Friday, the 13th.

Everything happens for a reason.

Thought I'd meet the Bestie for supper so I didn't want to ask the CarameloFrappo to accompany me study so I didn't go down to study cos I don't like being alone. So I came online to get some company and listen to music and do work in Brother's room.

Company: checked.
Music: checked.
Do work: Unchecked.

Not only did I not get any work done, I also dug my own pathway to find my own grave.
If only something which happened in the previous string of events didn't occur I wouldn't be where I am now.
You're not the only one who knows how to avoid and run away from reality you don't want to face,
so do I. I just don't cos it comes back to haunt you anyway.


So this tallies with how I feel tonight:

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you was strong enough, you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself
I don't know why you think you gotta hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me and listen to me
Because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you
to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush
There is no other way, I get
the final say because
I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurt
I never needed you to be there every day

I'm sorry for the way I let go
On everything I wanted when you came
along
But I ain't never beatin', broken not defeated
I know next to you
is not where I belong

What a wet Friday the 13th.
Didn't realise it til G mentioned it halfway into the day.

For You A Thousand Times Over.

This is Me and My Room mate.

Over the weekend (including Friday),

# I had one last meal with a friend leaving in search of his own W.ondergirl, ate til I was so full, carried a friend's (guy! wooh) backpack on his behalf.

# I left for touch with my jersey, boots, socks, etc but stood under the orange umbrella to cheer the team on. Before half time I walked over to the stands to retrieve my things in temptation to play. But Coach waved her finger and gave a BIG No-no.

I was also late for A.rthur's 21st where I became a big party pooper and felt eternally bad. I learned about making bad decisions but how sometimes we are given second chances.

I also met a friend-on-crutches who had to sneak out of the house and "steal" car keys and drive with an almost disfunctional left leg for a cup of tea while we pondered over decisions we've made/we're going to make, philosophies of life and our future.

I also laid in bed to enjoy the rain and wind though it was almost 4 in the morning and I was still sick.

# I came back to school early on the account of "work to do" (which is not entirely false) because sometimes you choose to follow your heart over a stubborn mind. And you find out it's not too bad a choice either. Accompanied lonelymiserablesickpathetic S for dinner and caught F1 in the TV room over dinner.

# I also abruptly, impulsively, suddenly decided that I want to go GIPCHINA and am going to apply. Oh, the power of persuasion. However, the definite decision will only be made when the acceptance email is received, and of course when I manage to convince myself of all the commitments I can leave behind and safely say, return to six months later.

# I have also spent a huge amount of time with Kite Runner when I should be finishing my readings for the meeting on Tues. But this is definitely better than Thousand Splendid Suns!

Talk Is Cheap.

THIS IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN THAT I'M ALREADY READY FOR EXAMS BUT HELL NO.

This weekend was very different from the last.

Last week, I rushed off class to H.omeTeam NS where the staff was ultimately unfriendly. Basically we made a wasted trip down, and now we the cheif programmers are in deep shit cos we have no accomodation for F.OC. =(

And like any other Saturday, I played touch, fell asleep, woke in time for dinner, ice cream treat & movie with S. We caught ... Shopaholic, which I thought was better than expected. Coincidentally bumped into my sister at the theatre so we had a lift home!

Sunday was spent with the dear ex-roomie, for just 1.5hours to celebrate her transition of a kid to an older kid. Haha. 21 or 12, you'll still be a kid to me! Heh.

And yes, it was a nice 1.5 hours. Short but enough(:

This week: Sushi buffet til 6-ish then supper at Prata house til 1-ish.

And (once again) like any other Saturday I played touch, sat under an umbrella to watch touch, was at turf while it was damn hot til it rained til it got sunny again, iced my thumb, waited half an hr for Mr. PresidentAw, watched S play for G.uinness against the Natnl team boys with PresAw, chomped for dinner, and studied (wow finally(: )

Today, was caught in the heavyheavy rain but decided to get drenched cos we were freaking hungry(: Spent the afternoon with Penguin. It's becoming a typical Sunday for us, and I kinda like it(:

Basically after sprained my thumb thrice in a week: Saturday, Tuesday, Saturday, it has finally swollen and hurts big time. It's bloodclotted and hurts when I try to move it (therefore hurts when I write too) HENCE I have skipped Sunday training (again). Hah, I'm never gonna go for training until exams are over. =\

PS: I still want to chop my hair.

PPS: I feel like sleeping already but I have two CAs tomorrow, of which I haven't started one.

Finish What You Started.

We came up with ingenious plans to prank teammate(s), and our coach,

got all excited about it,

but in the end, THE WEATHER PRANKED US.

Fucken rain that lasted through the afternoon :( 

We trained indoors but carried on with the prank (on Coach), and she was too focused on WTF happened to our training gear that she didn't notice everyone turn our backs to her and giggling away. Anyhoo, she was pissed x1000000 at our irresponsibility and "kept her eyes on the bag" cos she couldn't believe it.

(Ok, we took out ALLL our touch balls and replaced them with 1 basketball, 1 volleyball and 2 small spongey rugby balls)

I was a walking evidence of F = ma and P = F/A yesterday at training.

Large m contributes to large Force which results in High Pressure as the Area of my thumb is small small small. :( Painful. 

Oh, had Macs strawberry oreo mcflurry today. It was awesome! Like a strawberry sundae + oreo mcflurry. :D Yums. Thank you! :D

It's Not Always Rainbows and Butterflies.

Recess Week;Met my Mrsdarcy alot to slackshopeattalk and just be around each other.

Had an extremely wet Saturday where we played in the rain and took breaks when the rain stopped. Headed down to Th.omson to look for D dearest (If you see this, are you ok!!!!???)

and had an unintended stayover at H.ave8. =\

Church on Sunday where I had my motherfingkillercramps so I spent the entire Sunday in bed and missed the gathering at Syl's place =(

CP meeting on Monday, almost everything is done now except a few minor changes and little things to confirm with extenal companies. Really really looking forward to camp, though it is going to be super tiring on us. =) Dear Mrsdarcy was 45mins too late, and the next thing we knew, we were running across overhead bridges, running after buses so as to not be late for S' game. (which they lost and it was pretty wasted)

Woke up earlyearly on Tues for Manufacturing meeting. And everybody was L-A-T-E! >=(

But here's what happened:

(The previous night)

P: "G can you wake me up at 8 tomorrow please! It's so late already and I'm scared I'd oversleep."

(The next morning)

P: "Good morning! I'm awake!"

G: "Wah seems you woke earlier than me."

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G: "I just showered. I think I will leave my house at about 830 :)" --> I remember the smiley.

P: "Aren't you gonna be SOOOOOOO late? My dad's sending me there"

G: "Wah shit."

It was really quite funny. =)

Had Kui.shimbo buffet for lunch with S and caught He's just not that into you as recommended by Yanns but we didn't like it! :(

Rushed off for training cos it ended later than expected. Good thing the Bff was around the area too (: And training was, wet wet wet once again. Hate the sun, but also hate the rain around evening times.

McD. for supper cos I skipped dinner. Hrmmmm.

It was a really ordinary day for a special one, it felt just like any other normal day which shouldn't have been the case. =( Was a tad bit disappointed, and sad. But... oh well. It just says alot.

Wednesday; Bao meetup was cancelled due to last min pangsehs and mia cases. Vivoed for lunch and got Boost juice(: Yay, yay. Headed back to school only to find out training is cancelled =( so we KFCed for lunch and caught Slumdog.

Studied more with Penguin dearest on Thursday and left for home at night.

(Supposed to) study more with Mrsdarcy on Friday but we got distracted in Town and started retail therapying. =) And and and, I had my Starbucks fix(:

Met the boysss (Ahgong and fellow #8!) who bullied us over dinner; They brought us for Jap food at some kickass restaurant whose menu is entirely in Japanese and they refused to help us. Headed to B.arstop (nice place(: ) after that though! For drinks and to catch up. And we revisited The Blue Hole, which btw, looks different?

Saturday was disappointing. The sun was scorching hot, and I felt more lethargic than I normally did. Probably cos I didn't sleep well =( And we lost the only game I wanted to win so badly. Oh wellllll. Had 100+ at the coffeeshop with Syl and felt a little like Uncles who have beers and peanuts. Missed lunch cos I just didn't have the appetite.

Was asked over for a birthday celebration which was pretty cute(: 

Slept with a fulltummy and woke up feeling really sick on Sunday :( Cabbed to Tan.jong together with the rest of the team and allowed ourselves to get burnt. Felt this year's S&S wasn't as fun as last year's tooo. =( It poured as expected (just as we were leaving so we still got soaked anyway) and had awesome tomyam noodles for dinner and slept from 7 til 1030pm. OMG :|

So now, back to school.

Hate it as usual, but at least it keeps you going.

Merry, Merry.

Thank God for the rain (though it freaking soaked my laundry, boohoohooo)

cos training is cancelled and we get to SLEEP IN!

So damn tired I am going back to bed after this post.

Though it's Christmas eve and we should be partying but I'm still so tired I can sleepwalk.

(Like  every other day. Hahahaha)

Hello November.

This photo is super hilarious ((((:

But for now, I am going to take a nap. (Have a hunch I'd sleep til dinner time though)

No explanation for the fatigue. Maybe it's just the sleep-conducive weather.

I hate November.

I Have Been Letting Myself Down.

Never went for a paper so prepared,
did the paper so unprepared,
and left the exam hall so screwed.


Honestly, I am rather discouraged after two bad papers,
knowing you have another 3 more to go.

Doesn't help that the weather's been like that,
my sore throat seems perpetual,
and my more than half my brain seems to have stopped functioning.

I. Am. Just. Whining.I. Am. Just. Whining.I. Am. Just. Whining.I. Am. Just. Whining.





This somewhat feels awfully familiar.

4 minutes past midnight, I called.

don't remind me how fast time flies, i don't even remember how i spent the last 30, 31 days.

ps: I love rainy days when I'm in slippers and can afford to get dirty cos I get to jump into puddles of water like I'm 3 all over again.

With The Lights Out, It's Less Dangerous.

I cannot find the entry I once quoted Seef regarding the weather and how it affects our mood.
Something about the positive and negative ions in our body.
But whatever it is, I think consecutive days of thunderstorm really do bring people down.


A supposedly touch intensive week reduced to only one training thanks to the weather.
Felt kinda paradoxical about training being cancelled, cos we've yet to train together as a team for Sunday's match, and we were just informed of our playing positions. Sheesh.
If any consolation, I guess I don't have to worry about white mud-stained shirts, and my laundry being perpetually wet for the rest of the week? Heh.

Another touch intensive week to come, preoccupying myself with club, school matches, trainings.
God, take me to it to take me through it, please.

Seef popped by this evening, together with happy happy happy food from Goodwoodpark Hotel. (AHGONG ARE YOU JEALOUS!) Thank you, Bestie bestest friend for an awesome night. Love you to the Mooooon and back.

A photo from the leap year(:

Birdnuts, I'm sorry, and cheer up all rights.

Dying Thoughts Of A Paper-Backed Writer (Wannabe)

{EDITED}

Hi, my life is mother boring.

More boring than words can describe.

So I shall not allow my lack of vocabulary to further emphasise my bored boring life.

Spent my Easter with 2 groups of people, the first, included one who woke up at 7:55am, when we were supposed to meet at 8am, but rushed down by 8:10 am. Amazing.

The second, was 2 people who refused to take photos with me, but allowed me to take photos of them. Weird.

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Monday was dinner at BotakJones with Mr (soon to be) Botak (Jones)Wong.
I told you he's an Ahbeng. And we nearly got lost, hilarious!

----

Bao (- Seef) on Wed, when I called to ask where they were, I had the shock of my life, "Fish & Co".
Sorta objected so we went Crystal Jade (Yay, Chinese Food!), squeezed through Bugis St. minutes before it closed, with Alicia's classic, "Can I go to the toilet first?"
And holding up workers of Ice Monster cos we went at 22:08 when they shut at 22:00. Oops. But we helped them make quite a bit of business.

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Impromptu lunch with the Patrick Star on Thursday, who braved the rain, and found her way to the "agar agar building" (Look like agar agar meh!). Yummy nasi lemak, plus milky-enough-Iced Milk Tea, and more walks in the rain. My brave pain-from-needles survivor!

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Then dinner, with THREEOFUS,
#1: Hair-py with Hair.
#2: I'll let you figure what the picture is for, but hint: Don't look at us. The background's more interesting. Especially the backdrop of the person in the background.
#3: Ah Lian/Beng/Hui in the making, yoh!
#4: random
#5: The difference between a Dancer, a soon-to-lose-his-sanity armyboy, and an Athlete.
#6: Hungry. (Pong, you see that? NO SMOKING)

Food there was somewhat disappointing, but I'm willing to give it a second try. Haha.
But I hate Western! Shall wait for the craving.

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This auntie damn slow! Called at 3:52pm saying she ended work, called at 4:40 something, "Oh I'm at Boon Keng already"
Pictures 2, 3, 4 are stages of our durian fest,
and we blasted 38$ on those 3 durians man.

The last picture is happyhappy durian smiles with durian shells!

All right, photo captions another day, I'm lazy.

--

The success of a younger generation, usually depends on that of the previous.

Because skills, experiences, advice, are usually passed down from one to another.
So when one fails, do you blame the failures,
or their mentors?

Is it their incompetence,
or the mentor's insufficient guidance?
Or worse, the mentor's over helpfulness.

We're sorry to hear this,
I really am.

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The Sun is amazingly hot today! I like, I like!

I'm burping durians and tomyam soup, they taste like Peach Vodka.

I sold my N6680! I'm so lost without it, all my memos are written on scraps of paper, and my phonebook is empty!! (cos I'm lazy to copy it).

My WestEast side Story.

Well, ignoring that the weather was a total bitch,
I got soaked though I had an (ugly) umbrella,
I had to brave the rain and walk through ankle-high flooded terrains,
I sacrificed my shoes and jeans,
I took a bus, a train, and ANOTHER bus all the way to the East,
I was at the doorstep,
She said, "No.",
I walked off, listening to repeated useless apologies,
was called back after walking off,
I flicked my Superman tag (Which I'm using as a bookmark) down the railway tracks,
I attempted jumping over a (orange coloured) puddle of rain water but I sucked so splashed it on myself,
lost 54756732$ on Blackjack,

EVERYTHING ELSE TODAY WENT PERFECT. (hur!)
If any consolation, at least I wasn't the one who had my Oreo milkshake splattered all over my shirt when I (maybe, violently) poked my straw. HEH HEH.


So, Today, today, I got punk'd by a Hongkong Family.
Fucken waste of my time. (AND MONEY. TRANSPORT FEE WAS LIKE ALMOST 4$!)

-

Different inputs from different adults have led to much confusion,
and baby steps towards discouragement with every conversation.
To start, I'm merely a blind sheep waiting for my Shepard to guide my way,
No, make me a blind deer.
Simply because I've no-eye-deer. (No Idea)
An encouragement to pursue my interest contradicts the advice to do something beneficial that would eventually to a job guaranteed to make big bucks in the future.
In the first place, do I even know what my Interest is anymore?
The printed alphabets on that slip of paper reflects an interest contrary to what I truly enjoy.


I remember L saying he wants to be a millionaire by 31.
It may be a little ambitious for a dream,
but at least he has one.
What's mine?
(Get married by 29? Haha. LOSERRR)

-


Amidst the conversation, lies the awkward silences and inevitable pauses we all wish to avoid.
I tried; it was not confiding, it was merely ranting and salvaging uneasy moments.
Will things, ever be the same again?

Wait.
How the hell did we wind up like this?
I miss you but I won't tell you. And this is not a confession.

Softly, we tremble tonight.

Oh am gee,

it has been raining and raining and raining the entire day since yesterday and it's getting on my nerves. Where did all the water come from man. Yesterday, the route home was flooded my Birks was squishing water by the time I got home. Arrrgghh.

But it's all right, I am hiding under my covers and spending my afternoon watching heroes today. Shiok!

Ohyes, I need drawing block/A3 construction paper!

UGH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! (:

All right, since my IE was cocked up last night.

Here's the pictures: (YAY! I brought my camera, so now my blogposts aren't boring. LOL)

I wore my MONDAY tee shirt and wanted to make sure it could be seen in my photos but no, all of them cannot full see the MONDAY word. This is the best.

Anyhoo, we met for BTT ETrial. And we manged to finish all 6 papers within the time frame allocated for 2. Now, what do we do the next trial? Out of the 6, I freaking failed one. (82%?) But I got 100% for another. Cool shit.

It rained so we cabbed down to Kovan and trained down to Hf and lunched at FoodRepublic and the laksa is omg, yummy! Though it's really fattening cos I think it's yummy cos of the excess coconut milk.

The night before, J was so excited about watching a movie so he already checked the slots for The Holiday but when we were there, I saw the "Nightmare Before Christmas (Disney Digital)" and suggested if we could watch it instead. And J said yes, thinking it was a horror show. :\

We paid 8$ for a 80min 3d movie. But I thought it was cool shit. Abit short la. But I like Nightmare Before Christmas anyway(: (You guys should know! Hah) And yeah, we got to keep the 3d spectacles and they kinda look like shades. But it does not have any UV protection!
We left for B&J and had a MERLIONSTER- 6 scoops of icecream (AMERICAN PIE! It's new, but disappointing; Choc chip cookie dough, Phish Food, VeryBerry, New York Super Fudge, Peanut Butter), one banana, one brownie and two toppings (Hot Fudge and Nuts). Shiok to the max!
Meet the all time Ah Beng from *** Secondary school and (yuck) jc. AHAHA. He'd say, blame it on his Sec Sch. Okay he's soo gonna poison my dinner next time IF he sees this. IF!

Left for Orchard to meet Yanns (who ran in the rain for me!) and shopped (for ourselves and the birthday boy) after meeting Qh & J. This is while waiting for the other two. We didn't take a group shot after that though.

I'm losing my faith in this. Friendship, if you can even call it that.

Ps: I just ate bread that is 3days past expiry date. :\

Pps: I WANT JURIAN PUFFS FROM GOODWOOD PARK HOTEL!