I Melt In The Sun Like Sugar In Water.

Ever since I fell ill last week, everytime I step under the sun, I get this contracting feeling in my head.

And everytime I'm made to run a little harder than I can, I get this nauseous feeling in my tummy.

G made me realise a while ago that school is starting in 2 weeks.

Paradoxical feelings; I'm quite tired of holidays. (haha what a joke) Somehow, school gives you a direction, a focus. Though yes, 5/7 days I'm cooped up in PulauBoonlayNTU but ohwell, I guess it beats travelling there now 3/7 days for training bright and early.

Bad; I'm so desperate for my holiday and I know it's coming =) But when something comes it means it's going to end and school is starting.

A paragraph full of contradictions but with the significant changes made to my uni life with effect of this commencing semester, I don't know if I should be excited or worried.

J once told me, "Time doesn't past quickly. It only feels like it did when it's over because it already happened"

How true.

Yesterday, I was denied sleep after training and got dragged to Partyworld when I don't sing. So I got conned of sixteenbucks where I was semi upset. Then to accomodate us, they (FOC main comm!) let us slot in English songs which they knew too but it doesn't seem as fun as when they yell into the microphones alongside their favourite Chinese music. =((

W.araku-ed for dinner and ZM had swollen, cracked lips after 4 hours of emotion-filled serenading.

POSTCAMP

Left for camp with a little bit of regret, got through the days hoping for Friday to come quicker.

With very little sleep, (I can count the total hours with my two hands), a lot more disagreements, a lot of hardwork, infinite naggings and lotsa hiccups, we got through the days, we survived.

With a lot of surprise good food (Xinwang porridge on Monday from Chu! Cinnamon melts with Junx and Rah on Tues! Two cups of Koi on Wed + sushi at night from G! More cinnamon melts on Thurs!) But with everything comes sacrifice, I barely ate dinner on certain nights :(

Camp was all about flexibility, and not preparation as somehow, somewhere Log would misplace something, we would run out of blindfolds, we cannot find 4 chairs, etc. At 5am, we were staring at our pre-planned camp schedule and looking into suitable changes to accomodate superstitions and save money.

I had moments of anger, of childish fit where I asked myself: "Why am I the one doing this?"

When people were sleeping, I was up for debrief. Sleeping last and getting rudely awaken the next morning by people who missed debrief.

I had my moments of regret; when things go wrong and I just don't feel like salvaging them anymore. I wanted to leave, just get a breather and let the rest do it.

Ultimately, like I told S. Since I've given my commitment to it, I'd just get it done and over with, to the best of my ability, with all I've got.

In the end when people tell you how much fun they've had, how smooth camp went despite the many last minute changes, the satisfaction is one beyond words.

Just like how it felt after Touch Attack. (:

Thank you everyone for making camp a success.

I've made friends, enemies, changed impression of others and yes, undoubtedly had an awesomely fulfilling 5days 4nights.

Hibernation started yesterday, and it still hasn't ended.

Unpredictable.

I just read an email.

It had KARMA written all over it.

May WORLD PEACE follow after this incident.

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Over the weekend, Seniors' camp and Touch Attack happened.

The former took place on Saturday, at Sentosa. Despite the light shower and grey clouds looming, we carried on. We merely played six games with four

groups of very unsupportive, discouraging, RUDE, disobeying SENIORS who totally pissed me off (ok actually only ONE particular CGL) but before we reached the last segment I was already DEAD tired.

I suddenly fell silent and became 90% inactive and needed my name to be called out at least twice before I could respond. Ok, maybe it was the heat + hunger + dehydration + fatigue + angst + preparation that led to that but I'm so gonna die

on the actual camp. 6 days of this. Ohmymama, no wonder my fellow cp decided to sit down and play poker with satay sticks as chips.

Touch Attack on Sunday was crazyrushed. We ran the entire event with ONLY 10 people. And like I said in my emo sms, if I could do it all over again, I'd still choose this 10 people to run the show with me. Because they are the ones that cover one another's asses. They are the ones who will wake up bright and early to come help out. They are the ones who returned to school on a weekend for preparation. They are the ones who effortlessly did the job

of 3 people. They are the ones who, at the end of the day, sit down together with me, and reflect on the day's event.

Though there were many pre-event hiccups, we managed to pull through and it was awesome.

We fell short of our targetted teams by quite a bit but ultimately, finance is just a secondary objective.

Felt really surreal when it was over. How the month-long uncertainty built up to the week-long sleepless nights and intense concentration to do game & ref fixtures.

I will remember how I was crazybusy running up and down from the emcee tables to the three pitches; to play, to ref, or to collate score sheets for updates. I will remember how There's A Fire! gave their 101% in their games and in their sales of food/drinks. I will rememer how DearAshley shook hands and reminded opponents to "Buy our hotdogs". I will remember how yummy the hotdogs tasted! (They were so good I was still thinking of it late that night). I will remember how J.eannette holds a mic, a loudhailer, a stopwatch in one hand while the other lowers the volume of our music. I will remember the damned lightning

alarm and how we had to delay our games. I will remember how XP's math is much better than mine(: I will remember how much sh** A.ngela & Ek put up with know-it-all U20 teams. I will remember how Coach reffed til she had blisters in her feet.

At the end of the day, we received lotsa positive feedback, both from participants and teammates, even coach. And that made everything more meaningful than it already was. Indeed, everyone contributed to the success: my awesome teammates + coach, our awesome sports officer in charge, the participants, the refs.

Thank you all.

My sleepless nights, deteriorating eyesight, endless nagging have paid off.

Dear Yanns also left on Sunday morning for Hamburg and has reported to have landed without her checked-in luggages. But nonetheless, at least you're safe dear! LOVES!

Monday was the legendary Stars wars where my star planner hung and I managed to get a grand total of ZERO core modules. There were absolutely no slots left for any tutorial index and GO had made me call back "5 mins later" when I called.

Eventually managed to get the mods. Like M.ichael says, "seems like such a norm" now since we go through it every fcuking semester. Hur!

Tuesday, Date with Liangshitfavourite before Crabby's Disney-themed 21st!

Wednesday,

Itinerary after training:

-Ice spa with Valley Welly & a Goldfish

-Manicure/ pedicure lavender aromatherapy session with Ms A.ngela Yong

-Facial (with free body scrub & face mask thrown in) with Ms X.in Pei

-Lastly, organic healthy eating lunch with AnneSkinnyGoh

(as quoted from coach's email)

J.eannette and I went shopping; from Wheelock to Shaw to O.rchard central. Heehee

I went home and the heels of my feet hurt so bad :(

An extremely long-overdued meet up with the Bestie on Thursday,
and with the supposedly quarantined Ameliaaaa today!

Where we had sushi and 50 dollah mao shan wang durian!!!!!!!!!

I will keep getting better.

(photos from Chow's FB Album)

Saturday;

A major frozen yogurt craving led myself to Jco as recommended by JL which tasted ten times better than it looks. The Ahgong wanted to furniture shop so we headed down to Park Mall where we wow-ed at the jacked up prices of H.erman Miller furniture.

Then we celebrated Eugene's 21st with Bbq food, 8-player soccer on a PS3, ice cream cake, and too much beer.

S does a reaally awesome job with instigation which landed himself in the hot seat with Mal. I can't remember who won but I (though not involved in the drinking game) won myself a driver's seat in the Stream later that night because of that.

The game then got modified with coke for Halal friends and chengteng for drivers and 2-year-old vodka with beer as it went on. It even involved school pride, and sexist issues, etc etc.

Sunday;

As usual (for now, but not anymore). Lunch with S and sister at A.ston's, Novena for coffee from Starbucks, picked cousin, picked Daddy, F1/Discovery Turbo at home.

Dinnered at Newton (the cheng teng was so yummy!), caught H.arper's.

And then. Water works.

S was initially confused/slightly frustrated but ended up laughing at the situation.

I don't know if it was to make me feel better about it or because he didn't see the severity like I did. But I hope it's the former.

Woke up bright and early at 730am for training of which the Birthday Girl decided to attend at 2300 the previous night so we couldn't get cake. Coach wasn't around so it was more light hearted and we water breaked longer than our drills. SHH.

Jean and I lunched with Angie before we went up to her room for some cheesecake lovin'. :D

Was so tired I could fall asleep anywhere by 4. :(

CP meeting was slightly awkward but very productive albeit taking more than 3 hours. We tried XinWang Taiwan which was surprisingly pretty good(: Cheaper and better than the HK one anytime(:

We managed to shorten Seniors' Camp to 1 day! Ended just in time with S' training so I joined the boys for dinner at BK with some Mos Iced milk tea(:

Woke up aching entirely today :( And need to start doing up Fixtures. :(

But it also looks like my rushed week is a tinybit more relaxed with Seniors camp shortened by half(:

You don't miss your water til the well runs dry.

Whichever You Prefer.

Training on Wednesday was "Back - to - School" themed. We all came dressed in our JC jerseys and we were reeeaaallly colourful that day. It made training look bright and happy but the fitness/drills totally killed whatever was left.

We forgot to take pictures so we took this while waiting. (:

Thursday(night) was spent with no other than my favourite people from schoool. =D

From Prata to intended ice cream at I.cekimo (which was closed by the time we arrived), and then to prawning til 3ish. We spent more than 10$ on snacks to last us through the night, and caught a grand total of FORTY ONE PRAWNZZZZ.

Slightly into the first hour, we realised our net had many huge holes and thus 2 luckyshit prawns managed to escape. :( But we were on a rolll the next two hours and Brudder even caught a KING PRAWN!

It was definitely much more enjoyable than the first time I went. Somehow we couldn't get used to the amount of strength to be used so I managed to send two of the prawns I caught on an insane Reverse Bungee ride, concussing them as they hit the walls on the side. Chong even tangled up our rod with the lamps hung up.

We had fun feasting, but we finished them all up in less than half an hour.

Nothing tastes as good as when you've caught/cooked/earned them yourself. :D

Site recce on Friday was awesome. It was short, sweet, SPECTACULARR. We were in total AWE of the place, and it was so much nicer than what I remembered it to be..

Really. Awesome. (:

Then, that night, Mommy brought home her Third Daughter. (HAHA) Some little cute p3 kid who stayed over for the night. Both of them were sooo caught up with their Facebooking games, I was quite speechless. My mom is 5* (secret! hah!) and the girl is only 9!

Saturday; had an awful breakfast. :( I didn't get my waffles and everything was just so bad. Then we had our semis. Really important game. Victory would have been sweeeeeet, but we didn't work hard enough for it. The first time we played this team, we lost 4-2. Then we drew 3-3 the second time, and finally won 4-3, earning ourselves 2nd place in the table.

Yet, during semis we lost 5-4. It was so so close, the pressure was intense, everyone was flustered. It didn't help that we were screaming at one another, but the opposition deserved to win based on that 40 minutes. Tragic, but true. =(

Made my way down to S.omerset Residences to celebrate Liu's 21st! It rained and thus ruined the party plans by the pool and everything reverted back to the room. The birthday boy had pretty cupcakes in place of a birthday cake which was kinda cute. (Since he's a boy!)

Woke up bright and early for Funtouch today. We won! Black berries. Haha.

And the rest won u21 girls too! Even the Turf Babe was from our team, so awesome stuff.

Hate astro burns/ sun burns though. And yes, my middle finger is swollen from a boot-kicking action from I-can't-remember-who. =(

Caught T.erminator just now. It is definitely one awesome action packed film.

But it kinda made me nauseous. =(

Back to touch tomorrow with taped up fingers. AGAIN. Oh my. 4th consecutive day of Touch tomorrow. :( OK STOP WHINGING. Goodnight.

"I Have So Much To Say!"

Yes, I am officially year 3 with the release of results on Friday.

I remember frantically logging off before it was 12 so I would refrain from checking my results. 

I didn't give S a chance to speak when he called by screaming "DON'T TELL ME! I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!" repeatedly through the phone. Funny.

Anyhow, I've officially completed HALF of my University education.

It has been quite a journey, with changes and new beginnings to anticipate at the start of every sem; something different to look forward, and next sem is no different.

Another two years to go til graduation (NOT looking forwardddd), but also another two years with T.rojan, and another four semesters of exciting chapters to unfold.

Holidays on the other hand, have been insanely occupied with trainings.

Yeah, ok like what's new. For the whole of last week, F.oc / T.ouchattack planning has consumed much of my braincells and energy. It has been almost a month since I was "stressed up".

But all is well and three cheers to that.

Goodbye my Touch. Though We've Only Met For 2days.

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I saw it coming- I'm sure I did. Yet I did nothing to stop it.

Or maybe, doing nothing was the only thing I could do.

People talk about the 'Angel' and 'Devil' voices in our heads; the good and the bad.

But sometimes it's just our Hearts versus our Heads.

There is no good or bad, only something we can't explain, something intangible, something non measurable.

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School today was slightly different, we had donuts and cookies as Exam Welfare.

We chose to queue for the donuts over cookies and it was disgusting how there were people eating a cookie, queueing for the donut. And, how can someone carry 5 boxes of cereal/files/foolscap and strutt into the LT, late, yet so proud of his achievements?

Sorry but I cannot accept it. 

Caught St.reetFighter: ChunLi yesterday. Kinda felt like a budget action movie, tragic.

But the lead is really pretty (:

Concluded our last F.OC meeting before the exams and we (CPs) still have many little holes to fill up which actually sums to quite a huge amount of work. :(

School's coming to an end, with every module wrapping up its last lecture, last tutorial. Exams are less than 20 (?) days away, yet the urgency is missing.

Every sem I promise myself the next will be different and give myself some slack. But come the next sem, things never change. :(

My self-discipline disgusts me.

Oh! And yes, I've sold the touch.

Gen2 here I comeeeeee! :D

Normal local students: GPa = "Giga Pascal"

My tutor: GPa = "Jiggle Pah!"