"Today is Your Lucky Day!"

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that

I'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen

when you tell me you're in love

Say it again

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Today we received TWO pieces of good news.

ONE: WE ONLY NEED TO STUDY FOUR CHAPTERS FOR MATH. KICK ASS OR WHAT.

TWO: Our project is very well done!!!

But......... (here's the story)

After many months of indecision, We, the MGM ComPany have decided to SU our elective.

And today, after the deadline of the SU declaration,

our lecturer said:

"VERY GOOD!" x 294320 times,

and eventually said the most heartwrenching thing; "This is one of the best projects."

W#$#@(%*RU$@%T@$I*%R@!#$E@#

We threw away a free A. :(

Love Wasn't Built For Speed.

Sometimes tears say all there is to say

Sometime your first scars wont ever fade, away

Tried to break my heart 

Well it's broke

Tried to hang me high 

Well I'm choked 

Wanted rain on me

Well I'm soaked 

Soaked to the skin 

It's the end where I begin 

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes 

Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away 

Tried to break my heart 

Well it's broke

Tried to hang me high 

Well I'm choked 

Wanted rain on me

Well I'm soaked 

Soaked to the skin 

It's the end where I begin 

Now I'm alive

and my ghosts are gone

I've shed all the pain

I've been holding on 

The cure for a heart 

Is to move along

What don't kill a heart

Only makes it strong

It's the end where I begin.

--The Script.

Goodbye my Touch. Though We've Only Met For 2days.

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I saw it coming- I'm sure I did. Yet I did nothing to stop it.

Or maybe, doing nothing was the only thing I could do.

People talk about the 'Angel' and 'Devil' voices in our heads; the good and the bad.

But sometimes it's just our Hearts versus our Heads.

There is no good or bad, only something we can't explain, something intangible, something non measurable.

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School today was slightly different, we had donuts and cookies as Exam Welfare.

We chose to queue for the donuts over cookies and it was disgusting how there were people eating a cookie, queueing for the donut. And, how can someone carry 5 boxes of cereal/files/foolscap and strutt into the LT, late, yet so proud of his achievements?

Sorry but I cannot accept it. 

Caught St.reetFighter: ChunLi yesterday. Kinda felt like a budget action movie, tragic.

But the lead is really pretty (:

Concluded our last F.OC meeting before the exams and we (CPs) still have many little holes to fill up which actually sums to quite a huge amount of work. :(

School's coming to an end, with every module wrapping up its last lecture, last tutorial. Exams are less than 20 (?) days away, yet the urgency is missing.

Every sem I promise myself the next will be different and give myself some slack. But come the next sem, things never change. :(

My self-discipline disgusts me.

Oh! And yes, I've sold the touch.

Gen2 here I comeeeeee! :D

Normal local students: GPa = "Giga Pascal"

My tutor: GPa = "Jiggle Pah!"

+

Get Myself Together.

Yesterday at training (we were concluding what a closet bimbo V is) :

J : "What's the fastest way to drown a blonde Val?"

P: "I know! I read it somewhere, put a mirror at the end of the pool!"

V: "Huh, I would have said, 'in a pool of nutella!' (in a very very excited tone)"

Today at training:

Coach: "Looks like you need to strengthen your fingers instead. Next time before training you must tape up both your thumbs."

Me: "Ok I shall SMS more! Thumb strengthening."

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The itouch is here, so surreal to finally own one but I'm honestly willing to let it go(:

It's completely sealed with the shrink wrap and makes it more difficult but I've left it safely tucked in a corner of my shelf so I won't touch it (NOR LET ANYONE TOUCH IT!) Haha

School yesterday was so bad. :( As always I skipped my 830 lecture, but woke up earlier than normal so I took my time. Left for school and reached the LT realising I left my file behind :( It was a 2-hr lecture. So I retraced my steps to hall and back to the LT again. :( I probably also killed  90% of my brain cells thinking about whether I should get the Touch or not, so much til I ended up with a headache. (BIG JOKE) Then I wasted my 6hr break before training doing nothing.

BUT but but training last night was fun despite being extremely tiring :( Pool training drains your energy without you knowing but we acted like 5 yr olds brought to the pool for the first time.

Training today was more verbal than physical but we learnt lots nonetheless(: We were itching to play games so we drew out imaginary boundaries for a 5v5 game at the end but the lights went out on the first tap-to-go. We started playing in the dark, dropping every ball thrown before we were called in to take a picture with the guest coach. (AL! He wore his specs so cannot see his pretty eyes :( )

Mac for dinner. :( The company was great, but the food (and calorie count) was scary. :(

One last conversation to wrap up this post:

M: I'm not a bitch.

P: Yeah, you're just a mitch. (Male Bitch)

M: WTF!?

OK everybody should be studying and not reading this. 

Honest Juice.

I hate Sunday Nights. :( Hate the pre-Monday Blues, hate the feeling of coming back to school for yet another 5 days of torture, hate the academic information, hate school.

OK JUST WHINING.

(This is a bottle I brought back all the way from NZ. HAH. The orange juice is daaaaamn good ok. And I really like the bottle though it's just a sticker over some ordinary plastic case! :D )

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Effectively did nothing over the weekend yet lack the sense of urgency currently.

I KNOW there's a million things I have to do, and should be doing but I can't get started, can't settle down.

My arms are still aching from Thursday's training (We had to do 50 long passes each, for both sides. = 100 long pass) and carrying Friday's shopping stuff from A.didas warehouse. (S and I spent 400$ altogether but he definitely bought more!! Haha)

I probably also ate more than what I'd normally eat in a week over the past 2 days:

Friday, Thai Food for lunch, (then I went home fell asleep watching webcast). Met Ahgong/Art/Yanns with S and had dinner at Little.part 1 (don't trust reviews, it isn't that good) which wasn't enough for the boys. Seventh H.eaven for dessert (must go!) then, to B.alestier for BKT. It's almost like we had Part 1 of the Food trail. Heh.

Saturday, Mac breakf, which we haven't had in a long time. (Not Mac, just weekend breakf)

D.empsey for touch after where it poured like mad. And I fucking sprained my thumb! But it's the left one this time, and it isn't as bad as the previous sprain on the right so ogays. But but, I really HATE PLAYING AGAINST BOYS.

Went back to SA.jc, wasted time watching the boys play touch, and we had Food trail Part 2.

Tpy's Fishball Noodles, Purvis' Beef Noodles, Maxwell for Orhlua/Porridge/Pigs organ soup where I ordered a really diluted cup of Strawberry/Mango juice, Eggtarts, U.dders for Ice cream. We wanted to go Thomson for BCM (!!) but we headed to Thom.son 800 instead for Soccer. (ManUtd lost. Seriously. It was really hard to watch. :( ) Had Wala's pizza after soccer/before rugby. Caught the first 10mins of R.BS 6nations finals and fell asleep. HAHA.

Sunday; after 4 hours of sleep and dozing off during service, I dabaoed BCM (!!!) from AMK's kickass store and went down to H.ave8. Of course it doesn't taste as awesome packed, but it finally satisfied S' craving which lasted for 2 days. So poor thing.

Then dinner at O.asis where I was forced to eat alot (I don't like the 'Skinny Talk' at the dinner table. Reeallly.) and was tempted with KOI (hahaha gee pang!!) but for the benefit of my health, I resisted. YAY. Good job phil. (:

Oh yes and I was phone-less the whole Saturday til after service on Sunday cos I absent-mindedly left my phone in the car.

I'm still tired from the lack of sleep and I've been having a resident headache.

Maybe it's like Griz's: "Tension Headache", the doctor said.

Happy Birthday Pong,

Happy Birthday Tingyi.

Here She Goes Again

Pansy:
dun sleep too late u so skinny now not enough rest dun eat properly

Phil:
hahaha got lorr
if i tired tmr dont go lesson, can watch online lecture(:
got eat properly!
and everyday drink bubble t, damn fat!

Pansy:
ok u take care i going to sleep soon


MOMMY DEAREST(:

EGGS.

Just a quick post before I head to the showers! 

[ycube]:
*ooh
*k
*haha
*so eggciting
sstymcry.:
*hahahaha

[ycube] :
*sorry april coming... so everything has a eggy theme
*lol
sstymcry. :
*MUAHAHA
*oh yeah!

[ycube] :
*yea then aft tt is exams
*me currently standing on eggshells
*lol
sstymcry. :
*HAHAHAHAHAHA
*that is damn funny
*good analogy!

[ycube] :

lol

sstymcry. :
*quotable quotes on the blog yo
*hahaha

[ycube]:
*lol
*omg, then i'll be famous like humpty dumpty the egg!
*lol

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24 more hours and I'll be out of schoool!

No idea what's wrong but I've been completely unmotivated and distracted the whole week.

I just want the weekends to come and never go. :(

1 Dollar.

Inspired by a true Vodka story, I have decided to start saving!

Every dollar coin I get from change, I will keeeep!

And I will not resort to changing money just to get the coins, but I will just save as I spend. (:

Up to today, I have saved $6! (in two days). Very good Phil, keep it up! :D

Today, we gymed! To satisfy the Campus Run craving, I spent close to 30 minutes on the treadmill and came down really dizzzzzzy. Heh. Now my hamstrings ache (hopefully in a good way) and I'm still dreading training tomorrow. :(

Oh we also got our exam goodie bags that came with OCK's Curry puff (which inevitably became lunch). And therefore, read Men's Health over project meeting. It's actually pretty interesting. Hah!

Craving

For a Campus Run.

Weird, I know.

"You are a Gloom Machine"

Today while walking over to TWO;

G: "I'm not bad lor!"

P: "Yeah. You're just mean!"

G: "No. I'm just honest."

Both: "HAHAHA"

If you see this when I'm not online anymore, tmr got IA briefing know. You sure you don't wanna come to school?

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And for the last time, I'm swearing off Bubble Tea from now til end of March.

Thanks.

(AND DON'T TEMPT ME! STOP IT!)

Btw, thanks Gpang for sponsoring my last cup until 1st April. (I hope I decide to extend my Bubble-tea-free diet)

No Air.

M: "You have more friends on Fbook than I do!"

G: "But I have more photos than friends. Am I weird?"

P: "No, you're a camwhore."

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Today I drank bubble tea. AGAIN!

I deserve to be shot. :(

-
I'm not afraid of anything even time
It'll eke away at everything but we'll be fine

Something (still) Feels Missing.

I've been feeling really choked over the weekend,

and I've lost ownership of many things especially control over my emotions.

I've been really stretched and jaded,

and finally the numbness started to wear off.

This self-defensive bubble wrap has secured me for close to two weeks,

and finally together with the end of the season, it wore down and allowed what it shouldn't have to penetrate.

Finally, the waterworks. After much postponement.

I've also been having too much of a sugar fix.

Starbucks and coffee bean and bubble tea and endless ice cream cravings.

And it's not good. :(

Just last night, Mom went on and on about how I need to eat more/eat well/put on weight and she thinks I'm troubled but keeping it to myself. 

Played my first (and probably the last) Mixed game of the season. Just to make up the numbers though, and comfortably slot myself in the wing at every opportunity possible. (Except the times during substitution where I got pushed to the middle) Was a little scared but thank you AL for being very encouraging. (: Haha. We won 8-3.

The entire Saturday afternoon at turf = sunburnt. (Even with sunblock!)

Too much Uv rays gave me a headache and fever over dinner. But I still caught Witch Mountain anyways. :( Missed Ahgong and Arthur who were at Barrage!!! But I needed the rest anyway (I think.)

Sunday; time with Penguin (again :D). Plus MrsDarcy came to join us. (:

This song is like my Song-For-The-Weekend and I still can't get it out of my head.

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you, 

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok

I'm falling to pieces, 

(One still in love while the other ones leaving)

I'm falling to pieces 

(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Every Rose Has To Die.

One man's trash is another man's treasure,

one man's pain is another man's pleasure.

Jaded.

I've been reallyextremelymothereffingly tired lately, but I always can't sleep at night.

Either that or I constantly drift in and out of sleep.

Just last night, it took me close to 1 hour to fall asleep,

only to wake to random things (eg the celebration of victory from hallthree).

And I've been having those weird/awkward dreams again: physical abuse, random people I don't even talk to anymore, awkward situations with current friends, and possible futures.

I always believed dreams have a chance of coming true, like they are meant to prepare you for what's to come. Not that it's a premonition or a deja vu, just a vague picture painted of the possible future. Maybe that's why I always feel the future freaks me out.

And lately, I've been somewhat allergic to these two words: "Balance", and "Pride".

>=( Hrmm.

Someday somehow, I'm gonna make it allright. But not right now.

.

Take the pain out of love,

and love won't exist.

Your Own Tragedy.

just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around,
to clutter up your shelves
and I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there are some things
that I'd like to say to you

.

.

.

.

.

.

But I've grown weary from conversations that lead to misunderstandings and defensive excuses.

The Best Of Me.

Sushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! :D

Finally had some over dinner with my FridayNightGang Lets-Meet-Once-A-Week Clique (minus the Ahgong).

Now the tums feels funny cos of the yogurt overdose Yanns and I had. :\

Your Skin And Bones.

This weekend passed by,

quick and spontaneous, like any other.

The difference though, is the after taste it has left behind.

Bitter sweet, but also enlightening.

Tragic, but true; that it always takes things like these for you to know the truth.

Friday night was spent prawning til 4. We had a few bites, but we caught nothing. We have so much more to learn about this new thing we're trying to pick up, just like how much more we have yet to know about each other despite the hours we've had together.

We also witnessed a fight, that broke up within the same group of friends, which involved hair tugging, chair throwing, beer-bottle smashing, lots of vulgarities and eventually the police.

(But to start with, I had an early Black Friday: my friends left for school without me, I had a bad test with unfriendly company, I mixed up match venues, I almost sprained my ankle walking across a grass patch, I got attacked by ants... Argh)

We probably fell asleep only after the sun rose, and slept til the clouds hid the risen sun. It started pouring and I murmured, "Thank God I didn't have a game today." Not because we could spend the afternoon together, but because I didn't want to go home with my underpants soaked.

Then suddenly, three words you said to me shot through like an arrow in a bull's eye, "I dunnoe leh" and I finally knew what "More than words" meant.

Most of the time, the final word in the final sentence is "Bye", but I decided to play it different. And I said it, the most effortlessly summarised phrase: "Fuck you."

Being kickass friends, my FridayNightGang (self proclaimed) had already picked me up and took me down to BarBarBlackSheep; Smokin'frogz rather, for (really oily and fattening) dinner. Being the gentlemen they are, they even paid for dinner (which I barely ate). Wanted to drink, but chose to head East to the Beach to pick up the other 1/4 missing from the party of Four. (where the driver was being a complete Gangster on the road)

Joe's (slightly) dysfunctional Macbook and terrible wireless connection took us on a detour to Tampines where we crashed and become a party of Seven (of which two were virtual). Skyped with the one in Aussie, and another in England; Liang I miss you alot =(

Was sent home safely and slept in til mysecretDate woke me up an hour late. If you didn't know this about me, I secretly hate waking up when I'm upset. But this time the numbing effect lasted longer than I thought it would. Spent the day studying/digressing/reading NewMoon with mysecretDate and Penguin dearest. This was where I randomly flipped the book open and read the below quoted paragraph. Today was not meant to be productive (academically wise), but merely an excuse to distract and take my/your/our mind off things. This spells Discipline. I probably also had an ultimate sugar overdose for the second consecutive day (imagine: 2 tubes of Mentos and 1 packet of Skittles all in less than 3 hours. Yesterday, it was MagnumWhite + BubbleT).

The numbness, faded a little while over dinner. But it came back after the nostalgic ride back to school. No, it's bad, but it's good for you.

And tonight, my best friend is coming over (hall) to crash.

This is a support system that will never fail you.

Save Your Breathe, Your Heart Has Spoken.

"I was not alllowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The trade-off was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing."

-New Moon

Leavin' me stranded all in love on my own

Stranded in this spooky town,
Stop lights are swayin'
And the phone lines are down
Snow is crackling cold,
She took my heart, I think she took my soul
With the moon I run,
Far from the carnage of the firey sun

Drivin' by the strangle of vain
Showin' no mercy I'll do it again
Open up your eyes
You keep on crying, baby I'll bleed you dry
Skies are beneath me
I see a storm bubbling up from the sea

And it's coming closer.

KOL.

HAPPINESS(:

Everybody, and I mean literally, E-V-E-R-Y-B-O-D-Y  IS DOING IA IN SEM TWO! WOOHOOOOOOO

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I think it has become an odd (and bad) habit to sleep in every Thursday and miss the 930 Chemistry Lecture. :(

PS: I'm having rashes toooo!

"I have a friend called Mimi and she lives with me!"

I have a splinter that refuses to leave my finger.

Jeannette has decided to name it, Mimi.

It's just like an itch I can't scratch.

And that sucks.

It started bleeding after S' persistence which hurt so bad =(

And training was badbadbad again. But at least it didn't rain :D

Yay.

And my face is starting to peel. It's scary.

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Muddy. Aching. Abrasion. Tired. Jaded. Painful.

+ Need super glue (cos of fucking bad hands)

It's Not Always Rainbows and Butterflies.

Recess Week;Met my Mrsdarcy alot to slackshopeattalk and just be around each other.

Had an extremely wet Saturday where we played in the rain and took breaks when the rain stopped. Headed down to Th.omson to look for D dearest (If you see this, are you ok!!!!???)

and had an unintended stayover at H.ave8. =\

Church on Sunday where I had my motherfingkillercramps so I spent the entire Sunday in bed and missed the gathering at Syl's place =(

CP meeting on Monday, almost everything is done now except a few minor changes and little things to confirm with extenal companies. Really really looking forward to camp, though it is going to be super tiring on us. =) Dear Mrsdarcy was 45mins too late, and the next thing we knew, we were running across overhead bridges, running after buses so as to not be late for S' game. (which they lost and it was pretty wasted)

Woke up earlyearly on Tues for Manufacturing meeting. And everybody was L-A-T-E! >=(

But here's what happened:

(The previous night)

P: "G can you wake me up at 8 tomorrow please! It's so late already and I'm scared I'd oversleep."

(The next morning)

P: "Good morning! I'm awake!"

G: "Wah seems you woke earlier than me."

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.

.

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G: "I just showered. I think I will leave my house at about 830 :)" --> I remember the smiley.

P: "Aren't you gonna be SOOOOOOO late? My dad's sending me there"

G: "Wah shit."

It was really quite funny. =)

Had Kui.shimbo buffet for lunch with S and caught He's just not that into you as recommended by Yanns but we didn't like it! :(

Rushed off for training cos it ended later than expected. Good thing the Bff was around the area too (: And training was, wet wet wet once again. Hate the sun, but also hate the rain around evening times.

McD. for supper cos I skipped dinner. Hrmmmm.

It was a really ordinary day for a special one, it felt just like any other normal day which shouldn't have been the case. =( Was a tad bit disappointed, and sad. But... oh well. It just says alot.

Wednesday; Bao meetup was cancelled due to last min pangsehs and mia cases. Vivoed for lunch and got Boost juice(: Yay, yay. Headed back to school only to find out training is cancelled =( so we KFCed for lunch and caught Slumdog.

Studied more with Penguin dearest on Thursday and left for home at night.

(Supposed to) study more with Mrsdarcy on Friday but we got distracted in Town and started retail therapying. =) And and and, I had my Starbucks fix(:

Met the boysss (Ahgong and fellow #8!) who bullied us over dinner; They brought us for Jap food at some kickass restaurant whose menu is entirely in Japanese and they refused to help us. Headed to B.arstop (nice place(: ) after that though! For drinks and to catch up. And we revisited The Blue Hole, which btw, looks different?

Saturday was disappointing. The sun was scorching hot, and I felt more lethargic than I normally did. Probably cos I didn't sleep well =( And we lost the only game I wanted to win so badly. Oh wellllll. Had 100+ at the coffeeshop with Syl and felt a little like Uncles who have beers and peanuts. Missed lunch cos I just didn't have the appetite.

Was asked over for a birthday celebration which was pretty cute(: 

Slept with a fulltummy and woke up feeling really sick on Sunday :( Cabbed to Tan.jong together with the rest of the team and allowed ourselves to get burnt. Felt this year's S&S wasn't as fun as last year's tooo. =( It poured as expected (just as we were leaving so we still got soaked anyway) and had awesome tomyam noodles for dinner and slept from 7 til 1030pm. OMG :|

So now, back to school.

Hate it as usual, but at least it keeps you going.

Where We Belong

Today, over Manufacturing:We were actually pretty proud of our work til we saw what others have come up with which totally owned ours. Haha, and the Prof even said ours was POOR cos of the orientation of our paper. Right, apparently we didn't maximise the use of the whole 'A3' idea. Haha. WHOOOPS.

Lately, I've been really tired but everytime I lay on my bed, I can't sleep.

I feel like there are a lists of urgent things I must attend to yet when the time comes, I cannot get started.

Today, M.ichael asked if I was all right cos my eyes were bloodshot.

PS: Yes, ok. A student stabbed a prof, I KNOW. Daddy texted while we were in Math and I showed G the message. I can't believe there are people praising him, and even putting things like 'All Profs should reflect on their behaviour now' on their Msn nicks. Gosh! Damn immature and apathetic.

Mindlessly

Another classic conversation we had on Friday night at B.ar S.top:

P & Yanns: Omg! That's exactly like what Cleo said!

M the Ahgong: "Who's Cleo? Is she hot?"

Everybody else: "Omg it's a magazine, LAH!"

And a link you should all click to watch the vid: CLICK FOR IVPEE!

PS: my face really hurts from the excessive uv rays :(