously managed to cycle OVER a drain without falling in. I didn't even see it to start with, and I was damn scared!

Eugene and QQ make AWESOME entertainers, we were singing (or screaming rather) to classic songs like, 25 minutes too late, I don't wanna miss a thing, Iris, etc.

Shared Famous Amos cookies which we got for guessing the deng mi, (but actually we already knew the answers), discreetly robbed a box of Bakerzin truffle mooncakes (which I now have, in my fridge. Thanks, Jx) and gobbling Old Chang Kee curry puffs, sotong balls and carrot cake.

Then we had an Anouka Must-Do: To stand on this platform and let them spin us.

Omg, I nearly died. I was damn scared my mooncakes would spin out from my mouth too.

We had sparklers too! (: Was too tired to cycle back, so we hopped on Yinx's car and ditched the bike on the lorry.

Don't suppose I need to explain why I needed extra effort to crawl out of bed this morning.

So finally, it's the long awaited short recess break.
People say it's an unofficial study break,
but looking at my long list of To-Do's and I-want-to-do-desperately's,
there is nothing academically focused.

Note to self : Lab report and MWH project due when school starts! Please have a sense of urgency, Phil.


Favourite bitch; I'm gonna miss you.

Distractions, distractions!

OMG PRISON BREAK SEASON THREE EPISODE ONE IS OUT!!!!!

Awkward Silences.

(Okay la, I'm too lazy to search for a poster in English.)

Ratatouille was goooodd! I don't know if it really deserves 5 stars, but it definitely is something different, not those cheesy kinda shows, so watch it watch it! (I think I'm probably one of the last to watch it anyway)

Yesterday for lunch, I had damn nice smelling and looking baked rice which I pathetically took an hour to eat, with much difficulty and pain.

Macaroni for dinner. =(

And Today for breakfast, I had soggy cereal. =(

Oh, metal mouthed wires and rubber bands.

Training yesterday was ..... , sigh.

It sucks when you underperform during crucial periods and everyone else is stepping up.

I know I can do so much better.

A-cup.

I sit here with an aching mouth,
an empty stomach,
a stubborn mind,
and two slightly swollen eyes.

After TWO failed attempts to shock me from behind by FFF,
Roomie came back and scared me with a hug attack. Well done, bitch!

Things with braces are looking good,
though I'd really miss them, it's gonna be two years sooon!
And they really ache now =( Back on rubber bands.

So, the CAs are over, it's crazy, cos we had all three of them in a day, almost one after another.
Inevitably, physics is screwed. Phil went for her CA without studying, and without a calculator, and some bitch separated me and Romeo the Saviour who studied. Damn.

Life in school's been really hilarious, we laugh at everything everytime, and I really can't put them down in words.
Note to self: I love the ones I meet every morning at 64 4 1302, the ones I sit with every lesson, the one (Geri!) I get lost/fall asleep with every day, the one (Eli!) I come home to and fall asleep with every night.
I've been really blessed by the people around me, and I'm really glad we've met.
They are the reasons why I even bother lugging myself out of bed as early as 7:15 even though I slept at 5am the previous night.

And Pigeon's FINALLY over, no more late night trainings on Tues and Thurs (but IHG training soon, sigh!) Crickets enjoy visiting my room, we don't know why.
And being an Asst. Sports is not as easy/slack as I thought it'd be.

Training in 1half hours.
Later!

Ps: I really had cheesecake on Monday! Though not from cheesecake cafe, nor was it strawberry cheesecake, it was yummy(: Blueberry from The Quad.

I hate Tuesdays.

Basically sums up my mid terms, especially my affection towards Physics and my tutor.

On the other hand,

I'm feeling much better already, thank you guys for the concern.

And sorry for worrying you.

Term break next week, but there's so much shit to do.

I STILL need to catch up on work.

Doesn't help that I'm sick,

AGAIN.

Oh. Not the first time we're hearing this from Phil, haha.

All ways

You know what would really make me very happy now?



Cheesecake cafe's strawberry oreo cheesecake,
and Auntie Anne's Cinnamon Sugar pretzel.


Yeah, good morning anyway.
Today is dooms day,
the ONLY day I have my mids,
the day with 3 (almost) consecutive papers.

Supersizedtragedy.

I remember telling someone once,
that I'm so sick of talking about my near accident driving experience, the next time I talk about it, it won't be so simple.










I've never cried so effortlessly, and silently before.
It's like a spoilt leaking tap.
My heart still sinks at the thought of it,
my knee still aches.
I can't even bear to look at the pictures.

You're my favourite bitch.

Been damn effing busy, I've really neglected this space.
So much that should I ever want to look back on my past month of uni life, I can no longer retrieve the memories written down, but rely on the extremely limited memory bank up in the brain.

I keep promising myself I will post a proper entry, but everytime I pop by blogger.com, I experienced the blogger's block. It's those kinda feelings you get as if restarting on something that you haven't done in a long time. Eg: start studying again after 8, or maybe 9 long months of play.

I'm having fun, but it's tiring and everything has a consequence, some of which I know I may not be able to afford, eg. my CAs coming up. 3 in a day is no joke,
lagging 2930832 chapters behind is a bigger problem.
Having only another 2 days left to catch up is as good as suicide.

I'm sorry if you're clueless about my life now, I will really try to write a looong entry cos I'd love to remember how beautifully scarred my uni life is, and will be. Oxymoron, but that's uni life for you. (:

And btw, if I haven't already told you, my roomie is awesome.

TUES/THURS

As much as I've been complaining,

I knew I'd miss it,

miss the shit, miss the exhaustion,

miss the fun,

miss the people.

AND I LOVE QQ.

Skeptics.

This week has been crazy,

and extremely moody,

I can't wait for it to end.

One more day! So exciting, yet nerve wrecking.

All the practice and time spent better not be put to waste.

MIDTERMS START 13SEPT.

OMG

Highlight of the day,
Fang: "Oei Retarded Face. (To Eugene)"
Eugene acts blur, "Where? I don't see any retarded face around."
Peiyao: "That's cause you can't see your own face."
HAHAAHAH


PS: If I use "Fuck" again, please slap/pinch me.

NOTETOSELF II

Last week at cell,
Clarice made us write something we find very difficult to part with for God.
I wrote TIME. It's very hard, to put aside all the work especially with the extremely tight schedules/deadlines to spend more time with God daily.

Now, while I'm extremely tired but cannot sleep, with a 12 chapters of Physics waiting for me to catch up on, I'm seeking my spiritual comfort.

Psalm 115, V 9-11
"O house of Israel, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield.
O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield.
You who fear him, trust in the Lord -- He is their help and shield."

The Lord remembers us and will bless us,
Christ is strength.

Okay, so Holy. I feel better. (:

Seed

Subjects are thrown around the room
Looking for the ones that got away
A feeling of soft anticipation
Another confrontation I won't make
But how do we do it
We turned into something else entirely
We fake it
But I wanted it so desperately to be real

Run, run, holding on to some pieces that you left behind
Hope now, as I walk away, you're the one that finds me out
Run from the only thing left that I hold close

While he's letting you in
You've got the feeling you've been followed under your skin
It will be weighing on your shoulder, believe it.
If I could express it in a different dialect or in a delicate way
I'd capture the phrases inside the cage beneath my chest
And keep it locked for days
I wanted you so desperately to believe me

Run, run, why are you running from another conversation?
Someone that I've been planning on, you're the one that finds me out.
There's nowhere, now I found you, that I won't go.

I'm always letting you in.
You've got the feeling you've been followed under your skin.
It will be weighing on your shoulder.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in you.

Run, run, what are you running from?
Let all your small steps expose your secrets.
You don't have to speak for me to believe it.
But what do you mean? Yeah...ha-ha

Shaken and faint, you've got the feeling you've been followed
under your skin. It will be weighing on your shoulder.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
While letting you in, you got the feeling you've been followed.
Are you listening to anything I said?
Said to anything I said (You've got that seed in you)
Said (You've got that scene in you)

Shaken and faint, it was the hardest thing to swallow.
Pretending you don't miss me.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
While letting you in, I'll be thinking about tomorrow.
And every time we cross those lines.
You've got that seed in you.
You've got that scene in...
Hope now, as I walk away, you're the one that finds me out.

-THEACADEMYIS.

158 for, 7 against.

Back from pigeon,
satisfied with our progress,
the better coordination with Qq.
Upset about jcrc results.
Bye bye dream team,
I wish you guys were here with me. =(

The Sweetesttt.

OMG I HAVE TIME TO BLOG!

I refuse to go down to the polling booth, cos they've conveniently pangseh-ed and I've training in 17 minutes, I shall not care.

Back to last week, met HUGS darling for lunch, and convinced her into skipping lecture so she came over to 1305 (: But silly girl left her bottle here.

Didn't get to sleep on the second consecutive Thursday cos we went down to TV Lounge after training to join the rest at the Alcohol party. But by then, we were just talking and gulping green tea.

Friday, we went to support Wenlong in Hey Gorgeous, and I was totally embarrassed, but never mind. (:
Went shopping(: Got a bag from Topman, so gay. Bumped into ding!
Fell asleep during Cell. Went home, and received a call a few minutes after I slept.

So I drove out and down to Novena. (Near) EMPTY ROADS AT LATE NIGHTS ARE THE BEST!
Drove down to Fort Canning (used the same route thrice in a day, gosh!) then went for Prata and Thomson. Reached home at 5am, oh gawd, I could walk with my eyes closed.

Met ding for productive shopping. (:
Met Y to go for Shai's engagement dinner. (We all misunderstood it for wedding, the real wedding will only be two years later!)
Then bishan for bedsheet shopping(: Eli and I are excited about our next identical bedsheets- monkey and giraffes! (Read: Her fav, my fav! And we both have a monkey/giraffe in the room)

I'm too lazy to think about what I've been up too, I'm just typing what I can think of right now...........

So anyhow, yesterday was a bad day. And I missed the dinner with Trojan. (please insert a million sulks)
Today was better(: Though I was extremely sleepy, I kept falling asleep; even in French tutorial (I think the tutor hates me anyhow)

MID TERMS ON: 13 sept, 17sept (3 papers, omg), 29Oct. SCREWED.

My brain moves too fast for my fingers they can't type chronologically.
Oh gawd, I'm so screwed.

Time left to pigeon training: 3mins. SIANZZZZZZZZ.

Dance Hall Drug

It's only Monday, and its only 1am but I feel like sleeping already.

I hate Mondays, and how they always start with Math tut and the damn effed up tutor,
and how it stretches til 1930. And how it's only the first day of the week.

Today, we had a math test. 15% for Final Term.
And the tutor was nice, he gave us a question from tutorial: Prove sine rule.
And genius phil couldn't solve it. Omg, I felt like shit.

We skipped the in-between lessons today anyway. Only attended the first and last.
Celebrated J's birthday, but I missed the bigger scale dinner with everyone else cos of rally, which ended close to 12. So we effectively sat there for close to 4hours.
Impromptu is the best!

I feel so random, and tired......
Photos another day.

Happy Birthday, Junx.

The Past is just the Future with the Lights On.

and, i'm sorry for neglecting. this time, i've really really really been busy. i'm sorry. ):

-ripped this of crabby's blog.
Not that I'm incapable of writing it on my own, but it means more to rip it off someone else's heartfelt thoughts- goes to show I'm not alone.

I don't want to whine about how busy I've been, but it's really beyond what you can imagine and maybe understand unless you're there to see for yourself. (Read: Eli witnesses everything. Or rather, she witnesses the most.)

I don't want to be an over achiever in my leadership and be a failure in my studies.
I won't.