I Held On To Your Promise.

Quoted from Griz's blog,

"1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love is more than a feeling.

Why do people end their relationships? Have they been abusing the word "love" to each other for the entire course of their relationship? I believe they have not. Perhaps in certain cases, people change and so has the love for their partner. Perhaps in certain cases, some do not truly understand the meaning of love. Do not fault them. After all, life's just a journey of lessons. I personally have learnt what the bible says about love and I like it.

Relationships are a test, a test to see if the other party is the one you would want to spend the rest of your life with. Sometimes the test could fail. Sometimes you need to sit the test multiple times, but if you're lucky, you will pass on the first try. People might have failed the first test badly, but I personally feel that it would be a pity to not try again. Maybe it's risky to try because the person might change, but life's all about trying."

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What happens when the one who promises never to let you fall, is the one who pushes you down the bottomless pit?
Do you believe that the things happening to the ones dear to you have a large effect on you?

For example, people around you start studying, you'd feel motivated, or somewhat pressured to follow likewise.

When people talk to you about their insecurities with other issues, do you feel strongly related to the words they speak?

When they start questioning themselves, and the things around them, does it spur you to question the same things too?


I do not deny the heavy involvement in Touch has detached me from certain aspects of my life, especially the spiritual one. The weekends have been solely dedicated to my Full-time job, I haven't been able to see things outside my enclosed fish bowl.

Last Friday before CG, I screwed up. I said two things I shouldn't have and created a snowball effect, accumulating someone's fucked up emotions. I was let in on something few days later.
And subsequently, another piece of news.
They have affected me. They teach you to be more appreciative of what you already have, but from there, I see the similarities, I've drawn the comparisons.
And I waiver......

It's not that I'm insecure, it's not that I'm faithless.
I just (once again) don't know how to deal with it.

This whole sem is a fucking mess with a million issues unsettled on hand.
And I don't know where to start..
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If any consolation, I finally got my months overdued OMG-HAHA-bag with a weeks-overdued date with MRS. DARCY. Lotsa sinful indulgences but these are the little sacrifices you make in return for a bigger bunch of happiness.

I love F.red F.lare! :D

Don't worry about me.

Between The Ink And The Paper,

We celebrated the end of Midterms with Kui.shinbo Buffetttt! :D
Actually, I was the only one with the midterms... =(
Ate til I could literally P-O-P!

And no N.tl on Friday, hence Cell!
We started on the book of Esther; learning about Respect and King Xerxes and Queen Vashti. Heehee. It was good to see (almost) the whole Stingray again :D

Make-up Mac breakf on Saturday for the one we missed on Wed.
A lousy, lousy day at turf, and an emo talk with Ekay on the way back.

Training on Sunday was fitness! =( Wasn't too bad for a first training though, but I wish we had more playing time. Though I was already 65% sian.


And a good way to tip the heavily mind-exhausting week, is a mindless weekend with lotsa sleep and relaxing and eating. =) Haha. Plus, a new phone Brudder calls Kueh Lapis!


PS: Another week off from school training. Shiokk. :D
PPS: I woke up with ants in my bread this morning... =(((

I have 9 minutes to do this.

(taken by The Cool Squatter one random afternoon; part of the farm)

A week later after recess week, I decided to blog proper about it.
Basically, I spent my first four days travelling to and fro from school, sucking up the credit in my EZlink. (Can you imagine? Spending 30bucks solely on public transport in less than a week!)

Ecomm meeting on Monday at Carls Jr cos the boys wanted that. EEW. Brudder and I shopped a little ; HAPPY =D Came back to school for CAB meeting, watched (pirated) Juno that night.
It's nice, but a little over rated.

Spent the day in school with Geri on Tues, headed home for dinner, went back to school Wed afternoon for training, stayed the night with Prison Break.
We attempted studying after dinner, but I guess the Teevee somehow enticed me more than my notes, and there wasn't wireless around so the lappy was effectively useless.

Met DING (inserts lotsa hearts) for dinner in Town on Thursday, Baby V popped by as a surprise(: Too bad I was too worn from the week I couldn't spend as much time as I wish we could with D. =( I like how we end up walking aimlessly around town, hand in hand, with loving silences in between our conversations.
And after reading your offline msg yesterday, I wouldn't deny you've voiced out my worry all along. But we both know we love each other so much, too much. (: So don't worry D, once a month all right? (: I hope you don't start school soon... =((

(to be continued, off to meeting!)
(okay! Back after 2343 after shower too)

First March was basically spent, rushing. Rushing from Club match to Town to Vch, to Tanjong Pagar. Had Macbreakf in the morning(((: Craving satisfied! =D
And wee played Toki.Tima aka Kehui/Wenhui's team in the afternoon. Basically got screamed at so so so damn badly, got stung by a bee at the start of second half, effectively played only the very last (say, 3?) minutes of it. My hands really have a mind of its own, sometimes no matter how prepared I am, the ball just slips through it like sand through my fingers.
Frustrating? Very.


Rushed back to rush down for Leeh's concert at VCH where we were too tired we started falling asleep. It wasn't too bad a concert I guess(: Sat down at Timbre's for less than half an hour before Angie and I rushed down to Bianco for Post Ivp. We weren't exactly keen, so we didn't stay for long, but I guess we had fun while it lasted, especially watching people dance infront of mirrors.
Suppered with Timsum cos, DOUJIANG YOUTIAO IS MISSING.
This is a calamity, so if you do know where it has relocated to, please tell me =(


Surviving only on 3hours of sleep, I went for service, travelled down to Vivo to meet The Old Man, Arthur, Mrs Darcy and Shaun for lunch. JAPFOOOOD =D
Rushed back home (again, all this rushing seriously consumed more energy than training).
Barely spent more than 2, 3 hours with the bunch, I felt so bad =(
Plus, I was so angsty/bitchy. HAHAAH

And then it was reality check- back to school =(

Had a short run with my two fake roomies last night, and a pleasant surprise amidst the run.

Who on earth gets surprises during a run? Haha. But then again, it was totally unplanned. (:

Today, today, we watched an extremely mindfucking movie during imprisonment.
I swear I was totally mindfucked I felt so damn brain dead after 95mins. ZZZZ


Quoteunquote myself after dinner today: "As much as I've had a damn tiring week, I think it went good."

Every Heart,

This 2008,
I leapt the year with Seef, and Stingray.


It took Dan close to 20 hours to realise today ISN'T the First of March but 29th Feb.
And we had a long debate with Clarice over whether you need to +1 to the year we're in when calculating the year we're born.


Plus. we were supposed to take jumpshots to signify us leaping the year together but we totally forgot.
Daaammmmnnnnnn. =(

"dont be afraid to falter, because ultimately i wont let you fall"

Thurs, 21st @ HO Closing. Bernie and I climbed the scaffolding! =D Joint Hall Sports 07/08

Saturday, 23rd @ Fusion

The carnival was slightly boring. Maybe because I missed the Band performance!!! But worship was damn damn damn good. And the sermon tooo.

Was slightly burnt from the afternoon's club match too =(

Sunday, 24th Feb

Happy Fgmd day, baby V.

Went down to Vivo with the intention to catch P.S. I Love You, but we mixed our timings up. Ended up having lunch, then travelling down to town, and AROUND town.

Then Marina,

Crabby sweet coincidence.
Singapore Flyer!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

Monday, 25th Feb, we had Ecomm meeting over Carls Jr. Salad is really filling tooo. Shopped a little before coming back to school for CAB meeting, damn waste time =( Missed The Roomie, survived the night with Manson and handphone cos I was miserably without lappy.

Tuesday, 26th. CANNOT BELIEVE I WASTED MY ENTIRE DAY IN SCHOOL WITH THIS WHORE studying the HALL Whore Effect. HAHAHAHA

Accompanied her til dinner at Alfresco, We were trying the fishbowl/fisheye thingy. =S
Okay then I went home.

Wed, waited for the BFF to get out of bed, had lunch, come back to school. We studied for a while before training. OMGS math kills us, and the BFF is freaking freaking smart!!!

We played Beach Touch for training. MY. BALL. PASSES. REALLY. SUCK.
Was slightly upset, but with the informality of trainings now, I didn't really want to overreact.
Then we studied MORE over American Idol and some Swimwear Modelling show, and I fell asleep cos the sun at training burnt my brain.

And I wake up manymany hours later at 1pm.


Ps: (NOTE TO SELF), S/U deadline, 9th March!

Lose All Control

Tragedy and drama aside, this verse hit me hard on Friday during CG:

"Do not put out the Spirit's Fire; do not treat prophecies with contempt. Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil" 1 Thessalonians 5: 19-22


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And I woke up (too) late for service this morning. Shit sheesh crap. =(



"Unless a seed falls to the ground, You will not have a plant."

A Growing Addiction, My Fatal Distraction.

And so the title speaks for itself. =(


Guess I got my elective in the end! Have some coursemates/hallmates/ TOUCH MATES (!!!) in it too! Yay(: Wanted to ask XY if she was willing to give up her Astro if she didn't want it but guess I shall just settle for CBC801. (HAHA sounds so crude!)


We played Citadels today at Cell. OMG DAMN FUN.
DanLow + Phil - backstabbing cg mates (Read: GARY and DanNg) = OWNAGE
We got saboed so we went from going-to-win to lose-like-siao.
I missed Cell, and I was reallydamnveryextremely glad to be back.

Can already imagine the amount of fun I missed at retreat last week,
no thanks to IH.
Missed the outing with the Touchers too cos of IH =((
BOOO.
I shall live my last 2 days of the holiday to its fullest before school starts! =)


Allrights, OMG SC IS HERE! Pageant supper at Chompchomp! (: