Twist In My Story.

Post exams haven't been as exciting as I'd have thought they'd be.
Then again, it has been a little bit more unexpected than I had imagined it to.

Basically had a Fucked up Friday (no more Freaky Friday curses though),
blood stained (not literally) and tear stained.
Suddenly felt like I was in a different world, with friends who are strangers,
and people putting on a facade. Felt scared, (and maybe threatened), deceived, betrayed.
It's horrible and I'm still not over it.

Training was so bad (for me), I was effectively the weakest link. And we had a Fitness Test. Terrible, just so bad.
And I concluded I've a retarded left hand. :(

Then we rushed down to Tim.bre where I had almost an entire glass of Er.dinger spilled across the table, drenching myself and my phone.

By the time I reached home, I was dead beat but I couldn't sleep so I made D talk to me. =(


Youth Fundraising tourney on Sat! Teams pulled out last minute and the sun was super hot now I'm burnt (even with the application of Sunblock)
Played and ref-ed consecutive games. Even played the novelty games. (Ok, but the 3v3 drop off was fun!!!) I'm super tired from the consecutive trainings/games that I wore my skins to sleep. HA HA HA.
And the abrasions from the incorrect diving are insanely painful (not forgetting fugly).
BUT, if any consolation, for the first time I tried to dive touch! (Then again, I touched her after she placed the ball down)

(Oh ya and I forgot to bring socks. Argh.)


Thank goodness training today is optional so I'm spared the extra agility/fitness work and get a break before another 4 consecutive days of training.

But this is all in preparation for the coming month.
And I'm gonna need icedips forever. HAHAHA


Happy holidays! Don't forget subject registration on 5th dec.
XOXO

Me.

Was supposed to fill up a players' profile last night,

but was too lazy to do it myself.

So I got D to do it,

and this is the funniest part:

SOME THING WE DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU: RETAINERS, I am extraordinary. I don’t play mahjong, I love sponge bob? I cant see if u are waving at me from a distance cause I don’t usually wear a spec.

HAHAHAHA.

Jp for dinner after training. Suuuushiiii! :D

We stayed til closing until a cockroach chased us out. :S

And I almost died during training last night.

Hope I won't later.

(:

FINALLY

Officially stepping down as a student,

and resuming my position as a full time touch player.

Here's to a month of lotsa grass, mud, girls, and odd shaped balls.

Happy holidays!

FOUR MORE HOURS.

CANNOT WAIT. :D

FOURTEEN HOURS.

Missed the finals, couldn't even go down to watch.

And apparently there was dramamamama. (Plus a very exciting sudden death)

PS: We lost, btw. :(

Dinner was funfunfun(: We got so carried away, we forgot the time.

Whooops.

Anyhow, I can finally change my desktop wall paper tmr! (:

And finally catch up on Heroes/GG and watch Madagascar with Skalex the Lion. (:

PS: No deeveecee next week. :( No kids. :( No camp. :( No mooolah. :( :(

TWENTY FOUR HOURS.

Not going to play.

Not permitting myself to play.

Talked to A and W and even flipped a coin.

Same conclusion,

Shouldn't doubt my initial decision to start with.

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.

.

.

How do you look me in the eye,

and tell me you're the same.

I feel disposable.

TWENTY EIGHT MORE HOURS.

This morning I woke up to the Bestie freaking out on MSN,

awake at 6AM.

Hang in there Seef!! It will all be over, it's just one more week! Sends my hug from Boonlay ok!

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One more day one more day!!!!!!!!

Last night seemed deliberately planned.

I had phone call after phone call that lasted for hours.

I didn't study much, but it's ok. That gives me a reason to be more productive today (if I can find my discipline and focus cos I'm really REALLY restless)

And a game of Rock, Paper, Scissors over the phone concluded my absence from tonight's N.tl finals.

Otherwise I'd be cursed with a bigger butt cheek than the other (!!!!! HORROR)

But anyway, I think they'd win.. ((:

Your Eyes.

They say our eyes are the window to our soul.......

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.

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I haven't studied since the previous post, I'm basically screwing myself up. =(

No NTL finals at this rate.

Naughty Phil.

Sweeeeet.

"Smells like Ice Lemon Tea."

"Huh! Give me back, I want to smell."

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"Oh, it's the perfume la."

"Hmm, it smells like Ice Lemon Tea!"

I'm so restless I think I'm gonna play NTL Finals tmr. 

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This is where we both get scared
This is where emotion flares
This is where we both prepare

The Wrong Pair Of Lock And Key.

Walking back to hall past midnight could be scary,

with the darkness, the cold air, and the solitary,

but there's always something to take that away.

And it's company.

"you're extraordinary."

Hahahahahaha.

Bedtime after showering cos Philoos is having gastric, because she skipped dinner.

Hr, if you see this. Fatty fatty hugs, you will pull through.

Cos we all love you.

Touchtouchtouch.

With that said,

please pick your post exam dates accordingly! :D

(Ntouch) TRAINING DATES

Nov 27 & 28

Dec 1, 2 (mental skills), 3, 4, 9 (PESS), 11, 10 (Friendly with S.as, 7pm), 15, 16 (PESS), 17 (PESS), 18 (NUS boys friendly), 22 (morning), 24 (morning)

Plus every Wed night/ Sun morning is out for Youth training too.

Boohoo, train my life away.

Almost There.

I always believed in working for what we want.

Simple: You want good grades, you work hard towards it.

If you've failed to be a part of a process, you don't deserve to be in the result.

If you barely contributed to a project, you don't deserve the grades.

If you barely helped someone in time of need, you don't deserve theirs in your time of need.

If you were barely there during the exam-period, you don't deserve post-exam time.

Am I making sense?

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Second last paper today,

2 and a half days of insane cramming for the last module (which I trulymadlydeeply abhor).

And just a few hours short of 100 to freedom.

I can already smell it.

heureux

you aNd i,

we're made for Each other.

jUst like how the pieces of jigsaw,

Fit perfectly together.

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mois.

~everything in monochrome.

URGH

Verbal vomit.

Tomorrow will just be the case of verbal vomit.

And I hope I vomit the right things to the right question.

BRAIN CRAMP, SERIOUSLY. =(

The Damage Gives You Hell

Sunburnt, Hurting left leg (after getting knee-ed),

A little less flabby, headache,

Aching, superdupertired.

A morning/early afternoon in the sun and I'm back to black. (Well, somewhat.)

And omfg, my second platypus burst!

All thanks to Al. Boo, I hate you for now. >=(

I barely studied today. Forget about playing N.tl finals =(

PS: Omg, mac for dinner again. It is satanic.

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Yesterday:

A last minute decision to head home was changed, 

Lamian XLB at JayPee for dinner, and ice cream, ice cream! :D

THEY ARE OPENING A STARBUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY! Something to love about the West. :D

I know I should quit whining.

d to the i to the s to the a to the p-p-o-i-n-t-e-d.

to the highest degree.

why so stupid! boo. =(

i am dreading sunday and subsequently monday.

boohoohoooo.

i am craving for soup spoon but it's never gonna be satisfied.

just when i thought it could. how! someone buy it back to school for me. =(

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Ever had brain cramp?

I think I'm having brain cramp. =(

Word of wisdom/ 211108: Do not listen to The Used while studying. You end up with your own rock party.

I want to be done with exams too, I don't want to study anymore =(

This exam period feels so long.

And before I am even over with this semester, I already know the dates of my examinations next Sem. 15-30th April 2009. Whatever it is, THANK GOD FOR NO DOUBLE PAPERS!

No more MC, I promise!!

January 2009.

OHAMGEE! Iveepee fixtures are OUT!

Give Me Something.

I wanted to go to bed, to avoid the disappointment.

I even drew out something, I had wanted to send.

But I decided to wait.

Like you always told me, "have faith", be hopeful.

But I guess it's just another mistake.

I have defeated my purpose of battling the fatigue.

I, am the real fool.

But of course, "there's nothing to be upset about."

Do not worry, for I am not.

Goodnight, and here's to a better sleep than the one I had before.

Losing My Way.

Today I learnt a new equation:

. + , = ;

Happily ever after. Hurhurhur.

"Where Is Your Humour?"

a lover's alibi says :
im waiting for my teammates

they coming soon
bernnaard. love story. says :
i see

wad kind of movie is that?

a lover's alibi says :
??????????????????????????

bernnaard. love story. says :
hahah
normally only movie put coming soon ma
lol

a lover's alibi says :
HURHUR HUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Pemo, don't emo!"

I fucked my paper so so soo sooooo bad today, I cannot even explain the extent of how bad I fucked it up.

Didn't finish and basically just didn't know how to do.

And even my answer to the easiest question is wrong wrong wrong! Sigh.

And W had to offer the best encouragement ever,

"If you know how to do 2b and 3 then ok. If you don't know then die alr."

ARGH.

Anyhow, I came back to this:

Can't really see but it's already uploaded so I'm lazy to delete it.

(My mom added me on Facebook)

Say something against me but do it yourself to me.

Everyday With Every Word, We Get So Far Away.

It's almost like we're back to these days. Half a sem ago, it was Computing, etc which we thought were tough enough.

This sem, the attack of the modules is wayyy worse. =(

Yes, year 2 is shit tough, and I am not looking forward to Sem2 :( 

(Can't wait for 27th Nov though! HEEHEE)

Oh yeah and omg, we got distracted with Facewarp today!!!!

Anyhow, we ended up confusing each other, (more of W confusing me actually),

and I wrote so much til my fingers and hand hurts so bad now..... =(

On the other hand, once tomorrow comes, the rest of the exam period will fly by! (:

PS: Need. to. do. my. Powerstep! >=(

PPS: Will not care so much anymore. =]

If The Choice Was Ours Alone.

Yesterday over revision,
we digressed from studies to touch,
and got distracted.
=(

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Seems like We've lost it. All.

Doesn't Mean That We're Not Falling Just Cos We Haven't Hit The Ground

Guess what I got today?

(plus a box of Strawberry Meltykisses! :D )

What's more exciting is what I gave in exchange .....

[Edit]

Hahaha. (:

Severed Hearts.

Because G says my blog has no pictures.

(:

Black Forest from Purple Rose!

Some random day I found my giraffe looking at me like that.

Gummies gummies! :DWe don't have this in Sg right? It beats Party Animals hands down. Muahaha. I finished it in one night. (And got scolded for being selfish ha ha ha )

The Spongebob lanyard! :D

PS: Have I told you about my Havais jelly that makes me want to eat them too? :D

Your Own Disaster.

"Stop touching so much"

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I'm so so so excited for the post exams but the process towards the end is going to be a horrible horrible one. I always find myself in a position of a complete lack of motivation and total disregard to the importance of the excellence in this meritocratic world. (Recall J2 years)

Shit aside, been having a pretty awesome weekend so far. Though not as study-intensive as I'd thought or liked it to be, but in the time span of 2, 3 days, I can safely say.. I've made up for the months of absence. ((((:

And we also learnt that Six degrees of separation was more than enough to connect people together. Sometimes, we just need TWO.

And I've also realised that I lost my boundaries. Or maybe I never really had them.

No one ever set the rules to distinguish black and white, identify truth from wrong.

It has been about perception all along.

Nobody taught us the definitions, we learnt from observations, from understandings, from experience.

There's a fine line between Love and Hate,

And I have misplaced it. (Maybe once again)

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PS: Omg, my daddy just gave me a spongebob lanyard! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIPOK! =D

This Morning,

I woke up and I couldn't find you.

To Write Love On Her Arms.

(Click.)

=

3 words, 8 letters: Iloveyou.

Ihateyou.

Convince Me.

The room smells sour.

Not sure if it's the result of our body scent mixed,

or if it represents the lingering memory of you/us.

Or if it simply is just my emotions transformed.

Maybe because the sense of smell will do me better than that of touch.

;

So she was right,

when she said it was just habitual. They have just been so used to having each other around that the thought of losing the other scares them.

But this may not necessarily represent Love.

Where do you draw the line, then?

Find Your Own Space, Find Your Own Pace.

I've recently found a new form of destress; biting S. Do away with your stress balls, and paper crushing/ripped, biting someone really helps.

Training today:
Almost everyone came in colour codes; Red & White.
Hence we had a black sheep, aka Ek. (:
EK: "I thought maybe we celebrating some Touch Independence Day."
And 60% of us were in the EXACT SAME shirt. Coolio molio.
Plus we had baby dinosaurs for carbo reloading today :D


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Independence.
To me, it's not a choice to be made, but rather something that needs to be driven.
Just like flying. It's not something that can be done just because you decide to, but it has to be driven, in this case, taught.

Likewise, Independence is driven. Parents who want their child (once again, it is not a decision made by the child himself) to be independent drive them into becoming so. Doing their own laundry, washing their own dishes, even the simple travelling to school on their own.

No matter how determined you are, a driving force is still needed for the completion of that decision. And Independence is one example.
I'm not pointing fingers, just illustrating that this is a reflection of more than the individual herself.

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50:27, a long phonecall with the (ex)roomie

Be Still, My Heart.

When we forget the little things,
could it be that we've taken things for granted?

Or are we taking things for granted,
hence forgetting the little things?

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.
.

Good night.

Like A Punctuation Pt.

Saturday was awesome, though damn tired would be an understatement. I guess I can say it was fulfilling.
We got on the field, a week later, with the same familiar faces, but with a different heart.
We were ready, and we knew the results wouldn't matter.

With awesome hard runs and an exclusive touch down, we played our hearts out, ran til we couldn't breathe, but we had fun. Somehow, without winning in mind but the determination and discipline still securely in place, a different sort of game plan surfaces. Maybe a little less hungry for scores, but still awesome. It's been a long time I ran this hard, and had my 1 litre platypus dry. =)

Was asked for a favour after the game, and somehow felt obliged to assist. With that little bit of energy left, I reffed another 40 minute game immediately after mine. =( Tired shiate, but it was somehow something honourable.

Went home black, burnt, and burnt-out so I slept the midafternoon away again, before dinner at Novena with the Sister and S.
ManU/Arsenal was, on the contrary, a disappointment to a fulfilling Saturday.
But an early night wrapped it up anyhow.

Friday;
after a half an hour tutorial, an hour brunch break with Calamari rings that made my tongue feel funny the whole day, we left for HollandV. Treated ourselves with Purple Rose's cake (indulgence! :D) and popped by a party shop for a Helium Balloon before leaving for Aranda.

So surreal; I remembered Birthdays, and Post O levels. Time passed with Space Chimps, catching ups, people watching (familiar faces, haha), closet maternal instincts, and eventually, multiple strolls along beautiful Down.town East (it has changed soo much!) and a trip to the arcade. Felt so much like the after-exams. =(


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Now, it's the exam week, exam period.
27th November, 3pm. COME SOOOON.
I Can't Wait For The Holidays Esp CHRISTMAS! :D


PS: OH! The apricotjelly Ha.vaianas are back! They look a little pink though, but chewy and they make me wanna eat them :D Can't wait for the metal ones to be backkk! :D

Less Yet More.

He who is big, yet soft.
He who is strong, yet weak.

He who carries the weight of the world upon his shoulders.
He who always thrusts his two arms wide open.
Not to receive, but to give.

He who never completes his sentence lately,

He whose words hang loose at the tip of his tongue.
He who knows guesses every word you don't speak,
but hides each he doesn't.

*

" Your freezing speech bubbles
Seem to hold your words aloft
I want the smoky clouds of laughter
To swim about me forever more "

It's all for you.

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Happy Birthday! But You Weren't There.

Today, we studied til the sun shades were lowered and risen again.

Today, we; like ants among human, gymed until we ache.

Today, we made plans to celebrate a birthday but the lead didn't turn up.

Today, she told me to suck it up, and get through it. Because I won't regret it.

Today, we let our hair loose and danced to music we didn't understand and beats we couldn't catch.

"It's all about the rhythm", she says.

Today, we hung our dirty laundry in the public.

Well then again, not really.

Today, we allowed our imagination to take us beyond two simple words, "Banana Marathon".

Today, you asked if I love you less.

Crack The Shutters.

You cool your bedwarm hands down
on the broken radiator

And when you lay them freezing on me
I mumble can you wake me later

But I don't really want you to stop
And you know it so it doesn't stop you

You run your hands from my neck
To my chest

Crack the shutters open wide
I want to bathe you in the light of day

And just watch you as the rays
Tangle up around your face and body

I could sit for hours
Finding new ways to be awed each minute

Cause the daylight seems to want you
Just as much as I want you

It's been minutes it's been days
It's been all I will remember

Happy lost in your hair
And the cold side of the pillow

Your hills and valleys
Are mapped by my intrepid fingers

And in a naked slumber
I dream all this again

""

"with you i always feel like i have to be something u choose , like its always some competition"

Tonight, we drink to Youth.

potlickticks

Another module kissed goodbye with my last report for the term submitted just now..

Slowly, a 5-day week becomes 2-day;

the time during lessons we used to think crawl now sprints,

your shorts feel a little tighter around the waist area.....

Yeah, you know what it means.

Finally, the sense of urgency fills you like that of a dripping tap to an empty water bottle; the process slow and tedious, but as you reach the top, it quickens. 

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Poor S popped his shoulder today, and played his heart for, what he feels, might be nothing. =(

I hope good news comes along soon to prove him (maybe us,) wrong.

PS: Still craving for something salty, like really salty.

I Smell Like You.

Finally today, we could throw the notes, rip our cue cards, and sell our HWtwo-one-oh textbooks.

With our oral presentation, we have wrapped up this non-examinable-yet-still-took-up-shitload-of-time-2au-module.

We were pleased when we saw the grade(s) and positive comments on the cover of our Final Report, congratulating one another for breaking free from the Cplus grade the previous semester. Yet, our grades were only mediocre. Ultimately, I guess mediocre beats falling short of expectations anytime, right?

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Had my first campus run tonight. Felt like I spent more time/energy talking but my legs are aching and I hope it's a good thing. =)

Hello November.

This photo is super hilarious ((((:

But for now, I am going to take a nap. (Have a hunch I'd sleep til dinner time though)

No explanation for the fatigue. Maybe it's just the sleep-conducive weather.

I hate November.