NOCTURNAL.

I'm becoming nocturnal, not that I want to but I can't help it.

I don't do enough to tire myself to head to bed and I don't need so many hours of sleep.

My brain is barely used, except when I'm playing bejeweled or typing emails.

ZZZZZZ.

Sunday come faster please.

twentysecondmayisdoooomsday.

Tension Headaches.

I am honestly getting out of hand,

yesterday I screamed at two people ; one didn't hold it against me, and one didn't take it as well.

Honestly, I know it's no excuse. I have no better justifications.

But I'm crumbling and my safety net has broken.

I hate falling asleep, cos I can't. I have a huge load on my mind. I try to cast it down, I take it to the Lord.

Then I hate waking up. To reality. It hits me so hard. Mentally.

If only it were physical then I could pass out and have bigger excuses.

Jaded.

I've been reallyextremelymothereffingly tired lately, but I always can't sleep at night.

Either that or I constantly drift in and out of sleep.

Just last night, it took me close to 1 hour to fall asleep,

only to wake to random things (eg the celebration of victory from hallthree).

And I've been having those weird/awkward dreams again: physical abuse, random people I don't even talk to anymore, awkward situations with current friends, and possible futures.

I always believed dreams have a chance of coming true, like they are meant to prepare you for what's to come. Not that it's a premonition or a deja vu, just a vague picture painted of the possible future. Maybe that's why I always feel the future freaks me out.

And lately, I've been somewhat allergic to these two words: "Balance", and "Pride".

>=( Hrmm.

Someday somehow, I'm gonna make it allright. But not right now.

Where We Belong

Today, over Manufacturing:We were actually pretty proud of our work til we saw what others have come up with which totally owned ours. Haha, and the Prof even said ours was POOR cos of the orientation of our paper. Right, apparently we didn't maximise the use of the whole 'A3' idea. Haha. WHOOOPS.

Lately, I've been really tired but everytime I lay on my bed, I can't sleep.

I feel like there are a lists of urgent things I must attend to yet when the time comes, I cannot get started.

Today, M.ichael asked if I was all right cos my eyes were bloodshot.

PS: Yes, ok. A student stabbed a prof, I KNOW. Daddy texted while we were in Math and I showed G the message. I can't believe there are people praising him, and even putting things like 'All Profs should reflect on their behaviour now' on their Msn nicks. Gosh! Damn immature and apathetic.

Glad Tidings.

Caught the MONSTER flu bug, it's soooo bad it leaks uncontrollably. :(

And now I've abrasions at the sides of my nose from the blowing and wiping.

Can barely sleep well the past two nights cos it's so uncomfortable :(

Was literally dying with my tissue box in the graveyard style Nightmare-before-Christmas tissue holder next to me and a small dustbin next to it.

My bed is a germ-zone.

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Results came out earlier today (while I was trying to sleep in bed), and praise the Lord for his abundant blessings! :D

It was definitely better than expected!

Now, all I need to focus on is getting well before IV.P!!!

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Today, I learnt that if you can't fall asleep,
you can cry to sleep.
It really works.

Endurance Run.

I knew it,
I just knew it.


I knew we wouldn't wake up in time for Griddles. Haha.
I'm back to my insomnia days. Fuck.
Two more papers but you know, it's just so damn mentally tiring.
3 weeks of exams, seriously, isn't funny.

Insomnia

The dogs, they bark tonight.
Out of control.
I toss and turn tonight.
More than I know.
With every flip, I bring myself further from you.
The distance insignificance,
but its significance overwhelming.
Every fidget I make, your breathing gets deeper.
Every moan I make, your snoring gets louder.
The selfish side threw a tantrum,
the considerate side kept me still.
My conscious knows you needed the hours,
more than I needed you.
I wanted to wake you up
I wanted you to sleep
I couldn't fall asleep.

Your same familiar taste still lingers

So last night was another near-sleepless night,
and I realise I'm not the only one.


Travelled from Home to Town, to Novena, back to Town again today.
Town was freaking packed, Ago and I were slightly irritated (with the weather too)
Even after 2pm, every place still had long queues of hungry people waiting for seats (well, so were we)

Had an extremely unsuccesful attempt in shopping so we gave up the busy area for some heartland (Novena, AHAHA) I owe Ahgong donuts so we headed down to Df (whose aircon spoilt!! OMG) and called J who was coincidentally heading there too.
Still think Munchy's beats Df's hands down.

Went over and finally met Baileys! (: He can't stop licking and biting that he ripped J's blanket. Haha.

I'm still having handphone troubles, zzz.
I'm so sick of it. The Singtel fair was omg-packed today. =(
Made mom come all the way down to squeeze with the crowd, sigh =\

But in any case, I am enjoying every minute of this freedom,
I don't want to fall asleep.


Okay, I'm hungry. Supper date, where are you?

OEI OMG BOLTON JUST SCORED A GOAL. VAN DER SAR WHAT HAPPENED.

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Initially, I felt like blogging.

Then just as I clicked "Create new post"
My phone rang.
And now I've been hit by a massive lazybug.



Goodnight world. It's not good to be suffering from insomnia.

We have a long way, long year ahead of us.

Goood day mates!