bringiton.

Today I learnt the progression of my Mixed Team Captain's Level of Intensity.

He always wears a cap, so the progression goes like this:

(Lowest Intensity) Cap -> Wear cap the other way round (like a Kid Rapper) -> Throw the cap on the ground (Mega Intense + Aggressive )

I shall find my level of intensity and aggression like his too. With my books, for my exams.

Maybe I'll start with filling up my pencil case. So the fatter it is, the more intense I am with studying =)

HEHEHEHE.

June and December are such sacred months, and nothing academic should EVER fall onto these months.

They should be untouchable, fully dedicated for recuperating and resting.

I hate it, hate it that I have to spend my December as a slave to my books, slogging to study.

EXAMS SHOULD NEVER EAT INTO DECEMBER.

LIKE THEY DON'T EAT INTO MAY.

COS DECEMBER = CHRISTMAS = HOLIDAY

AND MAY = LABOUR DAY = HOLIDAY.

SIANSATION.

WAS SO UPSET YESTERDAY I WENT OUT THE WHOLE DAY TO SLACK, REST, RELAX, RECUPERATE, RECHARGE, WHATEVER.

Caught 2012 and it was awesome.

Seventh Dec.

Two papers down(:

Three more to go.

Am almost half way there, but the most dreadful paper is over.

Didn't have the best of a start to the exams marathon but I'm glad I've finally started.

And a long way to go before the end.

Have finally fallen sick and spent half of ystday in bed to nurse the headache and flu. Boohooo.

Still feeling woozy and out of place today despite taking a nap.

Thought EK's call was my alarm and accidentally rejected it.

I only have 4 days to study 2 modules (an elective and 1 4AU core paper) so I should not be rewarding myself with too long a break like my peers are.

:(

So long.

Bella.

I am...

panic attacking for the second time for Wednesday's paper.

BUT : I have a paper tomorrow so there should be no reason for me to neglect it.

S says I should stop thinking about it so I've kept all the notes, past year papers, tutorials, and everything that reminds me of Advanced Materials Processing in a file and hid it under my table.

Spent the weekend in hall, except Friday night and the first half of Saturday.

Surprised Seef over breakf with the other 4 of Bao (sorry you couldn't be there Sheryl!) to celebrate her 21st one day early. (:

So I'm finally starting exams tomorrow! (: About time, when people around me are beginning to E-N-D. :( 7dec sounds so far away, but shall not complain about the time I have on hand to use for revision! (:

Need to go for a run soon. Getting oversized.

Goodbye 3005!

Life is.......

hectic these days. I barely get to pause and think about stuff.

Last week, I spent the first half of every day interacting with kids almost a decade younger than me. From tag rubgy, to bowling, rock climbing, vulgarities, flying punches to the face, playing truant ; I have seen almost everything.

Ek and I laugh it off after each day, and we feel really old. Almost 10 years older, yet among them we feel their age. It's like, we've never really grown out of our teenage years..

Rock climbing was super fun though! I climbed til I ached so bad after that. I couldn't write cos my arms were trembling (slightly) so yes, hats off to Ms. KWANJIELING. You're my ouxiang! (: Haha

Over the weekends, I also had two consecutive nights of Steamboat for dinner which was shiok beyond words since the weather was c-c-c-old. (:

After steamboat on Sat with Arthur & Mal, we caught Sister'sKeeper which was really quite sad..... We all expected to cry but the two boys didn't. I didn't cry as much as I thought I would too.

And FRIDAY! Friday was an impromptu supper with Mamadao and nuer dearest! We headed down to C.heesecake cafe then to upperchangi road for some awesome bcm meesua. We talked about life and reminisced about the past (as usual). We also talked about our future, and how the flavour of the cheesecake we ordered reflected our lives............

Wasted my entire weekend on Touch too. :( We had two games on Saturday. One was good, one was way way way below standard. But we were truly worn out by the end of the day. Then Sunday again at Turf for a Day Nat Training Camp. :\ Headed down with fishy. (:

So yes, no work completed over the weekend, thus leaving me with

• Presentation slides
• Presentation Rehearsal
• Sound quiz
• 3007 quiz
• 3002 assignment
• 3007 webcast from Friday
• Tutorials

left undone. It's midweek today and I'm glad half of the above is over. (:

Presentation today was all right; it wasn't awesome. But Q&A was terrible. We couldn't answer a question and were sent back to "do your readings". SIGH.

Sounds was harder than expected: "List 3 journals"

Even the frantic flipping of my notes whenever possible didn't help. The answers aren't even there. -_-

For now, I can finally take a deep breath before I start again.

Need to prepare for another hectic week(end) ahead juggling Touch, Arthur's farewell, and studies.

3 tests next week.

And exams in two weeks.

I. Am. So. Dead.

PS: My neighbours found a baby terrapin outside their room last night!

My Fourth Finger REALLY Hurts.

I've been writing til my fingers hurt really badly,

til they feel swollen actually.

Like my dear friend says, "sleep less";

tonight is the last chance I choose revision over sleep.

Which I shall do.

(I need it anyway(: )

I'm hungry though.

The Final One.

Upon dismissal, everyone screamed and shouted, cheered and rejoiced.

Except me.

I didn't need a premature celebration, neither do I want it.

In fact, I barely deserve it.

One last paper tomorrow, which is a dire consequence of my ill-discipline last sem.

About 22 more hours to liberation; I don't know which to feel. Anticipation? Or intimidation?

22 hours more also indicates 20 hours max left for revision (excluding the deduction of SLEEP)

Just a few days ago, I was lectured for allowing myself the luxury of sufficient sleep despite the never-ending work to be scanned into my ohsominute brain. I tried sleeping less, it didn't work out as well as I'd thought. 

Anyhoo, thank you all who have been extremely encouraging(: For your text(s) to keep me going. It has been really sweet, and motivating.

I don't always believe in second chances, but this is my second chance.

I'm not going to screw it up again. (:

Pn junction, solar cells, semiconductors, Fermi levels; HERE I COMEEEE! :D

Meanwhile, enjoy liberation the rest of you. (:

We decided to give Skalex a shirt I could no longer wear. (:

Boys Are Smelly!

PS: Ding, I tried the white Kinder B.ueno already! AWESOME!!!!!!! :D Haha. I'm never gonna eat the normal one anymore(:

Tension Headaches.

I am honestly getting out of hand,

yesterday I screamed at two people ; one didn't hold it against me, and one didn't take it as well.

Honestly, I know it's no excuse. I have no better justifications.

But I'm crumbling and my safety net has broken.

I hate falling asleep, cos I can't. I have a huge load on my mind. I try to cast it down, I take it to the Lord.

Then I hate waking up. To reality. It hits me so hard. Mentally.

If only it were physical then I could pass out and have bigger excuses.

.

Yesterday,

ONLY 2 out of the 8 questions that I spotted came out in a 9-choose-5 question examination.

Hence, I effectively spent wasted 4 days on a module that didn't test me on what I studied,

and now I don't have enough time for the remaining papers.

FML?

To top it up, I'm barely halfway through my examination period (4 more papers)

and (almost) everybody has ended/is beginning to end.

DOUBLE FML?

FOUR MORE (CORE) PAPERS.

TRIPLE FML.

#2

HRM

valuestrategyeffectivenesscommunication

creativityleadershipinnovation

humanresourceperformanceappraisal

Mental Toughness.

And I have been unproductive for effectively more than twenty four hours now.

All I think about is sleep and touch tomorrow.

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"I have full faith you will reach my expectations if you just take a breather and not worry too much."

And that, I shall.

Ready, Get Set, Thermo.

.

And they did it again.

Over lunch.

Extra marks!!! :( You guys made me damn sad for one day :(

I'm seriously beginning to believe I am gullible. =(

Fix My Feet When I Stumble.

Truth be told,

I'm secretly excited for tomorrow.

Not that I'm 100% confident for the thermo paper,

but I guess I like the idea that I'm finally getting started with EXAMS.

Though it means time's gonna fly, I'm running outta time for revision,

but it also means IT'S ENDING. MY IPOD TOUCH IS COMING HOME. And of course, HOLIDAYS!!!

Just need to get through this week, I'm gonna have an exciting weekend(: 

I already know it, and I'm looking forward to it. (:

Then get through the fucking Materials paper (IRONICALLY, this is my course. So it's probably like my corest core module which I understand nothing).

Then it's the final week (unfortunately also the toughest week; 3 papers in 4 days!)

Random question,

If you are above Average, does that mean you're A grade?

PS: I have the worst friends ever by the way. Yesterday, one was trying so hard to convince me 'r' stands for 'the first term', but it actually means 'ratio'. And last night, two tried extra harder to convince me the paper tomorrow is semi-open book. Argh, too tired to be mindfucked. Haha

Still love you all by the way.  (Except you, fff!)

Agape.

There is no Love greater than that of God's.

This weekend, He reminded us of the meaning of that 4-lettered word.

A word we learnt since young, in our children's rhyme, from our parents/grandparents.

And the simplest form, yet the one most difficult to achieve is that of Self-sacrifice.

From John 3:16, we know, He has sacrificed The Best for us. And with that, there is nothing else God won't do for us, because He loves us.

How do You define Love?

In 1 Cor 13:4-7; the boundaries have been drawn.

I know I keep quoting these verses, but it serves as a reminder. Maybe to myself.

It is patient, and it is not proud.

We are taught to love our neighbours as ourselves, to love your enemy.

So how do we Love?

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Thursday; lunch at HollandV with Mrsdarcy and Wei'an,

followed by a series of quick shopping for the patient, and a (unintended sinful) food visit down to Crabby's. We tried to talk happy stuff/silly stuff and distract her from her discomfort and pain. I dare say to us, happyfood always works best(: + helium balloons! Nothing is as happy as helium balloons(: We got a H.arry Potter one  since she already had every other Get-well-soon balloon that caught our eye. The other two made a few phone calls to check the spelling of EXPELLIARMUS which we finally did, thanks to Wei'an(:

We had desserts from Da Paolo (supermothereffingkickassawesome!), the new kinder surprise, her Ahgong bought us Icecream from the Icecream man (old school but love it!) and we had more sugar rush from reminiscing the trigger happy JC days. 

Dinner with Dxxx where we over ate, then shopped a little for destress(: Hah.

Thanks for telling me my nonexistent bicepped arms are huge. I love you very much. ROAR.

Friday: Church- A solemn, solemn Good Friday.

Yet, why is this Good Friday good? (For you to answer yourself)

Studied studied cried studied cried cried studied studied. :(

Saturday: The Bestie had me over so we could study together while not being in an airconditioned place (fluuu!) We had the clock resounding every hour, counting down to the bare hours left to my paper (she only starts much later!) and being fed by Y.fei + Dennis. They made ice cream (cookies&cream + Hazelnut) and durian puffs; so we just ate. And after dinner we had tangyuans too. Basically we just ate while studying. FATSSS. But it was happiness(:

So O/A levels. (:

Sunday; 8am service!! Went home to nap before meeting Penguin & PresAw(:

We came back to school earlier than I expected, later than they scheduled (heehee), dinnered, attempted studying and fantasized more business plans: UNITUT !?, Shared (un)funny jokes, shot each other weird stares everytime our phones rang....... OK UNPRODUCTIVE.

And we had supper. (:

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It's not in me to force His word unto my friends, but I hope all of you had your share of God's grace, God's love this weekend(:

Because I did(:

THERMO IN TWO DAYS! :(

What Hurts The Most.

My friend(s) say I look like a strawberry (cos of my hair :( ),

and maybe now I really am one sad/red/miserable/spotted/sour strawberry. 

:(

Life is miserable.

The flu bug seems to like me alot, no amount of Cold relief/ Flu Max is helping.

This sucks.

My world is spinning, literally.

So fast it has spun out of control. Yet I'm digging my own grave. Fuck.

And last night, Dxxx just had to tell me my arms are big. :(

Arggh.

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT PLAY JAM LEGEND! (Heeheehee)

Talk Is Not Cheap. It's Free, I forgot.

Two CAs this week down,

that leaves one on Wednesday,

and exams in less than 10 days now. (8 days!)

Anyhoo, with the CA over, it's also one module down(:

The test, however was bad. Despite already SUing it, the way the boys talk about it scares me.

Choy.

I've a receeding gum line,

and yesterday S dropped my retainers case and now it's broken and can't close... >=(

Talk Is Cheap.

THIS IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN THAT I'M ALREADY READY FOR EXAMS BUT HELL NO.

This weekend was very different from the last.

Last week, I rushed off class to H.omeTeam NS where the staff was ultimately unfriendly. Basically we made a wasted trip down, and now we the cheif programmers are in deep shit cos we have no accomodation for F.OC. =(

And like any other Saturday, I played touch, fell asleep, woke in time for dinner, ice cream treat & movie with S. We caught ... Shopaholic, which I thought was better than expected. Coincidentally bumped into my sister at the theatre so we had a lift home!

Sunday was spent with the dear ex-roomie, for just 1.5hours to celebrate her transition of a kid to an older kid. Haha. 21 or 12, you'll still be a kid to me! Heh.

And yes, it was a nice 1.5 hours. Short but enough(:

This week: Sushi buffet til 6-ish then supper at Prata house til 1-ish.

And (once again) like any other Saturday I played touch, sat under an umbrella to watch touch, was at turf while it was damn hot til it rained til it got sunny again, iced my thumb, waited half an hr for Mr. PresidentAw, watched S play for G.uinness against the Natnl team boys with PresAw, chomped for dinner, and studied (wow finally(: )

Today, was caught in the heavyheavy rain but decided to get drenched cos we were freaking hungry(: Spent the afternoon with Penguin. It's becoming a typical Sunday for us, and I kinda like it(:

Basically after sprained my thumb thrice in a week: Saturday, Tuesday, Saturday, it has finally swollen and hurts big time. It's bloodclotted and hurts when I try to move it (therefore hurts when I write too) HENCE I have skipped Sunday training (again). Hah, I'm never gonna go for training until exams are over. =\

PS: I still want to chop my hair.

PPS: I feel like sleeping already but I have two CAs tomorrow, of which I haven't started one.

"Today is Your Lucky Day!"

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that

I'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen

when you tell me you're in love

Say it again

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Today we received TWO pieces of good news.

ONE: WE ONLY NEED TO STUDY FOUR CHAPTERS FOR MATH. KICK ASS OR WHAT.

TWO: Our project is very well done!!!

But......... (here's the story)

After many months of indecision, We, the MGM ComPany have decided to SU our elective.

And today, after the deadline of the SU declaration,

our lecturer said:

"VERY GOOD!" x 294320 times,

and eventually said the most heartwrenching thing; "This is one of the best projects."

W#$#@(%*RU$@%T@$I*%R@!#$E@#

We threw away a free A. :(